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FAMILY

6 letters, one word

Has a whole different meanings

Sometimes love, sometimes hate

They are our strenght

They are our pain

They are there for us

They are there to stab us in the back

They tend to show how they like you

But when you turned around, hmmm...

They see you as an inspiration

They see you as a threat

They like creating gossips

As if we ever owed them a lot

When I mean family, its not just your mother, father, and siblings

This includes relatives too

Ohh relatives. I have a lot to rumble

They are the ones who brings living hell to us

They love to be part in our lives

They love to standout

Most especially, they like being the only one

Isnt it this amazing?

Isnt it exciting?

Isnt it annoying?

I just wanna to leave this fucking family!!!

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Hey R,

I know we had this on and off kind of relationship

And I also know that you dont deserve to be treated like a shit

But trust me, I have reasonable reasons on why I did those

First off, we never had a relationship.

It was definitely a ‘no strings attached;friends with benefits’ vibe

I cant help but falling in love with you

I told you what I felt and the next day we were strangers once again

I wanted to sort out things with you but it was really hard on my part

I had to act as if I dont care about you so that I can stay by your side

I had to act as if I hated our interactions so that I can have myself not too attached to you

Our actions will always have limitations along the way and I got sick of it

The night I told you about how I really felt made me realize that I was never been a priority to you

Well, we started off as fubus so why the hell would you care!?

But deep down, I hoped. I hoped that there is a piece of me that made you think of me badly.

I cant even dare to look in to your beautiful eyes because...

I am a coward

I know once I looked on those, I’ll be head over feet about you.

I just wanted you to notice my existence here

But after all those decisions

I still blame my fucking self

Looking back, I new there were opportunities to spend some time with you

If we continue this shit everyday,

I might lose you

I might be forced not to see you

I guess, this life is not for us at all.

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So I just watched WWE’s documentary about The Undertaker called ‘Undertaker: One Last Ride’. Currently on Chaper 4 and btw, I’m not yet done watching. All I can say about chapter 4 is woooowwww like how can he endure 30+ years not breaking his character and this made me realize how devoted and passionate he is in the business. There were countless times he had the opportunity to have a break, to not be in the squared circle but one call away from Vince (Chairman and his closest friend), he’s back.

Watching those behind the scenes from the earlier years of his career feels so nostalgic and something new to us since we get a glimpse of how he does or reacts to his promos. Again, I’m not yet finished with the chapter but I’m already amazed by the legend, the icon. He’s more than The Undertaker. He’s more than a wrestler, more than an entertainer. And most especially more than an athlete. He is Mark Callaway. The leader of the locker room. Right hand man of the Chairman, and husband of the beautiful, former diva Michelle McCool.

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Year 2013

“It was a sunny day. I think it was around May. We were preparing for Santacruzan. I was at my house and a close friend of mine went up to me and confessed that how he likes me. Funny thing was, the feeling was mutual. Told him how I felt about him and there are love story began.”

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Who am I?

As you could see, I am using a pen name. Trust me, I’m still new to all this crap. But let me tell you a little story of myself.

I’m a native from Philippines and been living here my entire life. Only traveled twice outside the country. I have an older sibling. I am an undergraduate and currently working to support my family. I mean, my sibling and niece. I don’t ask for support from my parents nor they support us. 

I’m a photophile which means I love taking pictures of either people or nature. I prefer taking pictures of beautiful landscapes whether they are known or not because you can see their true beauty in which other humans can’t see. Beauty of nature is superb and I sometimes plan to settle my life in the province. By the way, I’m a city girl but I always prefer going to province near the mountains to feel the fresh air and relax. 

I love music. Been hooked to alternative rock, bisrock, nu-metal, mellow, pop, and also Kpop. C’mon, why would you hate groups like Blackpink, Super Junior, Twice, Wonder Girls, and many more. (I’m a Kpop ahjumma ~ )

I’m an introvert also. I love hanging out with myself in my room and just lay down and think what the future holds for me. I have a couple of friends. Well, I guess one circle of friends. 

Let’s end this here. 

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06/11/2020 3:56 AM

New to this thing. I guess I will be sharing first my stories.