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Same Mistakes // Chapter Twenty Nine

Tessa never knocked on my door leaving me to believe she was either too embarrassed or just didn't care, which wasn't really an option. I laid in bed, exhausted hoping that Ryan would come up with Jayce soon.

A few minutes later there was a small knock on the door, hopefully my prayers being answered. I slowly got out of bed and looked in the small mirror above the dresser quickly, assessing the damage crying had caused me. I didn't have any makeup on, so the damage was limited to the puffiness and redness of my eyes.

I rolled my eyes, realizing there was no solution and walked to the door. I looked down for Jayce, but did not see him and as my eyes wandered up I could tell the person standing in front of me wasn't Ryan.

Martin's face was blank and his voice was low as he spoke, "Hey, can we talk?"

"Not really." My voice was husky, yet another symptom of crying.

Tessa must have not went back to the living room after that encounter and my attempt to pass the others without them noticing anything was wrong must have been a success. Enough of a success for Martin to make it to my room before anyone else.

"Nadia, come on. Can't we be adults?"

I scoffed at his audacity, still not letting him in my room, "You mean can I forget the years of pain you caused me because you ruined my relationship and are pretty much the reason I had to raise my son alone for the past two years? Not really, no." I went to close the door but his foot stopped it and he let himself in with the space that I had left.

"I don't want to argue, especially about something in the past. All I can do about that now is say I'm sorry and tell you that I have grown from it. I hurt you, I know that."

My head slightly spun from everything that was happening. All that I was going through showing the toll it had on me, "Thank you for your apology, but, with no due respect, it's not accepted. And neither will any explanation of your's and Tessa's relationship. She knowingly withheld it from me and I cannot forgive that, especially when she has sent you to apologize for it. I have been through a lot in the past two years, two weeks, really. So, Martin, if you will excuse me I would like some time to myself."

Martin nodded, surprise written all over his face, "I understand that, I'm sorry for this."

"Goodbye." As he left, I rested my head in my hands. And sent a quick text to Ryan.

I, then, gathered my things for the bath before heading to Justin's room. His door was closed so I lightly knocked but did not receive a response. I knocked again, this time harder, "Justin?"

There, again, wasn't a response. I slowly turned the the knob and opened the door, not finding Justin. I slowly made my way inside, hearing music and voices coming from the bathroom. I paused trying to decipher the other voice, Za. I closed the door behind me and looked around the room. Literally nothing had changed.

"Still one hell of a room, Bieber."

I walked passed his reading nook that still had books from me sitting on the table meaning he hadn't used it in the past two years, unsurprisingly.

The double doors leading to his bathroom were closed and after pushing on them I realized they were also locked. The music stopped and I was expecting the door to open, but it never did. Instead, Justin and Za spoke on the other side of the doors.

They were quiet, but not enough for me to no make out what they were saying. Za spoke to Justin, "So, what you going to do, man?"

"Honestly, I don't know."

Although, I knew I shouldn't have continued to listen, I did.

"Gotta figure it out soon."

Justin sighed, "I know. This is just my fucking luck, man."

"For real, how you gonna have two baby mamas?"

My heart sank to my stomach as Justin snapped back at Za, "Man, shut the fuck up."

"My bad, dude. You gotta admit it's kinda funny."

Za's voice was closer to the door than it was seconds ago and I quickly went to leave the room, as an attempt to not be caught listening. The doors behind me swung open and lack of movement from the two meant the caught me.

"Nadia?"

I slowly turned to them, "Yeah, hey, I just wanted to know if there was somewhere I could take a bath?"

Justin's eyes flew back to something in the bathroom and then again to me, "Uh, y-yeah, I'll show you... Did you hear any of that?"

"Of what?"

Justin was to preoccupied to notice that I was clearly lying. Za slowly retreated back into the bathroom and whispered something to Justin, but Justin did not whisper his response, "No. You were supposed to."

His voice was alarmed as he stood at the entrance to the bathroom.

"You guys good?"

"Uh, yeah. You need a bath, right?"

I could hear Za shuffle in the bathroom, out of sight, and then a crush. Justin flinched and I peaked over his shoulder, seeing Za struggle to wipe something into the sink.

"Justin, what-"

"I'll take you to the bathroom down the hall."

Justin moved to grab my shoulder, but I successfully maneuvered around him only to find Za cleaning up what looked like remnants of cocaine off the counter. My eyes darted to what looked like the baggy it had been kept in before Justin pulled me out of the bathroom.

"Was that...?"

Justin quickly closed the bathroom door, "No, Nadia."

I looked at him in the eyes, finding his pupils extremely dilated. I quickly grabbed his wrist feeling for his pulse, "Nadia, what are you doing?"

"Your heart is racing, Justin, and your eyes are dilated. That's coke."

This time I pushed him out of the way and opened the doors back up, Za was standing with his hands on the edge of the sink. Clearly, knowing they had been caught.

"Nadia..."

Tears filled my eyes again, "I did hear what you said about Hailey by the way."

"Please don't-"

"I want to try."

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The End.

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I'm honestly SORRY

Let me actually explain: I know that I have probably lost most of you and that is understandable. But for those of you that I didn’t lose, if any, I’m so sorry. The past few years I have been in college and when I started my story I thought I could balance everything in my life. Turns out I couldn’t and some things had to be put on the back burner. I take full responsibility for that, but the good news is that I have graduated (yay!) and still very much enjoy writing this story so if you will let me I would like to continue. 💜 If you have any questions for me, ask. I'm here now.

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Same Mistakes // Chapter Twenty Eight

The inside of Justin's house had changed as opposed to the outside. He had gotten new furniture and completely remodeled the basement. The biggest change, though, was that he had one of the rooms remodeled for Jayce. It had a Jurassic World theme that Jayce loved and a countless amount of toys. Being in Justin's house, but not in his room was weird for me. Everything in the guest room was foreign. There wasn't a walk in closet or lounge chair to read in. Nothing was personal in this room, it was very much a generic guest room. I sighed and turned to the light knock on the door, "Come in." Justin's head peered around the door, "Hey." "Hey, did you get Jayce settled in?" He nodded in response and made his way to the bed, taking a seat on the end. He was freshly showered and the smelled filled my nostrils, he must not have changed his body wash since I'd been gone because it was the same intoxicating smell. I pulled my attention back to his presence. Despite the shower there was still clear exhaustion in his eyes, that like Hailey's was the type that couldn't be cured by sleep. I slowly unpacked my bags and placed my clothes into the drawers. I didn't start a conversation with Justin because there wasn't much for the two of us to talk about, despite having a kid together, and he was the one that came to my room. "So, um, do you like the room? Is it good enough?" I nodded and folded a shirt, "Yeah, I mean this is definitely temporary, but it works for now." He nodded, looking away from me, "That's good, so uh whenever you get everything settled is it cool if we talk?" Pushing my hair back, I paused my unpacking, "Does now not work?" "Um," Before he could say anything the theme of interruption continued with Ryan coming into the room, "Jayce just fell asleep playing with those dinosaurs we got for him. Little dude's exhausted from all the healing he's been doing. Such a strong kid." I smiled at Ryan, meeting his eyes that showed how much he cared about Jayce as he spoke about him. "Yeah he is. I love him so much it's crazy," I shook my head at my overwhelming feelings of love for my strong little boy, "Justin what were you saying?" "I'll let you unpack, it's not urgent so you're good." He shook his head and ran his hand through his growing hair. I hadn't paid much attention to Justin's looks lately but his platinum blonde hair was growing into a more golden blonde and the sides were longer than normal. Everything about him shouted that he was just tired. I felt sorry for him as he left and I gave him a him a little wave. I quickly unpacked all of my clothes and then Ryan and I headed to the living room where everyone was drapped on the large sectional.  I began to put my clothes into drawers, Ryan sat on the bed and smiled at me. I internally, rolled my eyes and smirked, "What?" "Nothing." I groaned loudly and threw a sweatshirt at him, "You're a pain in my ass, you know that?" Ryan shrugged, stretching out across the bed, "I wouldn't wanna be a pain in anyone else's ass." I shook my head and took my sweatshirt back to hang it up. I knew there were things I needed to say to Ryan, questions I needed to ask but my nerves were getting the best of me. I silently bit my lip, debating how I would even start this conversation, but Ryan made it to where I didn't have to. "So, how big is the part of you that wants our relationship to be real?" Turning to face him I could see that his cool and calm demeanor had changed to nervous and anxious. These past few weeks Ryan had made me feel something that I hadn't felt towards anyone besides my son for awhile, since Justin really, and that was brief - love. To deny that I loved Ryan would be stupid on my part, because it wasn't true. I had found that he meant more to me than should be allowed considering he was Justin's best friend, childhood at that. I met his eyes again, "I'd say about eighty-eight percent of me." "And what about the other twelve percent?" I sighed, "Nervous and guilty." He slowly got off the bed and made his way to me, standing only about an inch from me, but not touching me, "Why?" I looked at my hands, fiddling with each other, "Justin. He's your best friend. Jayce's dad." "He already thinks we're dating, Nadia." But that was different, at least for me because there is a difference between real and fake. This relationship was built to push Justin away from me and for it to be real, pushes him further away for me. "I know, but it just feels wrong and as far as I know he's hasn't been taking drugs since he found out about Jayce but what if-." Ryan brought his hands to mine, rubbing the back of mine, "Justin is something we can figure out later, plus he has Jayce now and he's not going to ruin that. He weaned himself off the drugs. But if you aren't sure about us, then that's different and that's fine. Also, though, just know that this past month or so you have been so strong and I've fallen so this women that has shown me what it is like to have unwavering strength, Nadia. You and Jayce have changed me, and I just want to say thank you." Tears suddenly came to my eyes and Ryan began to step back before I reached for him and rushed to kiss him before I could be stopped. Pulling away, Ryan chuckled, "Fuck, you're so confusing." "And you make me angry when you're... you." ------- I sat on Justin's large sectional with Jayce in my lap, pushing back his overgrown hair while he watched Spongebob intently. Ryan sat next to me with his arm draped over the back if the couch behind me. Nothing about this living situation was ideal, but it wouldn't be terrible as long as I was never left alone. Everyone else sat sprawled out across the living room and talked about the next few weeks and what was to come. Kylie had so much that needed to be done that it scared even me. As everyone discussed work, though, I watched Tessa determinedly text on her phone. Eventually getting up from the couch and heading down a hallway, that I believe led to the side door of the house if i remembered correctly. "You know where Tessa's going?" Ryan shrugged and watched her as she left as well. I discreetly moved Jayce from my lap to Ryan's without disturbing him or anyone else in the room and followed Tessa. Something about her demeanor gave off shifty vibes, so I lingered behind her as she waited at the door. After a few moments she opened it and shook her head at whoever stood of the other side, out of my range of sight. "You're an idiot, you know that? You could have waited until tonight." A voice answered, "You've been gone for fuck knows how long, Tessa. I came in through the back door, it ain't that deep." "Whatever. Just go up those stairs." She aimlessly waved to a staircase behind her that led to the rooms upstairs, saved for friends and family when they are over. The face to the voice made its way inside, stopping in front of Tessa to give her a hug. I couldn't see their face, but whoever it was looked familiar. After they greeted each other, the stranger's face briefly turned my way, revealing itself to be Martin Garrix. My mind wandered to what he could possibly be doing here, sneaking around with Tessa but it quickly clicked just before he gave her a brief kiss. My mouth moved before my thoughts could, "Because of fucking course." But what I thought was a whisper, clearly wasn't as the two made eye contact with me. Tessa's face flashed a look of panic as she pulled away from the one person I couldn't stand in this world. I shook my head, anticipating Tessa's apology, "Honestly, Tessa, no reason could be good enough." I quickly, but quietly made my way back into the living room, careful not to make eye contact with anyone and listening for any footsteps from Tessa to follow me. They didn't, which in this moment I didn't know if I was thankful for or resentful for. Making it to my temporary room at Justin's, I closed and locked the door. My thoughts wandered to Jayce, remembering that he was with Ryan and Justin, and I silently broke. Everything in these past few weeks was too much and I couldn't take too much more. I wanted to give Tessa the benefit of the doubt, but she knew the pain that Martin caused me. I might never know what to do about what happened with Martin that night, but drunk or not, what he did that night caused me unfixable pain and so was this. I sat against my door and clutched my knees to myself, crying everything that had happened recently out. ------- Let me actually explain: I know that I have probably lost most of you and that is understandable. But for those of you that I didn't lose, if any, I'm so sorry. The past few years I have been in college and when I started this story I thought I could balance everything in my life. Turns out I couldn't and somethings had to be put on the back burner. I take responsibility for that, but the good news is that I have graduated (yay!) and still very much enjoy writing this story so if you will let me I would like to continue. 💜

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Same Mistakes // Chapter Twenty Seven

A week had passed and things had finally calmed down. Jayce wasn't completely healed, but enough to go home and be monitored from there. The main issue now was figuring out where home was. Since I had moved to New York, Tessa moved out of her aunt and uncle's house and into an apartment. It was two bedroom, but she was temporarily sharing it with Jordyn. This left me to either stay with Ryan or Justin while Jayce fully recovered. Though the answer seemed obvious, it wasn't. Ryan's apartment was big enough for two people, but not two people, a child, and what whatever nurses needed to visit Jayce throughout the week. Leaving me with Justin as an option. His house was more than big enough, maybe to the point that I wouldn't even have to see him, but the issue there was Hailey who had also been staying with him according to Tessa and Kylie. Pushing the problem to the back of my mind, I focused on the Justin's entrance. He held multiple chipotle bags and divied out everyone's food, giving me mine last. "Ran into the doctor on my way in, he has another patient to take care of first but then he's going to come discharge Jayce." There was a bright smile across his face that infected mmm mine. "That's great." Jayce was entranced by Paw Patrol on the tv so I didn't try to get his attention but everyone else smiled at me. I sent Dani an update in New York. She had to book it back to the bar since things were so hectic without us, so much so that they bumped up Ty to my position until further notice. Looking around the room, my eyes caught an exhausted looking Hailey. I dragged my eyes away from her to look at Justin who was giving Jayce his food. "Hailey okay?" Justin looked back at her for a few seconds and then shrugged, "Tired I guess." I nodded it off even though her exhaustion didn't look like the kind sleep could solve and refocused my thought to the issue at hand, "Have you thought about how this living situation is gonna go while Jayce is finishing recovery?" "Um, I figured you guys could start at my place until he's good and then we can look into getting you guys a place near me?" I sent him a confused look, "Why would we do that?" He returned the look, "Do what?" "Get a place here?" "Because you're staying here?" "Um, no. Our home is-" I was cut off by Ryan's voice, who I didn't realize was standing behind Justin until now, "Hey, it's fine. We'll figure it out." I guess I also didn't realize that my voice has raised, causing everyone to quietly watch us. I nodded and looked from Ryan to Justin, who sent me a look saying thus conversation wasn't over. "Nadia, can I talk to you really quick?" I quickly got up and moved past Justin to follow Ryan out of the room and down the hall to the vending machines room. "What's up?" Ryan smiled and distracted himself with the contents of the vending machine. "How are you and Justin?" I shrugged, "Still figuring out how to coparent. We're doing good though, why?" "Just wanted to ask." I laughed to myself and shook my head, "It's never just asking." "Are you guys gonna stay at my place or his?" He finally turned his look to me, searching my face for any hint as to how I was feeling before I answered. I looked at the ground, knowing what I was leaning towards in my head, which was opposite of my heart, "Um, the smart thing to do is stay with Justin for Jayce's sake. He needs us both right now and not how we've been for the past few weeks, actually coparents this time." That was my head, but my heart wanted to stay with Ryan because staying with Justin wasn't good for it. Staying with Ryan was. Ryan nodded, "I get that. I would be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed but this isn't about me. It's about Jayce." "Thank you." Ryan gave me a weak smile, "No problem, I had something else I wanted to talk to you about though." Another conversation was interrupted, this time by Justin, "The doctor is in the room. They need you." Ryan nodded for me to go and I followed Justin, but whatever Ryan had to say lingered in the back of my head while I filled out the doctors papers. ------- Ryan and I drove silently to Justin's house with Jayce. I wanted to avoid fighting with Justin about mine and Jayce's future living situation at all cost, especially when we were doing good at the moment. I'd finally let my anger at him from this whole mess die down and now wasn't the time to start something else. Ryan hummed along to the radio and I looked at him causing him to look at me out of the corner of his eyes, as to not take them off the road, to say I wasn't paranoid about Jayce being in a car again would be a lie. I was terrified, but I trusted Ryan. He smiled at me, "What?" "What were gonna say at the hospital before Justin came out?" He shook his head causing me to roll my eyes, "Ryan." "Nadia." I gave him my best puppy dog face at the last red light before Justin's street, "It wasn't anything. I swear." "Fine, but you're lying." I let it go and looked at the window. I quietly pretended to be upset. Yes, it was manipulative but something told me I needed to know what he said. Justin's house hadn't really changed since I'd last seen it. There might have been different plants outside but that about it. I slowly leaned forward and started to open my door until Ryan's voice caught me off guard, "Does any part of you want our relationship to be real?" "Huh?" "Nothing." I had heard him, I was just shocked. It was clear that I had started to like Ryan but I hadn't put much thought into it since New York, I didn't have the time. But truthfully, Ryan meant a lot to me. He helped me with Jayce, helped me with Justin, and helped me with me and I was thankful for him these past few weeks. "I'd be lying if I said no." "Yeah?" "Yeah."

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Same Mistakes // Chapter Twenty Six

Jayce had been off the ventilator for thirty minutes and that left me and everyone else to wait for the results. Justin sat across the room with Jayce, while I talked to Dani and Ryan. The support of my friends during this time amazed me. Mostly Dani, who had dropped everything at the bar and flown here. Things back home were probably hectic without us, but that was a problem to be dealt with when we go back right now my only concern was Jayce. The doctors said that things were going great and if he kept up the work, he'd recover sooner than they expected. Ryan nodded his head towards Justin, who was now sitting next to Jayce. "He feels guilty." Dani rolled her eyes, clearly not convinced but I nodded. Justin hadn't talked to me since earlier and I honestly didn't mind. I needed time to think through my relationship with him, without having him try to sway me one way or the other. "I'm going to get a drink. You guys want anything?" Dani stood and Ryan and I shook our heads, allowing her to leave. Ryan looked at me and smiled, "Kid's pretty bad ass. Like damn, you raised one sick kid." I laughed and shook my head. Ryan had been trying to lighten my mood for awhile now and that was the only attempt that had actually worked. Justin's Pov Across the room Nadia laughed at something Ryan said and I rolled my eyes. I didn't want to be jealous of their relationship but I was because he was living out my life. I should be where he is, but instead I'm the one causing the pain she feels. I looked down at Jayce, who could be waking up at anytime. Selfishly, I wanted to be the first person he saw when he woke up. I didn't want to now be seen as the bad guy to him, because though I'm an idiot I love him more than I love myself. I kissed the top of Jayce's head and laid my head on his bed. Hailey leaned down next to me and smiled, "I gotta go do something, so I'll be back in a little bit if that's cool?" "Yeah, you're good. I'll see you later, text me." She nodded and gave me a swift kiss that just felt wrong to me. Once she left I closed my eyes and exhaustion hit me as I closed my eyes. ------- Someone shook me awake as I slowly opened my eyes. Nadia's face was happier than it had been since we ended up in the hospital, causing me to immediately look at Jayce. He looked the same, tired and hurt but this time his eyes were open and staring around the room. His hand was in Nadia's as she spoke in a whisper to him, "Hi, baby. You're okay, mommy and daddy are here. Don't move now." Jayce tried desperately to move into Nadia's lap but the IVs and Nadia held him down. He began to wine and look back and forth between the two of us. "Daddy!" Hearing him cry for me even after everything I put him through almost caused me to break. Though, I knew he wouldn't remember what happened to him part of me worried that he might. But in his eyes all that mattered was that I was his dad. After another minute, Jayce's doctor came in, giving him pain medication and giving Nadia and I a run down of what was going to happen next. Once everything calmed down Jayce laid in Nadia's lap, letting her read a book to him. I silently held his hand, following along. "Justin," across the room, Hailey waved me over, "I need to talk to you really quick." "We're reading a book with Jayce." Hailey gave me a look from across the room that read 'now' causing me to sigh. Next to me Ryan patted my shoulder, "I can hold your spot." I quietly scoffed at him, knowing that even though he was Nadia's boyfriend that meant nothing to me. Regardless to if I was in a custody battle for Jayce and the situation, he was my son. "Justin." I sighed and stood up allowing Ryan to take my place and followed Hailey out of the room and into a room with vending machines down the hall, away from everyone else. "Jesus, Jay, you stink. We should go to the hotel tonight and shower." I nodded and glanced over the items in the machines, "Yeah, okay. What'd you wanna tell me?" Hailey looked down, avoiding eye contact with me. I'd have to be a completely ignorant to not know what she was going to say, and although some might argue that I am ignorant. "What'd they say?" She nervously fixed her hair and looked at me, "You don't actually wanna be with me do you?" "If that were the case I would have already broken up with you" Not a complete lie. "But do you love me?" "Yes," My answer came without hesitation because that truth was I did love Hailey, just differently. But that didn't really matter now because I would have to love her just the way I love my family. "I took a blood test, it came back positive." Tears sprang to her eyes and I tightly wrapped my arms around her. I never got this moment with Nadia when she told me because it wasn't the only surprise she had, but I lowkey wish Hailey had that surprise too. Maybe that makes me a jackass, but at least with Nadia I could see myself parenting with her, I couldn't with Hailey. I could see a family and future with Nadia because I loved her differently than Hailey, and that sucked not just for me but for her. My eyes slowly started to tear up with the realization that I would really have to tell Nadia now and then there would be no turning back. No getting her back. I softly rubbed the back of Hailey's head, "We'll figure this out."

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Episode Story

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Same Mistakes // Chapter Twenty Five

I slowly began to wake up in the chair next to Jayce's bed, there was a mingling of voices in the room but I didn't have the energy to open my eyes knowing that if I did I would be met with Jayce's face and I couldn't bare that right now.

Three of the voices I could hear belonged to Tessa, Ryan, and Scooter but there was a fourth female voice that I couldn't recognized.

Tessa's voice was a whisper, "It's going to take more than an I'm sorry and it was wrong for her to forgive him. What he did was beyond wrong, he took her little boy and now because of him he's in the hospital. I don't know what the hell he was thinking."

The women sighed, "He wasn't. Really it's my fault, he was coming to see me. I just wanted to see him, meet him and Justin wanted to make that happen."

Tessa let out a long sigh, but didn't say anything else. After a few minutes I decided to open my eyes realizing that the female voice belonged to Justin's mom. Looking over at Jayce, nothing had changed from hours ago. There was no movement, no changes.

"Hey, Nadia. How us feeling?" Ryan kneeled down in front of me and examined my face. I slowly sat up in the chair, my neck was stiff and my head was throbbing, "I could use some aspirin and a neck massage truthfully."

"I'll get you some aspirin and I'll see what I can do about the neck massage. The doctor came by while you were sleeping and said that they are going to take him off the ventilator soon to try and see if he can breath on his own yet. They did something about the bone and gave him some pain medication, everything is going as planned so they are happy." Ryan smiled weakly at me and I gave one back.

Tessa gave me the food that they had ordered for me and I took small bites of it. While I ate it Pattie attempted to talk to me, "I just want to say I'm sorry, Nadia."

"For what exactly? Somehow getting your son to kidnap my son and bring him to you or your son getting in a car accident with my son?" My words were harsh but I truthfully didn't care. I was hurt, Jayce was hurt and at the end of the day it was Justin's fault.

"I understand why your upset and you have every right to be. I'm not going to defend him. He's up if you would like to talk to him, I just ask that you not stress him out too much. He's an idiot but he's my son." Pattie walked out the door and I followed her, leaving Tessa to watch Jayce. Justin's room was in the same wing as Jayce's for privacy reasons so everyone was quietly waiting in the waiting room.

In Justin's room Hailey sat next to his bed laughing with him. He must have woken up when I was sleeping. It was night which meant that all of our sleeping schedules were off now.

When the two seen me they suddenly became quiet, Hailey quickly leaving the room. Once she was gone I silently looked at Justin in his hospital bed. He was taken off his heart monitor but was still connected to the IV that was pumping fluids into him.

He looked fine and I wanted to scream because it wasn't fair. It wasn't fair that he got to be okay but Jayce was across the hall hardly being able to breathe without any pain. But even though I was mad at the same time I was a little relieved that Justin was okay. A sob left my mouth without tears this time and I quickly covered my mouth and turned away from Justin.

After minutes of trying to calm myself down Justin's hand laid on my shoulder. I hadn't realized that he had gotten out of bed but he did, his stand with his fluids following him, "You can hate me. I hate me honestly."

"If fucking only." I took a deep breath before facing him, taking a step back, "I want to. I want to so fucking bad because I should. It's not fair that you get to be okay while Jayce- But I can't because for some reason I was actually kind of relieved when I walked in here and you were okay. Because for some reason I fucking care about you."

Justin balance was off from standing and I could tell that he wanted to get back in bed but I couldn't bring myself to tell him to. Instead he continued to stand and talk, "Nadia, I love you. I love Jayce and I know I don't deserve either of you not after this, but I am sorry. I can't explain why I did what I did, all I can do is say that I'm sorry. So fucking sorry."

I shook my head, "I care about you, Justin but I can't say that I love you. I can't love someone that I don't trust and you might be sorry but that doesn't change the fact that he's hurting."

He didn't say anything else before there was a knock on the door and Ryan's head peaked in, "I got your aspirin." I nodded in response allowing Ryan to close the door again.

I turned my attention back to Justin, "Just be a better dad to your son. That's all I want because he deserves that. They're taking him off the ventilator soon, come seen him when you feel better. I want to focus on getting our son better, focus on being parents and then we can handle our relationship. Okay?"

"Thank you, Nadia. I don't deserve you."

I sighed, "Then who does?"

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Same Mistakes // Chapter Twenty Four

I silently sat on the balcony of the hotel room I was sharing with Ryan, Scooter could only manage to get three plane tickets on such short notice and since Ryan could provide the most information to help find Justin he came with us. It was now noon and despite being exhausted I couldn't think to sleep when we checked into the hotel.  In the room, Ryan slept silently on the couch still in his clothes from last night. I didn't know what Scooter was up to but he had promised that he would continue to make calls to find them.  Looking out over Calabasas made memories flood my mind. This city held so many memories for Justin and I, and being here caused a heavy feeling to fill my heart. At one point I loved him and even now I couldn't deny that. My eyes made my way down to the now cold tea in my hand and reminded myself that it was a good thing I left this city. It would have been too hard for me. Behind me the doors slid open to reveal a still exhausted looking Ryan, "Have you gone to sleep at all?" I shook my head, "I can't, I want to but I really can't. My mind won't let me." "I get it," He took the seat next to me and looked off the balcony, "Have you eaten anything at least? You only at a bagel on the plane." I again shook my head and he sighed, "I'm going to order room service and then call Scooter." Standing up I followed Ryan inside and picked up my phone. I had countless miss calls from Tessa, Dani, and Kylie but I still wasn't in the mood to be drilled with questions, "I'll call Scooter." Dialing Scooter's number I thought about what Justin could possibly be doing right now with Jayce.  Jayce would have been asleep when they left last night making it easier on him, but he was definitely awake by now and wondering where I was. There were mornings where I was gone for work before Jayce had woken up but those mornings he always had someone he knew there instead. Although he knew Justin he didn't trust him and would be crying for me. Tears welled up in my eyes as the busy signal came through the phone right before Ryan rejoined me in the living room area, "Did you talk to Scooter?" "No, that's who I was just calling. It was busy. Why?" There was something off about the look on his face but I couldn't pick it out, but as he spoke it became clear that something was wrong, "He talked to Justin's dad and he found them." "Okay?" Ryan stepped closer to me clearly debating whether he should grab my hand or not. He decided against it, "They're at the hospital. Something about a car accident." I blinked a few times before speaking, "W-What?" "They were hit on Jayce's side but that's all anyone knows. They were checked into the hospital around 1:30 after a passerby reported the accident." Listening to Ryan's words caused my head to ache and the tears to come out more fiercely. All I wanted was for Jayce to be safe after this and now that I knew he wasn't I couldn't think. "I-If Justin couldn't even call the p-police on his own that means he wasn't even conscious, right? I-It hit Jayce side, h-he-" Ryan's hesitation from before dissipated and he quickly wrapped his arms around me. I let out much needed sobs, probably staining his shirt with my tears but this is what I needed right now. I needed someone to hold me while I cried and though I was supposed to be fake dating Ryan this gesture was sincere.  His hand ran over the back of my head as he tried to sooth me, "Scooter's finding out which hospital their at now then we'll be on our way to them. Let's try to stay positive and keep our heads up. We don't know if he was unconscious or either one of their conditions. Why don't you change so we can head over to Scooter, figure this out, and see your son?" I nodded and quickly attempted to get dressed through my foggy thoughts. ------- When we got to the hospital that Justin was apparently at with Jayce their were news vans and paparazzi lined up a block away from the hospital. For good reason none of them were allowed within two thousand feet of the hospital. I hadn't stopped crying for the past twelve hours and I was feeling it. My whole body was numb and sore at the same time and the lack of food in my system wasn't helping. Once we walked into the hospital Scooter was immediately met by a doctor and another detective that led us to an elevator.  The doctor spoke hesitantly, clearly trying to be mindful of me, "Mr. Bieber does have a minor concussion and because of that hasn't been awake since the accident so we haven't gotten a chance to talk to him about it. The witness said that he was trying to make a left turn and misjudged how far away the car coming from the other direction was. He will most likely-" My patience had gone away, I didn't care about Justin, "What about my son?" The doctor looked at me shocked and sighed looking down at the clipboard in his hands, "Um, I am not the child's doctor but it says here that he was having some trouble breathing due to a broken rib so he is on a ventilator at the moment. Most of the impact hit the middle of the car which sounds bad but it is actually good." "I want to see him." The doctor nodded and once the elevator stopped went to talk to Jayce's doctor.  After waiting for thirty minutes Jayce's doctor led me with Ryan to Jayce's room while giving me all the information I was already told, "I am going to warn you that he doesn't look well since children tend to have worse reaction to these kind of things than adults. But with that being said their bones also tend to heal faster so I am hopeful about the recovery time." I nodded and he slowly opened Jayce's door, letting Ryan and I walk in first, me after Ryan. I walked slowly, taking in all my surroundings: the white walls, the sanitary smell, the subtle beeps coming from various machines, and the hard word floors under my feet. The bed was the typical size but hard rails surrounding it.  In the middle of the bed Jayce laid with large tubes hanging out of his mouth and a small IV placed on his right hand. My vision blurred again looking at his pale body. He looked weak and fragile and nothing like my happy son.  I slowly made my way to his bed, picking up his left hand and rubbing my thumb across it. As I slowly sat down on the edge of the bed I brought my hand up to brush his hair off his forehead so that I could plant a soft kiss on it.  Ryan made his way to my side and laid his hand on my shoulder, "We're here now. Everything is going to be fine." I nodded and stared down at Jayce, listening to the subtle beeps that came from his heart monitor.

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Same Mistakes // Chapter Twenty Three

I silently sat outside of Justin's New York apartment, continuously wiping away my tears. I had already spent the last twenty minutes attempting to ring his doorbell but there was nothing. Looking at the clock on my dash the numbers changed from 3:23 to 3:24 am. My phone rang in the seat next to me and my arm robotically reached for it.

"Hello?" My voice was flat, I didn't have the energy or will to add any animation to it.

Tessa spoke on the other end, "Hey, babe. We're all at your apartment. Where are you?

I took a deep breath in an attempt to calm my tears before answering, "Um, Justin's apartment." There was so much commotion going on on the other end that it was hard to focus on whatever Tessa was saying.

"Why don't you come home so we can talk and figure something out? Scooter's here and he's working with his detective. He's pissed and-" I stopped focusing on her words because it truthfully was taking too much energy that I just didn't have. I slowly started my car and made my way back to my apartment.

When I got there so many people were gathered in mine and Dani's small living room. People I recognized and some I didn't. Tessa met me at the door as I took my shoes off and began questioning me.

"Are you- I don't wanna ask if you okay but I-" I stopped her before she could continue, "Then don't because the answer is no."

"Scooter's detective is doing his best, they think they'll figure it out in a few hours."

I scoffed, "Yeah, hours. Cool." I silently made my way to the couch, ignoring anyone even tried to make eye contact with me.

I hadn't realized until now that I was no longer crying and I quickly came to the conclusion that it was because I just didn't have anymore left. It had probably only been about an hour since Scooter had initially called but it had felt like twelve had past.

Around me Scooter and his detective talked on their phones while simontaneously working away on their computers. While all my friends, including Kendall and Hailey, took turns dialing Justin's number. Another hour went by before the spot next to me on the couch dipped.

I didn't care to move because I knew that whoever had just sat down wasn't Justin with my son. Ryan's voice softly spoke, "You should really eat. I know you don't want to but I've been listening to your stomach growl for the part thirty minutes, Nadia." I ignored him and he sighed, "Sky, please. We'll find him. You think Scooter will let this go on too long? God knows he can't afford to have Justin reputation go anymore down the drain."

"I couldn't give a shit less about his reputation." I spat, my tone being a lot more harsh than even I was expecting but it was true. Justin's reputation meant nothing to me and right now neither did he. Jayce was all I cared about.

Out of my peripheral I could see Ryan nod, "You're right and I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that."

"You know that's part of the problem, right?" My voice was dull again, "No one cares about Jayce, just Justin. This will be on the news by tomorrow, 'Justin Bieber runs off with one year old sonleaving mother in worry and despair. Will Justin return?' "

"Nadia-" Ryan was cut off by another familiar voice, "Can I talk to her for a second?"

Looking up I was met by Hailey's face. Confused, Ryan stood allowing her to take his spot next to me. I didn't know where this was going and even though she had nothing to do with this as far as anyone knew I still didn't want to be talking to her.

"I know you don't like me and I get why but I know Justin and well, and I know that he wouldn't do anything to hurt his son. He's an ass and so fucking stupid, but he has a good heart. I am in no way trying to defend him but I firmly believe that Jayce is okay. Justin is an asshole and I know that this room full of people will gladly kick his ass for you right now, including me, stay positive. We'll find him."

I smiled a little because although I didn't care for her or really her words, because she still was defending Justin, it was nice of her. As she got up Scooter yelled from the dining room, "You talk to him?"

His words lingered in my head and my ears perked up, immediately causing me to come to the edge of the couch. I watched Scooter as he quickly wrote on a piece of paper in front of him, "Thank you so much."

After he hung up he made eye contact with me, "That was his dad. He said he talked to him and Justin said he had just landed in Calabasas. We're getting closer, I'm going to have someone out there try and get some information from airports and such."

I nodded and Ryan looked at me with a hopeful look, "That's good, maybe he's surprising his dad?"

"Don't try to justify him taking my son across the country! Are we all aware that he could go to jail for this? This is kidnapping, he's not on her birth certificate. If you're going to defend him too you can leave." The anger that I had been holding in all night had finally gotten the best of me and Ryan could tell. The only person I ever really yelled at like that was Justin, so everyone around me was shocked.

Dani was the one to speak this time, "Nadia, we know. Ryan knows and I don't think he was trying to defend him. We all just want to make you feel better and none of us know how. This has never happened to any of us and I could only imagine what you're going through if it were Harper- We just love you, Nadia."

I sighed and started to cry again, "I-I'm sorry. I just, I don't know how to handle this you guys. I want to be anger, I want to be sad, I just all this to not be happening. I-" As much as I didn't want to give into the tears I couldn't keep holding them in. I tightly hugged the decorative couch pillow and sobbed into it.

Ryan quickly removed the pillow and brought me into his arms, "Let's go pack you a bag and head to the airport. Sitting here waiting isn't going to make you feel any better. "

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Same Mistakes // Chapter Twenty Two

"Hey, Scoot." Scooter gave me a head nod as he and Justin got out of their black SUV. About two hours ago Justin's lawyer met with mine, who Kylie kindly helped me find and pay for on such short notice. They had sorted out how custody would be handled over the next few months while we waited for the court to sign off on everything.

It was honestly a headache, and my hand and mind were numb from reading over every sheet of paper with my lawyer. It had taken all day to sort just this small part of the custody situation and I didn't want to be dealing with Justin right now.

Somehow Scooter himself had convinced my lawyer to talk me into letting Justin take Jayce for the night, the only condition being that Tessa stay with them until bed. Jayce's sleeping body hugged my neck and I watched as the driver loaded his things into the SUV.

Jayce slept in my arms which was a good and bad thing, bad for me. It made it to where Jayce wouldn't cry from leaving me, but I also couldn't get a proper goodbye this way.

Justin, intelligently, waited for me to hand Jayce to him rather than trying to take him. I squeezed him in my arms as much as I could without waking him.

"I love you so, so much. God, I'm going to miss you." I gave him a hard kiss on the forehead before looking at Justin, "Justin, I want to trust you-"

"Then do."

I sighed and felt a heavy feeling rise in my throat. Though it didn't seem like much, letting Jayce go with his father, it was. This was the first time he would be staying the night somewhere that wasn't with me or the babysitters.

"It's not that easy. You haven't spent time with him, Justin, there are things that you still don't know." My heart was pounding in my chest and surely Justin could hear it in my voice.

"You sent me everything I need to know, if you forgot anything just text me. I'm going to check up with you. This isn't my first time watching a kid, Nadia, I know what I'm doing." And I'm sure he was right.

"This is your first time taking care of your kid though." His eyes shot me a look that read 'are we really going to start this again?'

"I'm sorry, but it's true." I sighed and the sudden realization of the time hit me. I could keep delaying this but that's not fair as hard as this is. I gently passed Jayce to Justin, but Jayce still began to rustle in his arms. I ran my hand over his back in soothing circles, "Shh, it's okay. Go back to sleep baby."

Looking back at Justin he was staring at me, "What?"

"Uh, nothing. We're gonna head out, I don't want to drag this on any longer and risk waking him up. Is there anything else before I go?"

I shook my head, "No, just call me if there's anything you need or something happens and also just call me. He will probably wake up in about an hour and should be ready to go to bed around ten tonight. Tessa will leave whenever he does go to bed."

As he said goodbye, I struggled to keep my tears from coming out. I did not think this would be happening this soon and my emotions were on a roller coaster right now. Going back up to the apartment I sat next to Ryan and Dani on the couch.

"How was it?" Dani paused Friends to examine my face. I shrugged, "Hard."

"As expected, but listen it's hard now so that it can be easier in the future. This is good, Nadia. Head up and hey, kid free for once yeah?" Yeah and it's not as great as it sounds. I quickly attempted to distract myself by putting in Moana. I waited on the couch while Dani waited on the love seat for Ryan to finish making the popcorn.

When he finally finished he sat at the end by my feet. Though this was meant to distract me it was doing a better job at reminding me of Jayce considering he loved this movie.

Justin's Pov

Scooter gave the room a once over before walking to the door, "Don't ruin this for yourself, Justin. She's being extremely nice by letting you have him tonight." I nodded and followed his eyes to Tessa, "Watch him. Justin not the kid."

"Trust me I will." I rolled my eyes and closed the door behind him. I only had about twenty minutes until Jayce was supposed to wake up although time meant nothing to a toddler. Tessa made herself comfortable on the couch while I set up the dining room table with finger paint an idea suggested by my mom.

From the couch Tessa nodded in approval, "That's actually a good idea. Nadia said he loves things like that, especially play doh." I made sure to make note of that fact. Before I could finish opening all the paint there was a loud cry from the bedroom where Jayce's play pin sat with him inside.

I slowly followed Tessa into the room, knowing that he would cry if I were to pick him up first. Tessa reached for him, "Hey buddy, wanna could to Aunt T?"

Through his tears he nodded. After she settled him down, she sat him down at the table with me to start painting. While he started I facetimed my mom.

When her smiling face popped up, Jayce immediately noticed, "Hey mom."

"Hi, is that him?" Even though that was a stupid question I nodded, "He looks just like you."

"I see Nadia." My mom disagreed with me and continued to talk to Tessa and I while I painted with Jayce. For him to only be a year and a half he was extremely smart, a quality he had certainly gotten from his mom along with his cheerful giggle.

Once Jayce finished his painting that looked like nothing in particular, but was still perfect, I held it up for my mom to see. She smiled with a loving look at Jayce, "Will I get to meet him, Jay?"

"Soon, mama."

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Nadia's Pov

My phone loudly rang from the nightstand next to me causing not only me, but also Ryan to jump up in bed. Since we'd spent the entire night watching tv I offered Ryan to spend the night and even though he could have spelt on the couch I told him it didn't matter.

"Who is that?" I shook my head while I looked at my phone. Scooter's names flashed across the screen and I instantly was more away.

"Hello?" My voice wasn't quite panicked, but there was a hint of anxiety in it.

"Is that Nadia? Let me talk to her." Tessa's voice sounded in the background, frantic. Scooter ignored her request to talk to me and I quickly got out of bed to begin searching for clothes to wear. Next to me in the bed Ryan sat up, "Everything okay?"

"Scooter??"

"Yeah, I'm here. You've talked to Justin, right?" He asked in a way that made it sound like he was sure I had, but I could tell from his tone that he was trying to come off as calm as possible.

I quickly slid on a hoodie, sweats, and started on my shoes, "No. What the hell is going on Scooter?"

"Shit. Fucking Justin, damn it." His voice was distant now as if he had pulled the phone away from his face and I heard whispers exchanged, "Tessa came to check on him and Jayce and he's not here. She called Hailey but she hasn't seen or heard from him either. We've called him but there was no answer, so did he say anything to you?"

I didn't answer his question before hanging up and grabbbing my keys. Ryan who had was now trying to frantically put on his shoes followed me out to my car. I had no idea where I needed to go, but I knew I needed to go somewhere.

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Whew. That was a long one but I feel like it was needed. Just Justin being sketchy what else is new? 😂😂

[jay-bizzleimagines]

Its been a month since you wrote something? Don't say you will write more when you don't..

At the time I was writing more and I have the drafts to prove it but the story wasn’t turning out the way I wanted it. I understand your frustration and I would probably be too, but it’s also frustrating to me to have a huge mental block like that. I want to write a good quality story that I am proud of and if I’m just writing to put something out there it isn’t going to be good. You’re right, I shouldn’t make promises that I can’t keep and I apologize for that, I won’t do that anymore. Thank you for baring with me for that month and know that I’m not trying to be an ass I just want you to see my side. I do have a lot of ideas now though and I have had them I was just having trouble executing them. I think that I’m on the right track now and I’m sorry. 

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My personal

For some entertainment while waiting for me to get off my lazy ass and write you can always go take a look at my personal blog. I don’t really post anything about Justin but I do post other good quality stuff. For the link just ask 🙃

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Same Mistakes // Chapter Twenty One [EDITED]

I sat silently in a small office waiting for Justin to arrive with Scooter. Somehow I got roped into meeting with Scooter as soon as possible to 'get it out of the way and start damage control'. According to Justin those were Scooter's words and not his, which I'm sure was true to a degree.

The office building the meeting was in was huge and in the middle of downtown New York. Go figure. Looking at the clock in the corner, I impatiently tapped my foot. I had to work in an hour and a half and they were already late. On the other side of the door, I heard Justin speaking.

"Yeah, but you gotta hurry up. You know I gotta go to the premiere tonight. Aight, Bye." The door behind me slowly opened to reveal Justin, but no Scooter, "Hey."

"Where's Scooter?" He sat next to me, slouching in the chair.

"He's here somewhere. He was waiting for me to get here." As if on cue Scooter entered the room with another older looking man. Scooter had barely changed since I had last seen him, still small and hardly intimidating. But the man with him was everything he wasn't, including intimidating and I immediately assumed he was Scooter's boss by the way Scooter stood behind him as he sat at the desk in front of us.

The older man nodded towards Justin, "Justin."

Justin returned the nod and the man directed his attention to me, "You must be Nadia, I'm Craig. I'm just here to have you sign a couple of papers. Where's your lawyer?"

I looked from Craig to Justin, confused. As far as I knew I was just here to talk to Scooter, but now I apparently need to sign papers in front of a lawyer, "Lawyer?"

Justin leaned forward, "That's my fault, I didn't mention anything to her about her lawyer needing to be here." The look on Justin's face told me to go along with it so I did.

Craig nodded, "Okay, then I will email them to Justin and he can have Scooter forward them to your lawyer. I will just go over the highlights then?"

I agreed and reached from my copy of the contract. The highlights were ridiculous.

The child in question will be subject to a DNA test and only when it comes back positive will Justin be subject to give any child support.

If child support is required, it will be monitored by Justin's legal team to insure that it is being used on the child in question's needs.

When the child is of age it will not attend public school and will be home schooled at a location agreed upon by the legal teams of both Justin and the mother.

No pictures will be posted of the child unless approved by Justin's management.

The mother is not to make any public appearance without notifying management first.

The list continued down the page, but instead of continuing I shook my head and looked up at Scooter, "These are just the highlights?"

Scooter opened his mouth to answer, but before he could Craig did, "This a serious situation and will be handled as such. We have to go over all of those points and so much more which is why you need to have your lawyer here."

I rolled my eyes and looked from Craig back to Scooter, "He's my son and has been for the past year and a half. I could very well go on with my life and give Justin or any of you no say at all and mine and my son's life would be perfectly fine. This is about Justin having a relationship with his child and if it's going to be this hard for that to happen than you can forget it."

Next to be Justin shifted, "Nadia-"

"No, fuck this. I'm not signing anything and I'm not having any lawyer read your bullshit contract. Grow some balls Justin and realize that this is your life. Either take charge of it or don't see your kid. The choice is up to you."

Justin looked at me with desperate eyes, "Nadia, please just slow down. You're right the choice is up to me and I want to see my son, but in order to be able to do so we have to go through all the legal stuff. This isn't the finalized contract, that's why you need a lawyer to go over it with for revision. Please can we just talk about things?"

I sighed and looked down, "Sorry, you're right."

Next to me he mouthed 'thank you' and in front of me Craig adjusted in his seat, "Now that that's settled we need to talk about Justin going back to Calabasas next week. What's going to happen with that?"

"What?"

Justin answered before the other two did which I was thankful for, he was easier to talk to, "You knew we were just visiting New York which the girls were doing business."

"No I know," Of course I did, "but I live here and I never planned on moving back to Calabasas. I actually was thinking about moving back to Ohio." And I was in the back of my head, the past few weeks were really overwhelming and I missed my mom. This was not to mention that my parents haven't seen much of Jayce.

"Wait, what?" Justin looked at me confused and before he could say anything a phone started to ring. Behind the desk Craig's phone rang causing him to hold up a finger and leave the room. His departure allowed Scooter to sit at the desk and finally speak to me.

"Nadia, I'm on your guys' side here. I hate management right now and I'm trying to get things back to normal, but with that being said we gotta figure some stuff out before Justin goes back to Calabasas. And Justin you gotta figure out what's going on with Hailey."

Justin's eyes widened, "Scooter, can we talk about that later?"

"Have you told Nadia?" Justin stayed silent and I said confused while Scooter shook his head and let out a sarcastic laugh, "You need to get your shit together, buddy. I can't help you if you're gonna help yourself. I'm gonna go tell Craig that we set this meeting up for a different time, if that's okay with you, Nadia?"

I nodded and Scooter quickly left, leaving me in silence with Justin, "You gonna tell me what he was talking about?"

"I'd rather not." His voice was low and showed no emotion. I, on the other hand, scoffed and rolled my eyes, "Listen to Scooter and get your shit together, Justin."

Justin ran a hand through his hair, having an internal debate on whether he should confess whatever secret he was keeping, "Nadia, I will tell you I just can't right now. Just give me time, please."

"What the fuck ever, Justin."

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Okay, so I know that a good amount of people read the original version of this chapter, but I hope that does not discourage you from reading this. As I mentioned in the Some Explaining note, I am going to be changing this story around a bit so again try to bare with me. If you are not liking the story or hate me, that is your right but please keep in mind that it is my story. All the love 💜

[jay-bizzleimagines]

Some Explaining

I have some explaining to do on why I haven't been writing. Let's start with the fact that I just haven't been very motivated lately and I think that has a lot to do with the fact that this is my last summer before I graduate college. The last summer I have to myself and just do nothing. But a bigger reason for me not writing is the fact that this story is not going how I wanted it to. Part of me wants to just call it quits, but a bigger part of me doesn't want to leave this as unfinished business (literally). So I think the only way to solve this problem is to rewrite some chapters. Over the next few days that's exactly what I'm going to do so that I can get my motivation back. For those of you that have stuck around, thank you so so much. Me writing was never about getting a lot of reads, though they help with my excitement to write so thank you guys for still providing me with that excitement.

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Bad Blood (Changed from Starting a War) // Chapter Two

The Next Day

I laid in my unmade bed writing notes for my finals yet again, while Justin went on about how Hailey and Kylie's decorations were amazing over facetime.

Stopping in her tracks my roommate, Maya, stood outside my door, "Is that Justin?"

Her heavy Australian accent was easy for me to understand, but Justin on the other hand stopped talking only when he heard his name.

"Yeah."

She made her way to the bed to sit in front of my Mac, "Have you told your dill friends to lay off Lina for the night?"

Most everyone called me Lina, the only exceptions to this were Justin's friends who instead chose to call me Ev against my will. On the screen Justin shook his head, "They are the ones that are throwing the party, they wanted to. There's not going to be any fights tonight as long as you and Dorian don't start any."

"Justin, you're friends start the fights. I may finish them but they start them."

"Whatever Maya, you always start fights with someone." Usually when Justin and Maya argued I let it happen. The problem was most of the time they both were right and instead of admitting the other was right also they would argue, which left me in the middle.

"No, I start fights with you because you treat Lina like shit. I wish she wouldn't have gotten back together with you after the shit you pulled."

"But she did and that shit kills you doesn't it, Maya? You always wanna talk for Lina but she doesn't need you to."

With that Maya threw the middle finger to Justin and left the room, leaving Justin with a small grin on his face.

"So it begins."

His smile faltered, and he ran his hand over his face, "Me and Maya just don't click."

"You did. Before everything we all got along but then you and Maya started fighting and that made your friends not like me and here we are."

"You can say it's my fault."

I got up and turned the laptop to face my small closet so I could pick an outfit. I did this to avoid the conversation that was about to start and also because there was no way I could say this wasn't a little bit his fault.

Justin could sense that I wasn't going to comment back and turned the conversation in a better direction, "Is that what you're wearing tonight?"

I nodded and held up lace and mesh dress that had a slit up the leg I had picked out.

"I don't know what shoes to wear yet though."

"What about the ones you wore for my birthday? They made your legs look so sexy and with that dress- damn."

I smiled at his comment, but again did not reply. The truth was the shoes along with the outfit I wore for his birthday had gotten returned because I needed to pay my part of rent that month. I didn't tell Justin because that would start two conversations: one being why didn't I let him buy the clothes and two would be why didn't I let him give me the money for the rent.

My parents were paying for what my scholarships didn't cover in my tuition, but they did not agree with me living on my own so did not agree to help with the rent. Letting Justin didn't feel right to me and it would also aide his friends' "she uses you" conspiracy.

"Those were Nessa's and I think she is going to wear them, I'll find something. Anyway I've got to go, we'll be at your house around nine. I love you."

Justin returned the sentiment and I ended the facetime, before doing my make up and straightening some hairs.

At 8:30 there was a knock on my door from Nessa indicating that it was time to leave. I quickly grabbed black heels from my closet and left to Justin's.

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Arriving at Justin's was no different from the day before, the only cars that sat in the large driveway, that was more like a parking lot, were Justin's, Hailey's, and Za's. I already knew that the rest of the girls drove with Hailey and the boys with Za. That is one thing Justin's friends had in their favor, numbers.

The door to Justin's large multi-million dollar mansion was unlocked and the sounds of everyone from the back yard could already be heard. Maya groaned and made her way to the bar with Dorian while Nessa and I headed to the back.

We were greeted by a loud, blasted Khalil who yelled across the pool, "AYYY, Ev, what up?"

Knowing he wouldn't remember five minutes from now that I was even here I gave a small, barely noticeable wave. Justin was sitting in the fire pit off to the side, that already had a fire going, and laughed with Kylie Jenner and what looked like her friend Harry.

I slowly made my way to him, glancing towards the DJ's table that was right next to a small stage further in the lawn. I shook my head and gently put a hand on Justin's shoulder.

Finally noticing my presence he hopped up and pulled me into a strong hug, "Hey baby, Kylie pushed back the time for everyone to be here because she said nine is too early for a party and it let's us all chill for a little."

I nodded and Justin laid a sloppy kiss on the edge of my lips. As he did I could smell the heavy scent of weed and alcohol on him already.

"How long have the guys been here?" I asked, knowing that they would have been the ones to smoke with Justin.

"Maybe an hour and a half. Why?"

"You stink."

Justin pulled away with no answer, confirming my suspicions. Just a few weeks ago I had stopped smoking for school and out of respect Justin stopped smoking around me. But with this came him smoking with everyone else and left me wondering what happened in that time.

"You didn't ask me to stop smoking."

I nodded and looked up to him, "I know. But with your history of smoking with them."

Justin nodded in acknowledgement and a voice behind us said, "Hey Lina."

Turning around I was met with Justin's oldest friend and the only friend of his that I actually got along with, Ryan.

"Butler, Hey! I didn't know you were coming!"

Ryan pulled me into a hug and laughed, "Nessa called me and then I called Justin. So I came and brought Chaz."

"What? Chaz, really?"

He nodded and pointed over in his direction before he greeted Justin, "Hey man. Haven't seen you in awhile."

They continued their conversation and I walked over to Chaz Somers, whose dark brown hair was significantly longer than the last time I had seen him and facial hair covered a good amount of his face. Without a word he pulled me into a hug and let out a laugh.

"I don't know how Ryan got me here, if I'm honest." Chaz felt the way about Justin's other friends the way you would feel about your estranged family at a reunion. He didn't like being around them but it was a small price to pay to hang out with Justin.

"Not gonna lie, I'm surprised. I miss you guys." I sighed and walked over to a set of chairs with Chaz.

"I miss being around but shit's changed. But tonight's not about all that sad shit, you're graduating!"

I laughed and nodded, "Yeah, it's crazy."

Chaz and I continued to talk, and slowly but surely more people started to join us. Somewhere in the chaos of conversation Justin left my side. My eyes glanced over the crowd, searching for Justin's familiar head until I was suddenly being pulled by Kylie towards the stage.

Kylie smiled while she spoke, "There's a surprise." Surprisingly, out of all of Justin's friend Kylie probably liked me the most and for the most part she treated me like a friend.

Looking around Justin's backyard I could now see that there was a good amount of people here and as expected I knew very few of them personally. As Kylie pulled me up the stairs to the stage I spotted Dorian and the girls who were all sitting quietly watching at the bar that had been set up.

Eventually Kylie let go of my hand and made her way to the microphone at the center of the stage, and the DJ behind her lowered the music.

"Hey guys! You all havin' fun?" The crowd screamed and Kylie laughed, "Good. As you all know this isn't just a regular Justin Bieber party, it's a party to celebrate his girl's, here, graduation because fuck yeah!"

Kylie paused allowing the crowd to again scream and clap in excitement. Most of the people out there probably didn't know my name let alone that I was in college, but the fake excitement for me still made me smile.

"So since this is such a big moment Justin asked a few people to come up and say a few things to Ev. If that's all right?"

As Kylie walked away everyone, including me, waiting to see who would come out. Unexpectedly, I heard voice come from behind me and instead of someone being there, the faces of my parents were displayed on a large projector.

I smiled at their faces because though I lived only an hour away from them I didn't get to see them as much as I wanted. My mom was the first to speak, "Hello my beautiful Mimi, god how I love you and how proud I am of you. Words cannot begin to describe how proud I really am of how far you've come."

My mom's face turned from the camera, wiping away tears that had begun to fall and soon I began to cry too, "You are such an amazing women and you have change my life for the better in so many ways, we know you will go on to change the world. You're bright and so, so smart it inspires me. I love you so, Mimi. I know you hate that nickname but deal."

She jokingly smiled before letting my dad speak, his words just as tear jerking as my mother's. As the video ended I wiped my tears away with a tissue that Kylie handed to me. Next another video started revealing the face of Ed Sheeran and causing the crowd behind me to erupt in screams.

"Hello, Evelina. Justin called me up and said that a very important someone in his life was graduating college soon, that I was her favorite artist, aside from him of course, and he wanted me to say a few words to you. As everyone knows I don't have a Uni degree so this is something to be celebrated and rather than tell you so over a screen I'd like to tell you in person, if that's alright? Well, of course it is."

Behind me the DJ started the music to Barcelona and on the other side of the stage a redheaded figure made it's way to where I stood. My hands quickly hand their way over my mouth and stood in shock. There was still no sign of Justin but Nessa ran up the stage stairs, laughing at my reaction.

As Ed made his way through the song I danced with Nessa, letting myself enjoy this moment that wouldn't last forever. Once he finished, Ed gave me a long hug that made me realize that tears were streaming down my cheeks.

"I'm sorry I'm crying." Laughing Ed shook his head, "It's fine! There is one last surprise for you though, this party would not be complete without a message from your man, now would it?"

Ed pointed to the back of the stage where Justin now stood in a new suit. Smiling he stayed where he stood, "Hello, beautiful. Stop that crying okay?"

I nodded and started to make my way to him before he shook his head and winked, "You gotta stay there for now. But hey listen, guys, this amazing women is just that amazing. Many of you don't know her, but I'm sure all of you can see just how incredible she is tonight. She's graduated with a 4.0 GPA that she worked day in and day out to get, she tutored kids when she didn't have to, she stayed up until ungodly hours to study, she works every night and has never called off against my will, she makes time for her friends and helps any time she can, she rarely says no, and even though I suck sometimes she still loves me."

Even though I was told not to cry, it was hard for me not to. Justin was an incredible person and I knew my friends didn't see that, but I did.

Justin paused to smile at me and give me a look that said 'stop crying' before continuing, "You deserve everything good that comes your way, Evelina Laurel King, and I want to ask you a very important question tonight..."

His hand quickly gestured to the screen that now read, "Will you accept my promise ring?"

Before he could say anything else I ran towards him, nodding my head, "Yes!" My arms tightly wrapped around him, his doing the same before bringing my face to his and kissing my lips.

"Well, thank you, babe but I also have something else for you." Looking back up at the screen it now read, "Can I pay your tuition now?"

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Something you guys should know about Evelina is she's like me and has a lot of pride and is really stubborn. But I'm gonna leave it here for now, thoughts?

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I know. I know. I suck, unfortunately and I’m sorry. But a new chapter is out now as a way to apologize.