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[jasperandlucie]

You think you know or do you really know?

I was just about to write this week has been roller coaster but I had to correct myself almost immediately as it would be sheer understatement from emotional point of view.

Right, I have train of thoughts that mismatch and yet they have one main lead that ties them together. The result would be a book containing many chapters on various topic but I reject to write that, for now. So I shall try to use all those mismatch thoughts in here in a smooth manner as much as possible. 

The first one is concerning rumours and how poisonous can be to the targeted person, particularly when done behind his/her back and nobody will tell the person...yet the person sense it simply by icky feeling and observing changed behaviour of people who would normally behave in such manner or even newly acquitted people would not talk “funny” and sending off odd vibe at the same time This may be hard for some to comprehend but very easy for those who read others and their vibes and simply absorb everything by on point observation. 

Then there are those who think they KNOW everything about you...either by hearing things about you, following you on social media etc. etc. etc.The list is really long. And you end up wondering if they really know as well as they think they do. For instance, do they know my middle name? Are they sure if I have one? How much one really knows about the other if they are not attuned to their intuition fully and most importantly can comprehend what their intuition is telling them about the person. When it comes down to it, the facts are just facts creating just a small fraction of the jigsaw puzzle of someone's personality,

And then there is another matter concerning men, or should I clarify male, who are taught many things but not necessarily the right things. What I exactly have in mind is how to treat themselves right so they would end up treating females right. Sounds confusing? In its core, it truly isn’t. What has crossed my mind the most in regards to this is string of men I have had romantic relationship that end up having always elements of some abuse without realizing on my part and even theirs as certain behaviours are accepted as norm until they are not...because they intensified or escalated in a really bad way.

Lastly, the element of realization that what you are going through is an abuse, learn about it and learn to set boundaries and generally take the step into right direction. It gets to point when you have to become really self-aware of your behaviour, your thoughts/thought patterns, your talk (the words you use) and your actions (whether they correspond with what you say and how you feel). If not, what you are going to do about it and where you take the valid and useful information to help yourself...or asked for help?

I was fortunate enough to follow my intuition and survival instincts that led me to find some more of strength to pull myself out of really dark times by finding hope, faith and God and trust in the unknown and gratitude for being able to make changes hence learnt to welcome change. Not just welcome but also being the one who initiates it. I guess I was never fully aware I just floated through life, accepting things that perhaps I should not have in my romantic relationships. I did because I was in love, not weak, and also because there has not been enough education about how healthy relationship should look like. I strongly believe that there are many out there having the same problem.

Some are lucky as I am to notice it and take the right steps whilst others are still drifting and struggling. Anyway, I won’t make much longer as my point is not right details but just to touch the surface of things that some may want to dive into on their own accord. 

Bottom line is there is always a trigger when you become finally aware that your relationship you are in as far too unhealthy and then the question of whether is possible to save it or time to abandon it. It was tough choice to make especially when I was married and my daughter was just about 4 and soon after diagnosed with arthritis.What makes it more messy is when you get ardent feeling for the guy who triggered it and on top of it you trip over your twin flame, not even knowing such term exist and it is above soul mate.

Again, I will not get into details in regards to this. All I say is that even though feelings of love that were aroused by other man than my ex-husband, that caused me to re-evaluate my beliefs and my relationship...that eventually got complicated by feelings for my twin flame...there was one thing on my mind = thing have to be done right way. By that I mean honesty, no cheating, truth, authenticity, willingness to co-operate and heal, objectivity and promise not betray myself when making decision as I had to keep in mind that what is good for me (the higher self) is what is also good for my daughter...and in a strange way even others end up benefiting from.  

Certain parts of what I have just written I was not consciously aware of. All I remember is telling myself that things have to be done right way and in the right order for the right reasons (not selfish ones). Little did I realize I would upset quite few people along the way as they didn’t grasp the fact that my actions followed the main recipe and took offense or got hurt as they perception of what I did had different meaning that the actual meaning it had. I was so immersed in doing what is right and thought I was communication clearly enough of what I was going through that I missed that my coping mechanism was confusing them to the point that they didn’t believe the dark times I was going through.

That is the thing about empath, or empath like me as I cannot be sure every empath works the same way. I got sometimes so busied helping others and sort of dealt with my situation that the severity of my situation was painted bright and shiny rather than as it was: dark and gloomy. I learnt how to escape reality when reading books. In some odd twist I managed to apply this skill to other aspects of my life where I needed to create an escape of what oppressed me. I am certain I am not the only one - some of us go help others, some of us allow ourselves to immerse in creative process, some dig deep in work or some use addictive substances. There might be more but it is after 1am and time for bed, not thinking. 

Nighty night. 

(not edited, possible mistakes and I am too tired to proof read so you have been warned) 

[jasperandlucie]

Empath feels...

This account has experienced so much of my writing right before meeting my twin flame to cross road when I had to take drastic step back from him. Twitter and this account (both have either deleted or hidden its original content) is pretty much what brought us closer but Instagram is the one that created the temptation for him to stray.

Instead of working on relationship, men tend to take the easy way out or start playing games with you to take control when they disagree with you. In our case it all started with my spiritual journey.

When I rewind and go down my memory lane, I always liked studying what some call New Age. I personally dislike this label nor do I cal myself New Age. The digging through books, articles and other about numerology, astrology, palmistry, physiognomy (if that’s correct term in English) among liking reading books and magazines that was giving insight into people’s thinking/behaviour all the way to my liking using/playing cards. And somewhere there, in my teenage years, crystal jewellery caught my eye and bought some, which I still own to this day.

Funny enough, I never kept secret of liking these things and he never expressed the dislike of them. I always knew I was more sensitive and I knew I am carrying the lines of empath in my hands or intuition is very natural for certain numbers in numerology and I could go and on where all these tell-tell signs were and forewarning me of my future path. Yet I never saw this career path coming.

The very path that threw him off and started the tug-of-war battle. He is pulling one end with his friend and think I am on the other whist I am actually doing my thing and ignore these pathetic games whist scratching my head. With all my understanding of human emotions, my compassion and love…my head and heart is refusing to understand such betrayal for such petty reason.

Do tell me how someone can tell you they love you but publicly pretend to date someone else just to please the shallow crowd. You know you are expected to have certain skinny looks and wear thick make up and hair done all the time (and probably nails too) and then make lots of money or keep running after the guy so he could sponsor you (pathetic), all of which I refuse. Not our of pride, but for refusal of being shallow.

I, for one, am fed up with society standards, many of which are twisted. I am repelled by the low morale and what sort of behaviour are some willing to tolerate and say it is OK when is clearly not. That leads to, in fact, bigger problem as many lose the sight of what is joke and what is harassment or what is argument and what is abusive behaviour. That lost the clear sight of the fine line of such things and many more. I find it hard to believe the words “I love you” whilst the actions scream otherwise. What actions?

Well, the list is long: Him being involved with other women who are spiritually ugly to the point it makes my soul aggressive. Do bear in mind soul has not ego so for it to go and fight someone else’s soul (if that dark things can be called so) is something to think about. Him being willing to humiliate me and show others it is OK to disrespect me. They no longer ask why they just need some punch bag to take anger upon me so the first scape goat that comes into their hand is fine for them. I find it appalling and ridiculous for some people to fight me without true cause. In fact, they actually do not know, many has not met me in real life, nor have they talk to me nor they did they bother to check what they hear is accurate. Now how many of you have experienced such nonsense?! I am certain I am not the only one because I can see on daily basis the inkling to jump to conclusions, the lack of checking of facts and so on.

The willingness to ruin my business forcing me and my daughter live below our means. His ex-friend got very expansive bag from him and did not fail to rub it in my face whilst he knows I struggle with finances. No, I don’t want his charity, I want him to stop ruining my business and stop sending me energy of those bitches that clogs my energy and my access to my own abundance.

How do I know she rubbed it in my face when either of don’t follow each other account? Well, that is where spirituality come along. When they are sceptical about it and yet they use the very core elements of it against you after you made a mistake of trying to explain it to them and what it does to you. Isn’t that pathetic? I have explained many times I can feel when he is in their company as it made me tired and triggered anxiety among other unpleasant episodes. Yet, he chose to use against me.

Evidently, there is no sisterhood either because those egoistical creatures are so self-absorbed and narcissistic enough to enjoy causing me pain and call it fun and game. No offence, but my idea of fun and games has fair play involved where nobody is actually hurting. It is not just the emotional hurt that show itself as physical pain too but what it does to my finances and consequently to my daughter. They don’t see the bigger picture.

My daughter is 10 in few days and I have hardly any money to throw something bigger and special because once again, my energy is slowly unblocking from all the crap sent to me so I am about to end up between choosing to pay some bills and throwing her party because none of those selfish jerks took time to consider my daughter. I don’t live with my parents nor do they feed me. It is what I earn and finances from British government.  Not Czech, not my parents. Just because my mum sends some money for my daughter’s birthday present does not equal her sponsoring me of feeding me. I don’t think they grasp the concept.

To top if all up, I sometimes am led to read ridiculous discussions about spirituality. There was this post about empaths. NO, they are not rare - just some never found out or embrace it like my twin flame. The amount of times I said that untrained empath is a ticking time bomb. When in wrong company, they end up displaying other people’s behaviour so they may show traits of narcissistic behaviour or any other low vibrational one.

Trained empath knows which feelings are theirs and which feelings are absorbed (sometimes it is easier to distinguish, other times I need to use certain tools and time to separate them). Like few days ago, I was invited to circus. Lots of judgemental thoughts in my head, in fact, small-minded enough to make me growl and I had to cut cords to whoever was sending me such limiting petty shit. These feelings come very often uninvited. When appropriate, I take care of it and send healing energy and when not, I simply cut cords. No amount of protection can prevent or save you from absorbing their thoughts and feelings.

And to those who claim not to be spiritual yet using intentional spiritual elements against us. Why? What for? What are you getting out of it? On one hand you call us lunatics and yet you get excited and amused be the fact, that the stuff is actually real and works. You are the worse type of hypocrite!!!

[jasperandlucie]

Communication

People tend to laugh when you tell them they should learn to communicate clearly or better. Just by using proper grammar and the right word instead of its synonyms. Sometimes, the right use of words can save life or spare you of grief, heartache or some very unpleasant misunderstandings. I won’t even bother to bother to pretend I am great at grammar. No, I am not. However, I am good enough and always willing to learn and improve because I have experienced far too many misunderstandings, especially in my second language, English. Not necessarily my fault as everyone listener perceive what you say based on their experiences and their type of character hence I tend to use my intuition to pick up on when I am not being understood to amend it or clear the air out. Not everyone will go that far or be willing to go that far because it requires time, patience and willingness to co-operate with one another and be willing to make compromise. I am certain you have come across individual who loves grudges and won’t let go off them. Too busy to be wrapped in their own hurt instead of listening to your side of story or simply strongly disagreeing with you and allow the grudge to take over. I won’t say I am innocent either but even though I can be headstrong, my hunger for harmony wins eventually. Mind you when dealing with someone who refuses to do things with integrity I am not certain compromise can achieved...unless the person does. One can make so many compromises but it should never be at the expense of truth, dignity and integrity. I have come into huge battle with my twin flame who got stuck in the past and refuses to move forward, which would not be that bad as many people do, but he has decided to be influenced by the wrong people who have dragged him into lying, 0 integrity and other really not cool stuff. Everything I do seems to be perceived as me attempting to hurt him. He has dragged a new woman to re-create love triangle in order to hurt me because he is still hurting from whatever reason. He took it badly when I asked him to be single for a while in order to make up his mind about what he wants, how he truly feels, who he truly loves and learn to enjoy being in his own company, which everyone really should whilst I took step back to finish some healing and fully focus on my business. Needless to say, it didn’t go down very well. He took it as if I didn’t love him. I love him more than he can ever imagine. However, after just coming out of abusive marriage, my twin flames action has reminded me of some of the abuse. The forcing, the it-has-to-be-my-way-and-now-or-else thread - that’s where Ruby and some other women come because he wasn’t getting what he demanded from me. That is not healthy relationship. Anyone who has been really badly treated in the past or even have been in abuse relationship doesn’t really wanna go back to that. The desire for personal freedom, unconditional love and understanding partner who is able to let you be your own person and stand by your side regardless is the true testament to love. Well, let’s just say my twin flames action of the past few months let me feel many emotions but love. Love has been really lacking this year. There has been more of resentment and bitter taste that I got tired of healing so I levelled up and became more assertive in saying no, the ruthless no even though it hurt. The hurtful part is when his own family member giving him bad advice and interfering because he is shitting his pants to become more mature. There is a thing about us empaths like me. We heal regardless whether you like it or not and it is one things we cannot control become that is how we are built. Not every empath is like that but I am one of those healing empaths. It is in my energy and in my aura codes and it goes with me at all times. The way you cannot take your heart out of your body without dying, the same way I cannot get rid of the healing energy. Those who have lots of work to do on themselves are scared of it. Why? Because they have successfully have been avoiding their own healing for years. They know bloody well how much crap they have accumulated over the years and will do anything to avoid to deal with it...and then someone like me comes along and keeps triggering them. I don’t think I have to tell you that they despise it. So their self-defence is to push away anyone who makes them deal with their own crap. I do not know where I stand with my twin flame. All I know he is angry and hurting and things it is all my fault because it is not easy for him to admit that he has messed up. Instead of cleaning up the mess up - he is doing what is more convenient- gangs up with those who he can hold grudge with against me whilst trying to figure way how to hurt me some more. So all I can do is focus on love, my passion and allow God to sort this out. From experience o know the more people get involve the bigger the mess. I have been focusing on the spirit of Christmas, which is time full of joy and miracles of you allow yourself to see it. Yes, there is stress and worry too but if you spend your time wisely and with the right people, anything possible - even to have a laugh and fun in whatever circumstance you are in. Let the magic come... 💫📿

[jasperandlucie]

Too much drama

Instead of re-writing my blog so I could post it on my website, I am guided to address the drama.

Let me just remind you I am just a Czech girl from small town who spent lots of time in the village in the nature. Girl like me, who used to play in the woods, near the stream or ice-skated on frozen pond to walking in the meadow and so on is not keen on drama or creating drama for that matter, which is what is happening constantly for quite some time. Quite frankly, I got bored of it.

So let’s start with this issue first: Jamie. I mentioned I am having stall in few days and am excited about it. I also sent some personal tweet to him, which seems to be misinterpreted by some as some sort of good bye. Go figure because I do not understand their logic. Yes, I was mad at him for couple of days prior to that but I also mentioned I was working on it.

If I wanted to say good bye to him, I would have unfollowed him on all social media. Which is what I think he should do with his ex-girlfriends as neither has healed from the break up with him and keep wishing ill. Some think you can stay friends with your ex, and sometimes you have to if children involved, but if you can then do so. It is not you being petty or what nonsense, it’s a matter of closure and clean break so all parties could heal properly and find new love. Most people don’t do that and then end up in vicious circle of coming back to their ex, they know is not good for them, and end up creating real unhealthy co-dependent relationship with them. When they move on and become content in new relationship then why not, stay friend with them but not when the break up went bad.

Secondly, it makes harder for me to communicate with him when he talks to them as I have to turn into detective to know what message is for me and what is for them. I got bored of it and it doesn’t help to heal the residue of my trust issues. Besides, I don’t wish to be checking their accounts to determine if it was for them or me as both are petty and it’s not fun to see that kind of accounts. They are embarrassing themselves on top of it, without their realisation.

There is also needy and feel needy in relationship. I do not need to post or reply every single time. In secure relationship, you just let the person know that you are thinking about them and get back to your business. However, everyone likes to feel needed (just not necessarily 5x a day but when your REALLY need the boost and support from your partner or want to share something exciting.

I bet if Jamie stopped responding to every BS on social media, he would have his second album coming out regardless his past health problems and probably would have some material for third one. Seriously, Jamie, stop paying attention to your ex-girlfriends and every drama that is going out there and pay attention to your stuff more. I understand you have to address some things but say it once or twice. If they don’t get it, leave it for a while because better opportunity when the info will be absorbed better will arrive. Some people just don’t want agree with you so they will drag you into drama to waste your time and perhaps persuading you they are right although they are wrong.

As for me, I learnt to mind my own business since I do have actual business and I am motivated by my financial situation that I really want to sort out for once and all. I constantly hear from my mum who tends to compare me to other relatives, particularly younger ones and more successful than me who experienced fraction of things I have. Yes, we all make choices but some of us are led to make such choices for a reason - soul contract. There is no point of beating yourself up for choices you have made if they lead you to spiritual path. There is strategy to the madness.

FYI: I will post minimum and observe maximum as I have this big thing coming up ad prep work is needed so this newbie doesn’t smelll like one. I also intend to wear my Lapis lazuli to block out everything that afternoon so I can fully focus on my clients and be protected whilst doing those Reiki sessions whilst selling my jewellery.

Stop second guessing my feelings for Jamie as those should be shown in private. And he should know I am more stable and mature than Matilda. I won’t kill him with drama and keep changing my feelings about him. When you love someone, you love them with your all. There is no half way - either all in or all out.

[jasperandlucie]

Perspective

There has been quite eventful series of not-so-random circumstances in past few months. As it turned out some are seriously confused what I actually do and who I am.

I am not talking about the typical category of ticketing boxes such as straight white female and mother. Mind you...as far as my nationality is concerned I find it a bit of a trouble. I am Czech who thinks and dreams in English. I spent 20 years in Czech and nearly 16 years in the UK so that might explain it.

There has been pondering about me being involved black Magic since I talk about magic. Sorry to disappoint but I work ONLY with white magic although I do shadow work but I get to hat later. No, I am not fallen angel. I am Earth angel with shamanic origins. I used to say shapeshifter as that is what shamans can do but as it turned out there is difference between shapeshifter.

Shamans serve the Universe. Yes, you heard. The UNIVERSE. I believe in God and I do work with archangels and other beings from other realms and most importantly crystals with Ascended Masters with God’s blessing. Conflicting? Are you sure?

I have been on spiritual path for quite some time. As teenage girl, my nose was stuck in books of new age (astrology, numerology, palmistry and on and on I could go). I never really left path, I just got overwhelmed by increasing amount of responsibilities causing me to have less time for this. Until dark times came and spiritual path was the first thing I turned to help myself out of it. And it has worked and it’s working incredibly well.

There is dispute that you cannot work with God and other Masters. Does anyone have Ascended Masters deck? Well, if you do you surely noticed that there is Jesus, Moses, Mary, Buddha and AA Michael and others. It’s 44-card deck so I shall not bore you.

And yes, I can work with white magic (crystals, energy, Green Man, nature, fairies etc) and Ascended Masters with God’s blessing. How come? Well how come this planet is such mess that we have global warming and stuff. Has anyone ever considered that the Universe and all of them in has united in order to protect human race? Let’s face it, there are here for us to growth. Who they are going to help if we wipe ourselves out?

Imagine it like a World War where countries unite (the good ones against the bad ones). Does that make it any easier? I do not know whether there others who have the same task as me. All I know that from things that have been revealed to me are these:

I am meant to work with crystals, do energy work and work Green Man. I am guided to work with all Ascended Masters as I personally am multi-cultural person. Those who know numerology would know it’s in my blood alongside ability to adapt. I know I am Earth Angle but I could not fit into category. My daughter is fairy so there.

As for my business name, the Oxford dictionary with pendulum (intuitive work) has chosen it for me. Trust me, I had not clue what it was about and was scratching my head but I followed and waited for more answers and then it started to become clear to me. I am meant to work with/in other realms.

If I go to Power Tarot and Fairy deck, the key words it highlights for me very so often are these:

Balance

Justice

Princess of Winter/ Page of Michael (= Indigo child)

Queen of Winter/Queen of Michael

Queen of Summer/Queen of Gabriel

There are few more (again let’s not bore you) bit these are major. The fact is I can shapeshift into others but these are the major ones.

I work with white magic that means prayers instead of spell and blessed candles and possibly herbs/incense/oil and crystals. Whatever I am guided to but it’s always blessed or nature related, which again is blessed anyway by God.

I am aware that Master Usui is not on the Ascended Masters deck, and perhaps he should be, but I was guided to do Reiki (on the actual card is Merlin). Ultimately, I am doing Crystal Reiki, not just Reiki.

It’s a beautiful mixture and for someone who can be easily bored and can multi task is the right thing (there is multitasking card in both decks and appearing often too). We are all given life purpose that fits our character. Even though I have been labelled “rebel” when having heating discussion with Lord, it still doesn’t make me fallen angel.

As I said to him, he may have created this World but we are the ones who have live in it. It’s like having knowledge about a country instead of living in it. Don’t kid yourself that you know everything about some country?! I was taught British English at schools learning British culture and all but ones I can here and I had to walk in - yay. The basics did help a bit but believe when I say your theoretical knowledge about country is nothing in comparison to living in there.

I was called rebel, yet I think of it as bringing new perspective to HIM. Even teachers end up being taught by students. Some are doing things for so long that they forget to change with times and innovate, or they don’t simply notice because people were too scared to bring it to their attention. Assertiveness is something many of us have to learn. It’s not luxury, it’s sheer necessity.

There has been discussion about God being “jealous” when we worship other deities. These times call for symbiosis and flexibility. I like working with other cultural Masters, as my background is education where you have to be open-minded towards other cultures. Besides, my clients are most likely to be various culture and so I have to work with those who they are familiar alongside mine - cultural co-operation.

If you think about it, it’s hard to teach someone when speaking different language. Sometimes you have to adapt by speaking their knowledges without losing your beliefs, culture etc. Integrate, do not separate.

Now let me address he shadow work. I have come across people who feel it’s OK to execute revenge in someone because they hurt them. Firstly, no- it’s never OK. You are not just hurting them but everyone who is attached to them in some way. You go heal yourself. Don’t go spread more hurt and damage to others. That’s the core of the problems and that’s why so many people need healing. Someone for screwed and never got it and then goes screw someone too. Chain reaction.

Secondly,your reason for revenge might be unjust as there might have been miscommunication leading to misunderstanding. People think they are in the same page all time, the amount wrong assumptions instead of asking and clarifying?! You may speaks the same language but your childhood and experiences and your perspective on life is different so why assume you are on the same page without asking?

Well, due to such behaviour many people are in need of healing- some more than others. The more toxic you become because you are ignoring your last hurts m, the darker you get. Yiu cannot eliminates all people with dark/darker (whatever you want to call it) otherwise you could end up wiping nearly the whole human race.

Yes, I heard the Luther’s about only light can drive out darkness. As healer, I find it highly impractical. You see...if you shine light on shadow or in dark, the dark disappear. I cannot heal invisible. I have to embrace my shadow side and heal the dark. My shadow would be gray, not black as it is full of light. Even the hell would spit me out because I am connected to source of light and that would be unbearable for them.

Shadow work dark until it can become light. Layer by layer peeling. It’s less painful and less drastic requiring from me to be fully in charge of balance and vigilance and self-protection.

I nearly forgot about my jewellery- my Ascended Masters cards and other synchronised signals led me to it. I am fully relying on my intuition and I encourage you to do same. Don’t get frustrated if you are not getting direct answers. It will unveil to you but by bit. Every time you complete one step, the next is revealed.

Be patient and don’t even thing I’d comparing yourself to others and their life purposes. It’s their life purpose, not yours. Be discerning with advice you get - if it doesn’t resonate/click/feel right with you, it’s not for you. Sometimes things may feel controversial to others but fits right for you so stick to it. Intuition never lies if you listen to correctly. Some make mistake by confusing their brains as intuition. No, it’s not. Your gut feeling is and the first thing that pops in your head.

Remember that there are anyways to double check if you are really unsure. Always.

Bless you and may you find your life purpose journey.

Lucie

(Please note this is draft and I have not time for spelling and editing - I’ll come back to it this evening as I am meant to some nurturing of me- I am posting this now because I am guided to do so.)

[jasperandlucie]

Society

Imagine. Imagine a female living in house that is very much similar to Big Brother house, yet there are major differences: from not being paid for it to her meant to not being aware of it (so they think).

Now imagine this situation has been going for about 3 years. She has gone through hell out of shit: from very abusive relationship with her ex-husband to her becoming divorced single mum with tarnished reputation and money struggle.

Imagine. Imagine that she has fallen victim to seriously tasteless prank and insecure men. Yes, insecure men. Most people judge Muslimd and their cover up clothes for women (and their strict rules for them) but the truth is those insecure men would never admit that's what they would like to do their woman.

Imagine. Imagine the men being so insecure that they refer to female who knows how to kick their arses as male so their pride would not be affected so much. And on top of that, they call any friendly interaction as flirting. Yes, you read that correctly: confusing friendly conversation with male for flirtiness.

Imagine. Imagine for the single mum being in a relationship with a guy. Sounds normal? Perhaps. The twist is it's relationship on energetically level and although she would love to pursue it into physical realm, it's enough for him. Perhaps she is too much work for him in real world where he would have give back???

Imagine. Imagine this single mum fighting each day to survive financially and fighting those people who are trying to bring her down. She has been through lots of injustice, yet those who watch the Big Brother house do not reach out to help (I am not necessarily talking about physical help only...). For some it's nothing but entertainment forgetting she is real and that is real life and she is being affected every time they present her home life to people who also may be her neighbours?!?!?

Imagine. Image this going for nearly years...with the prank and time where her abusive ex-husband was portrayed as martyr, which could not have been further from the actual reality. Yet she has managed to clean up most of the mess on her own, with help of universe and angels. She has got mistreated by people who supposedly "knew" her and has complicated her real life daily interactions with people as they were getting chunks of her private life in distorted manner.

Imagine. Imagine what will it take to stop this shit permanently. When people finally stop at throwing their cheap opinions on her whilst having no intention to help instead trash her and see if they can take her apart and ruin her. They are completely forgetting it is not a game as there is 8 year old child with arthritis involved.

Do tell me: What the fuck will it take for THIS to stop so she can live her life like anyone else and finish off cleaning the mess others created? Why society is Ok with such behaviour? Why the man she loves thinks it's Ok for him to abuse her love and life when he evidently wants nothing to do with her in real life?

It not only does not make sense to me but I also wonder where people's consciousness is. I mean they get all worked up about shootings and other various tragedies but find it "normal" to watch this BB house that is presented in unethical way abusing the single mum and her child.

What sort of society is this? Society with double standards. Society that thinks it's Ok to tear someone apart simply because they do not understand their spiritual way of living and perhaps fascinated by the resilience and tolerance that spiritual life provides. Just because spirituality gives enormous strength to an individual it doesn't mean they are entitled to torture this person and make her life harder than it is. I do not find this normal.

This curious society has become heartless and inhuman with 0 conscious. Disgusting.

[jasperandlucie]

Spiritual journey

So once again, I am in headlock with my twin flame over something. We are not together in physical world, yet we battle as old married couple. It's to the point if ridiculousness.

This time it's my spirituality. Funny, before he met the crazy b*tch who completely messed him up, he wrote lyrics like these:

Freak Like Me] I never wanted to be anybody Wanted to only play the fool I piss around in front of everybody Tell me how much I embarrass you All your faceless fuck ups Hired meat for cash Selling happiness to everybody Come and see what you have done Look what you've made, what we've become The lies you told, grown stale and old But these hearts beat loud and we won't be told We never wanted to be anyone We only want to be free If you ever feel alone in life, you're a freak A freak like me We never wanted to be anyone We only want to be free And if you ever feel alone in life, you're a freak A freak like me I'm so sick of having to behave In front of people I don't know We're wild animals and can't be caged Light the fuse and watch this sucker blow Raise a fist if you don't give a fuck And show the world that you don't care This is a war and we're not giving up Come and see what you have done Look what you've made, what we've become The lies you told, grown stale and old But these hearts beat loud and we won't be told We never wanted to be anyone We only want to be free And if you ever feel alone in life, you're a freak A freak like me We never wanted to be anyone We only want to be free And if you ever feel alone in life, you're a freak A freak like me So get up and run Show the hurt on your face Stand together as one Let's try and change this place We never wanted to be anyone We only want to be free And if you ever feel alone in life, you're a freak A freak like me We never wanted to be anyone We only want to be free If you ever feel alone in life, you're a freak A freak like me We never wanted to be anyone We only want to be free If you ever feel alone in life, you're a freak A freak like me We never wanted to be anyone We only want to be free If you ever feel alone in life, you're a freak A freak like me Yeah, you're a freak A freak like me (Courtesy of one of the websites I Googled - since I want this private, I keep the source private too)

And now he is all surprised I am baffled at him trying to suffocate me by forcing me to be 'normal'.

Few months ago, I used Tarot readings that I have done myself. And since our energies were already connected at that time, many of his readings were for him. Those very tools assisted me to help him in the best way I could since we have telepathic connection too.

I don't think he realise and appreciate that not everyone can read the other person's thoughts. It's spiritual package, yet he is sceptic whilst my spirituality invisibly embraces him and enables him in many positive ways.

But also learnt to take it away if I am called to do so as lack of gratitude weakens its magic. Perhaps he is happy to be one of those people who constantly struggle and wonder why. Re-learning lessons over and over again unable to get out of vicious circle, yet I seem to be the lunatic to him.

Yes, he is my twin flame but no, I am not pushing my spirituality away. The very things that saved my life and made it richer since I embraced it.

We have been taught what's right and what's wrong and imposed by rules that don't always make sense. And I am glad to find a tool that ensures me when I am doing the right thing even thought majority is telling me I am being wrong.

People use word "karma" without actual knowing of what that means. Some people even think they'll create bad karma when they lie. There is a lie and lie (white lie and harmless one for good purposes with good intentions- it doesn't mean I support lying but white lies are not actual lies). As there is justice and justice (which is more of revenge)

Most people headlessly follow self-imposed rules that were being influence by society and with harsh judgement. Compassion has been replaced with judgement, open-mindness is being replaced by judgement and kindness is being confused for weak so people presume that can used king person as doormat of some sort. In fact, kindness means the person must be tough in this adversity that society created.

On many occasions I am convinced that in earlier centuries people were more open-minded and grateful than this whole 21st Century bullshit.

And god help if you are connected to nature and energies, according to them you are complete freak and f*ck up. It's strange considering that's what people used since they did not have so many chemicals and technology, and yet it works for them in many ways.

And then there is religion. Topic discussed by so many that is in centre of attention for all the wrong reasons most of the time. And the good stuff there is about it is sitting there in the dark fog waiting to be discovered.

I find myself working with Ascended Masters, Jesus is one of them. But if I mention him - I am already religious rather than spiritual according to some. Yes, he's done many good things and is compassionate but like each crystal that he its own unique qualities so does each Ascended Master. And each occasion is suitable for one in particular. Their characteristics fits to each aspect of the problem. Besides, all of them deserve to be acknowledged and honoured. They have good intentions, hearts in the right place and years of wisdom and knowledge they are willing to share.

*this post is not finished, not edited but I am posting it for now anyway*

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Love Magnet (it may need editing) ❤️

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Indigo Love

The Indigo fairy fights again her thoughts pouring like the rain calling upon Big Ben, mermaid and superman. And that’s when it all started a beautiful puppy with his master pouted Twitter was never the same again October 2013 in memory will remain.

The Big Ben laughed when 2014 arrived Zeus and Athena fighting A tree bears the scorched mark of lighting. All the clouds had shifted When Dark Vader’s tea was lifted And turned into a love potion.

The spring arrived on starry night Making St. Paul’s Cathedral looking so bright. Whilst serenading music lingering along the water Thames Setting heart of Indigo fairy into flames. Poor girl, she never saw that coming, It hit her so hard it was nearly cunning She’d been in a war with her soon-to-be ex Never thinking her heart defeats her cerebral cortex.

At first, there was light laugh and love With plenty of jokes and music flying through the air Making her heart flutter whilst going through her battle And then the darkness deceit jealousy crushed in Killing her spirits and drowning Stumbling in the dark tunnel of despair Holding onto her love hoping for repair Of the unfair.

Indigo fairy turned into a ghost Her spirit was caught by her heavenly host From moving on Her flamed heart kept pumping Vowing to go to the moon and back Bring the universe to cut herself some slack From the injustice and cruelty Became life purpose and novelty.

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"Don't touch any of my weapons without my permission." "Well, there goes my plan for selling them all on eBay," Clary muttered. "Selling them on what?" Clary smiled blandly at him. "A mythical place of great magical power. #Cassandra Clare (The Mortal Instruments, #1) #Clary Fray #Jace Wayland

[jasperandlucie]

Another in Cassandra Jean’s virtues and vices series! Julian, representing charity, gives every piece of himself. Emma, representing diligence, works hard to find her parents’ killer and to protect her friends.

Is there ANY way mark and emma will develop any feelings for each other either how couples act or like Bff or something like that I totally ship Emma and Mark — shadow01demigod

Anything’s possible. I think Mark and Emma have an interesting relationship, certainly.

Does Emma play the violin? — fandomingwastedmysociallife

She doesn’t. :)

Super quick but essential question: Is it necessary/beneficial to have read The Shadowhunter Academy stories before reading Lady Midnight!? — kbrady5168

I would say beneficial but absolutely not necessary.

Hello cassie! I thank you soo much for answering this it means a lot to me. I’ve been wondering, sing lady midnight is coming out in 2016 and there’s gonna be 3 books, does that mean that the last hoyrs are gonna come out till 2019? Thank you! I love you! And your characters soo much!! -irela — nephilim-not-a-mundane

Nope - we’re not waiting for Dark Artifices to be done before the Last Hours starts coming out. It won’t be 2019 unless I get run over by a bus or something.

Hi! I love all your books and they have immensely impacted my life, and I truly appreciate the diversity they have. I just finished reading Born to Endless Night( by the way it was so amazing, I can’t even describe how perfect it was)and it mentioned that the Seelie Queen was missing and there are a lot of dark rumors as to what happened to her. I was wondering if this is a clue to what is going to happen in The Dark Artifices. I can’t wait for Lady Midnight!!! — lucieherondalethefirst

Absolutely, clever you! The Dark Artifices are much more about faeries and the world of Faerie than any previous Shadowhunter books, partly because of the connection through Helen and Mark. It’s been an opportunity for me to explore places we’ve never been — the Unseelie Court, the world of Faerie — and play with very old magic and myths _ ley lines, the Wild Hunt, the magic of faerie love and faerie promises.

It’s been fun and I can’t wait to share it with you! 

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Shadowhunters + Halsey // Badlands x (queen seelie + castle; magnus bane + hold me down; clary, jace, simon, izzy, magnus and alec + new americana ; clace + drive ; izzy lightwood + hurricane ; clace, malec and sizzy + roman holiday ; clace + ghost ; sizzy + colors; malec + colors pt 2; clary fray + strange love; sebastian (jonathan) + coming down; sizzy + haunting; clary fray + gasoline; izzy lightwood + control; team good + young god; clace + i walk the line.) 

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Charlotte in May 2011.

[jasperandlucie]

Fantastic news! 139 bizarre and beautiful new species were discovered in the Greater Mekong region in 2014. The new species include the world’s second-longest insect and a soul-sucking “dementor” wasp that turns cockroaches into passive zombies before it devours them - alive(!) You just can’t miss this report! Check it out in the link of our bio :D http://ift.tt/1HKtkmh

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Lotte loves this gif so I have reblogged this. Lotte and her ice cream. 😁🍦

When you’re playing it cool with your BFF and someone tries to butt in.

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Work in progress. Nothing new to be seen. Prep work. 😁