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The best thing about Neil’s interactions with Ichirou is that they show he has the ability to choose his words carefully and show respect/submission when necessary for his own safety… and he just chose not to do that before. His pride is a pricey queen that will only bow to a certain caliber of threat. He needs to be confronted by a high enough level of murderous mob member before he finally unlocks the ability to use his filter. He has it in his lil duffle bag, but he stores it in there for safe keeping unless shit is really going down.

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I fear Laila and Neil would be an insane duo

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jean is so poorly socialised he can’t be transphobic he doesn’t even know what transitioning is he’s just grateful xavier isn’t going to collapse and die on the court post heart surgery (famously operated on via pecs)

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Andreil comfort sketch

Umm... THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 100 FOLLOWERS^^

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Andreil smooches

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Andrew absolutely would’ve argued forever to somehow have the surgery done with a nerve block and local anesthesia.

hey how stressed do you think andrew was about being put under anesthesia for his surgery. how badly do you think neil knew he didn’t want to do it. do you think he tried to argue against it. do you think neil kept a creepy eye on everybody who entered andrew’s hospital room and doubled down on telling his medical team not to touch him after andrew said not to touch him and they insist that they have to. do you think neil waited in his room until the moment they had to take andrew into surgery. do you think he was so restless that he bounced his knee while they waited in the waiting room. do you think he was the first thing andrew saw when he woke up and do you think andrew was relieved. do you think andrew wanted to smoke but used this as a reminder for why he can’t let himself anymore

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I can’t stop turning around the fact Aaron waived his right to a jury. How big of a risk it was to let his fate rest on the decision of a judge. But also how it allowed Andrew to take the stand without even more prying eyes on him. How a group of jurors didn’t get to hear his testimony of abuse and decide if he was telling the truth or if it was enough to make Aaron’s action justifiable. How Andrew was risking so much of himself to testify and Aaron protected his twin as much as he could by risking himself.

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It was.

when jeremy's brother came by their house and jeremy froze and looked panicked so jean just casually got up and put bryson through a windshield... yeah you're right laila, that was hot

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Either i missed the posts talking about this scene or we moved on way too fast from it. Like what the FUCK Nora????? The broken sentences? Jean's desperate thoughts in between lines? Thinking he asked for what he got even though he couldn't say no???? The confession that he wasn't allowed to say no bursting out of Jean without meaning to, because inside of him he knows, he knows he didn't deserve what happened to him. All these years keeping these feelings inside of him and now he can't keep them buried any longer

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neil josten calling up his uncle post tgr like hey girl can you kill a couple more people for my buddy jean over here

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remember when andrew was actively pinning allison down prepared to deliver retribution to her for backhanding aaron and neil’s foremost thought during this incredibly tense situation was how relieved he was to see the darkness in andrew’s gaze because he was finally seeing the real andrew after weeks of nothingness post-easthaven

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you cant convince me movements doesn’t just write andreil songs cuz like

red:

“I try but I can't seem to look away and you don't care/Instead you meet my steady gaze and we go from there” is literally neil’s staring problem hello??

“Real love for the first time” and neil and andrew are literally the first people to accurately and fully perceive each other. i’m normal about them i swear

“And you don't have to give it back to me/‘Cause I can't promise much of anything” is giving a) neil thinking he was going to get killed, which would prevent a longterm or serious relationship; b) andrew making deals because he doesn’t think he has anything else to offer; and c) andrew knowing he doesn’t show affection in a “typical” manner

“And I can't tell if this is all a dream or if I'm really here/But as long as I can feel you, I don't really care” PIPE DREAM PIPE DREAM PIPE DREAM-

“So I can finally sleep (Deep red at sunrise)” because despite everything they’ve been through, neil and andrew are still comfortable falling asleep next to each other :,) also SUNRISE ABRAM DEATH. THESE ARE TRUTHS

fail you:

“I know I’ll fail you again” is both neil’s guilt about not being able to protect andrew (from drake or proust) and andrew’s guilt about not being able to protect neil (from his father or the ravens who broke his ribs)

literally just listen to it lmao

nineteen:

neil’s actual age for starters

“That success is not determined by leather-bound books and ink on paper/But rather the passion that I have found out of heartbreak and anger” is his exy obsession and all that entails duh

“And I refuse to sacrifice my aspirations for […] security/What the hell is "security"/See, I'd rather die at my fullest” is literally neil’s rationale for signing with the foxes

“No, I am not my father's son” do i need to say it

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Got reminded again of my old coworker who was a massive misogynist but also trans inclusive. Told me he believed trans women are indeed women because "only women would be stupid enough to want to be women"

I wonder what he's doing now

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Link for full article below.

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*slowly removes my heart-shaped sunglasses* i beg your fucking pardon

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Fucking slain in my tracks by this postcard on my friend’s dresser

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For future references 🌲 i will never address any of the Lark nor the Harkers with gendered terms in any of the songs, so if he or she gets mentioned that is specifically for another character, most likely a parent :~)