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[jasminekaurwalia]

Mehar 🤍

You are the reason I keep going, you are the reason I try so hard. I love you baby, I wish I still had you, I’d do anything in the world to go back and change circumstances. I’m broken without you but all I can do is do whatever it takes to get you back.

Mommy’s sweet sweet baby girl

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You’re all I need baby, me you and mocha. We will find a way to make it, I’ll fill you will all the love I tried to share. I don’t need anything else and nothing else matters. Mommy misses you so much.

[jasminekaurwalia]

I used to think love was a fairytale and that two people are just made for each other, you know the Notebook, K3G, type of love. None of those are real. Love isn’t even a real thing. It’s just a figment of the imagination. Thinking someone will love you deeply on your terms, care about you be your safety, cheer you on in life and be loyal - those should be the basics. I think no one should settle unless they obtain that, you can’t force someone who isn’t capable to do so because it will never happen. If someone doesn’t go all in with you at the same time, it’s just never going to happen. Love doesn’t just grow or has to have a foundation and if that foundation breaks the you spend so much time trying to fix it while the path you’re walking on crumbles under your feet and you’re just stuck always fixing it. And you might think maybe they’ll respect you for that, no they do not. They are used to you fixing so your pain or hurt or resentment or emotions don’t matter at all. It’s just “normal”. Don’t get to that point. I think the second you see red flags, you leave period end of story. There should never be second chances ever. You’ll lose yourself and everything you’ve ever believed in. It doesn’t even matter how much you sacrifice, put in, give up once someone takes you for granted, your words mean nothing.

Harsh reality of this so called world we live in.

[jasminekaurwalia]

About us

Let’s take a walk down our memory lane!

November 2020. It all started when Jasmine was updating her LinkedIn, hitting add on random Amazon people to build up connections, one of this those just happened to be a Puneet. Little did they know they both worked in the same building at alternate times at a point. Maybe it was faith maybe it was a coincidence or maybe he secretly was trying to kidnap? (According to him it’s the other way) Puneet used this as his way into her messages “Hi! I just saw your title and ... WFS in the bay area...how early are you pouring that wine these days? Lol” next thing you know they were talking on multiple platforms: Amazon messaging, instagram and of course the infamous LinkedIn. Then it became voice messages on Instagram throughout the day and a billion (not exaggerating) failed attempts to meet (totally Puneet). Let’s just say it took 4 months for an actual date. The first date: started off at Counter (burger place), archery and then walking in a park around a lake and sharing family values, goals, future ambitions and then a night of nonstop phabi with Puneet’s best friend and his at the time fiancé (shoutout to Manjot&Gurleen). This was the start to our love story. (Side more puneet totally kidnapped Jasmine as you can tell, so if you chose that answer, you got it right) The start to movie nights, yummy food (pizza, Thai), coffee runs, movies, drive thru movie adventures, dates, bowling, and so much more.

The Proposal. December 31st, 2021

Leading up to the day, the bloopers let’s call it.

-Ashmine(Jasmine’s sister) randomly insisting she needs to get her nails done and they need to be really cute.

- Ashmine telling her she should wear a dress, since it’s her birthday and heels (not random at all?)

- Jasmine’s dad randomly asking birthday plans and details about lunch and who is coming

- Puneet telling Jasmine they have to go to San Francisco to shop at Express

- Jasmine suspecting something and saying should we just wear gym clothes and be chill and Puneet insisting they have to dress up to take pictures

- Puneet telling Jasmine they are going to watch a 3 hour movie because it’s the perfect amount of time

So what happened? Jasmine was getting ready and checked to see how far Puneet was. He was outside but 10 mins went by and he didn’t ring the doorbell or call or anything so she ran out to welcome him in and instead found him awkwardly parked on the driveway flustered. That instance both Jasmine’s parents ran out, mom stayed outside and dad told her she needs to follow her right now and they have to talk. Tells her to go to her room and says okay “statue” and closes the door. (No idea why he thought this would work) Jasmine was like what on earth but figured it was some type of birthday surprise and went back to getting ready. Puneet and Jasmine get to San Francisco and yes they did go shopping. First at Macys where Puneet took 10 years I’m the bathroom (slightly aggregated) and then Express where he got slacks he changed into. They went to the movies (totally in a dress, heels, slacks, dressed up) and watched Spider-Man 3. After the movie Puneet randomly tells Jasmine he needs to blindfold her because they are going to a secret park and no one can know where it is. Yes he really blindfolded her, even took her out of the car and left her on the side to park. (She totally thought she was getting abducted that day) then he walked her up the steepest hill (in heels) blindfolded. Next thing you know she sees the red carpet from the tiny opening under the blindfold and the tears flow. (Ever heard of cry-laughing? Well it was invented this day because that’s all she could do) Puneet off the blindfold, helped her fix her hair, took her hands and his tears started, probably composed himself a trillion times but gave her the best proposal filled with love, a surprise of family standing behind and dogs with proposal bandanas around them. Magical fairytale start of the next chapter.

After an adventure of falling in love, facing trials and tribulations, realizing what wedding planning is haha we are both ecstatic to celebrate with all of you and share our love and meet all of our family members that we are gaining! See you all on October 7th, 2022 when Puneet gets to officially kidnap Jasmine for infinite and beyond. #nosekhonguessing

[jasminekaurwalia]

It’s easy to forget all you’ve gone through and who you are at your core. Life will test you an infinite amount and I’ve been threw rough situations where I’ve been challenged to crazy extents and manifested change. I’ve rearranged not only opportunities but people around me, purely with compassion. If I stayed humble and compassionate things would probably be different. I did not, I became all the hatred and resentment that’s what’s poured out of me. I have been so angry, negative and I haven’t even looked in the mirror to see who stares back. I’ve been on the go for so long that I haven’t paused to look back, reflect and be at peace even with my demons. I know who I am and who I’m not.

[jasminekaurwalia]

Do not focus on who you used to be, that’s in the past that person failed for a reason, you’re seeking for a reason, that person did not hold your value nor be a role model or you wouldn’t have shifted from that person in the first place. She was flawed, the person after was worse. Running without self worth? Reacting to every little thing like the world would end any moment. I don’t ever want to be any past version of me, I don’t even want to be the 10 minutes ago me. I want to be a new me. I read Matthew McConaughey and forgot everything, he said that he constantly striving to be his future self always. Not who he was in the past, not anyone else but himself in the future so he is always looking forward. I’m quitting on this version of me that I’ve become the worst chapter of my book. Plot twist it’s time to take back who I am and I am not a victim of anything nor anyone. I am thankful to babaji for the good times and the bad for not giving up on me and for opening my eyes and giving me opportunities. I am thankful and I am full of an abundance of love. I will find light in the darkest of skies because that is who I am but I will be so much more and I will start now. Sorry babaji I’ve been MIA for some time, I promise to make weekly trips to remind you of how thankful I am. I still will never ask for anything but come remind you of how thankful I am.

[jasminekaurwalia]

February 3rd 2022

I think we seek validation and motivation from outside sources when the biggest most strongest influential pieces are in ourselves and beside one another, just have to remember and always keep striving and when it’s tough that’s when we strive that much harder whether it’s physically or emotionally or mentally.

We have been at our best in each stage in some way or another it’s just about combining the entire combination to be at an all time best that surpasses what we have and we all know when we set weight goals we crush it so here is our opportunity to remember and to push through.

It’s about showing up with compassion. Show up with an abundance of love, faith, drive and don’t let anything bring that down. If you can master your emotions then it shouldn’t matter what situation you’re in because you’ll learn to stay content when you really find the pureness within yourself.

Note to self & anyone else that needs it

❤️JasmineKaurWalia

[jasminekaurwalia]

& in this world you have to learn to always rise above. There is A LOT of bad and I do not nor can’t seem to learn to go back to always showing up with a smiley face and maybe that’s the normal part of reality. You can’t always be a smiley face, shit hurts shits sad and shit is messed up like really messed up but that’s okay. It’s okay that things are not always perfect and that you can’t be perfect. The one 17 year old me used to say “perfect is whatever you see as perfect and you’re perfect to me” self affirmation, viewpoint, yet here I am seeking from a decade ago when I should be pushing for a decade further. It happens, sometimes you have to go deep into it and readjust yourself, relearn who you have to be and how to be that better part of you. It’s a never ending continuous cycle. The part I know is, getting revenge stooping down to anyones level will never please you, it’s what’s wrong in our society. Acting out of anger will only continue to destroy you, you have to let it go, in those moments you have to learn to rise above and continue to be you and that’s when you win your challenges. You win when you can beat yourself, not anyone or anything else but your own mind, ego and continue to smile.

Thank you baba ji for all the trials and tribulations. As hard and tough and painful life has gotten in the past couple of years you’ve given me the power, awareness of who I am and I have the opportunity to stand up and continue to learn to be better. I’ve yet to learn how to be fully thankful even for the bad however I’m happy to be here and to be one with myself.

[jasminekaurwalia]

When you love someone

You battle through all the emotions even if it’s hard, even if it’s something you may not know how to do. When you’re with someone, you be pure about it always because otherwise there’s no reason to be with that person. It really doesn’t matter what you’ve gone through or what you go through. If you’ve loved before then you perfectly know how capable you are and fear is something you leave behind when you decide to be with someone. When you love, you find ways to love and see beauty, don't let the little things cloud your judgement or find reasons not to and even if you do go through it. You go through everything you have to because that’s what loving consists of, being completely vulnerable regardless of how hard it is. 

The one thing you don’t do is close your eyes and be blind. Because love will blind you and prevent you from seeing what’s in front of you or acknowledging things because you’re scared of what the outcome could be. 

If you love you love whole heartedly. and thats what love is, through the flaws through it all. 

I don’t know, a thought. OkayBye

[jasminekaurwalia]

Dear Future Love Story Person

I’m not perfect and I make random sound effects, I don’t really know lyrics so I end up saying “do do do” to fill in the blanks, I might say “eeeek” randomly when I sit in weird ways and try to get out of it, I’ll probably stare at you at random times because I like to wonder about how you came to be and watch how you react and act towards situations because I get amazed by people and little things and find beauty in it. I smile a lot..... normally and I have reallllly bad smile lines however it also means I’ll find ways to make you smile and stay smiling through whatever hardships there are even through I might question you because I overthink I’ll come up with 239492034 reasons of how you’ll hurt me but if I actually am with you, I’ll have 3902834902839082390482903482093482093482903482903589042385290358930852093583409584372840520485209389203840923840923859023850942850348346834092048509238409238409238902845894502480524052094385092385092385092480954280209348092358920458 reasons to stick with you and love you for who you are and I’ll fight through whatever there is for you because if you’re here it means you fought my hurdles and made it and for that I’ll believe in you more than anything. I like really deep intellectual conversations we can grow with, I also like random conversations about random things, I’m pretty flexible. Whatever you like, love are passionate about, I want to know it all because if I find you amazing, I’ll find everything you’re about just as amazing and I want to know it all because I want to know and be a part of everything you are. If I’m in it then I’m full heartedly in it and I want to bring out the best in you and make sure you’re surrounded by what you love. Also I’m really complicated because I’ve been hurt really bad but I went back and cemented my broken parts so I’ll try my hardest to not get insecure and to always be my own person at all times. Oh warning at night I get reallllllly sleep-angry when I’m tired and I say really random things but I don’t want to get off the phone because I hate “byes” because I never know when something will end so I try to stay on the phone but if it annoys you I’ll figure out how to say bye for the night. 

Oh and I like to know all the random things about you.....but I also want you to know me, everything about me... like my favorite movie, my favorite color, my favorite tv show, food, what I’m into, I want you to pay attention to me, I want to know I matter to you.... as much as you’ll matter to me.

I might try to scare you off but I’ll also never ever give up on you, If you get this far I will love you rain or shine. If you really really really find a way to love me like all of me, I will make sure to never ever give you a reason to give up on me... but if you do it’s okay it happens but don’t lie to me and say you love me and you’re all in, don’t ever let me live a fake dream don’t let me imagine myself with you forever if you can’t guarantee that or if you don’t even want that.... Also if you do then show me before you say things, act on it all and work with me always, come to me before anyone else and communicate everything with me. 

If you ever put a ring on my finger, I’ll be staring at it every single moment promising myself that I will always love you and be there for you...so know that and act out of that because if you promise me I’ll find away to promise you that much more.

We will build a future, we will work through it all. 

Also I will love your family as much as I love you, I will be shy as hell when I meet them because I’m meeting people I plan to love for the rest of my life regardless of the goods or bad, I will love them for who they are because they are a part of you and where you come from. I will learn who they are and how I can be there for them and support you all just the same. 

I’ll try my best to love you forever and always :) 

[jasminekaurwalia]

[jasminekaurwalia]

LOVE YOURSELF

Okay sooooo here goes......

What do I love about myself? 

I fall down a lot but I pick myself up even more. I can literally go through anything and somehow manage to find a way to smile, it’s not easy but I eventually figure it out even when I tear myself apart (literally break myself down into the tiniest pieces)

I love how much I can make people feel and make a difference for them. 

I love when I smile and it literally is like dominos and passes on! 

I love how I challenge myself and never settle for anything less than what I know I can do. (well sometimes I fall here also but I’m not doing that anymore)

I love that there's different sides to me:

 - I can be a cartoon, be a kid inside and make my family laugh

- I can put heels on some lipstick and show up like I own the universe

- I can put gym clothes and rock it pretty much anywhere nowadays (only because I love how my quads look in leggings and it makes me feel pretty dope)

- I didn’t know I had a lovey dovey side but I do and it’s scary as hell and great all the same. 

- I can be a support system literally I got you, throw whatever you want at me and I’ll figure a way to get you through it! 

I love that I use theeeeee most random words/sayings 

I love how family oriented I am and how much I value family in general. 

I love that I can understand things, sometimes I think wayyyy to much but I’m working on that :)

I love how I took myself from being 105 lbs barely being able to lift a 10 lbs dumbbell with two hands to where I’m at now, where i’ve been previously. Literally crushed that goal.

Okay here’s this for now. To Be Continued kay thanks bye <3

[jasminekaurwalia]

Things that make me happy :)

- SMILES :)

- Kindness

- Family

- Deep conversations

- Motivation/motivating others

- Coffee -> White chocolate mocha with almond milk

- Pressed Juice (wellness shots)

- Sunsets

- Working out

- Listening to waves hit rocks

- Compliments!

- Playing Phabi with my family

- Being a cartoon and making people laugh :)

- Little ones, they're so cute! The way they interact with each other, the way they look up to you. 

- Candles

- Quotes

- Matcha

-Exploring anywhere and everywhere

- Red roses, even after they dry out

- When people go out of their way to make someone smile

- Volunteering

- Cleaning/organizing

- Trying new recipe’s (except for when I burn myself)

- Writing

- Drawing 

- Reading

- manicures/pedicures

[jasminekaurwalia]

Impossible or Possible?

The grass is always greener on the other side they say, work harder for more and when you get the more work even harder for even more they say, don’t settle know your worth they say. 

If you were surrounded by an infinite amount of love out of nowhere would you know how to handle it? Or would you get lost/confused/question it’s very being? Taught to challenge the unknown but go with the flow all in one. What’s easy is made complicated all in our minds and once at unease it’s a battle within to get back outside. 

All these dreams all these fantasies of things you always wanted you want to get handed it all at once and not know how to comprehend until it starts getting snatched. How do stand back up knowing you had it right there right in front of your eyes. 

Life/nature/nurture teaches you who you are what you are about, you figure it out as you go. You learn how you could never treat someone and how you want to be treated, the ways you want to impact others and you do all that it takes. 

One thunderstorm and you lose it all. You lose that balance you fought so hard for and get lost grasping for air to hold onto. That equilibrium falls apart to leave you confused in the middle trying and trying to understand where you went wrong, what you did. 

But it’s not just you, in any type of relationship there's two and you have to realize the other person is a factor as well, your actions affect that person as well. You fight your own battle but can’t expense the other person in it. 

[jasminekaurwalia]

Unattainable

Life works in funny ways. Sometimes it’s equivalent to being in a maze, trying to figure out the right direction only to reach dead ends where you have to re-trace your steps and reconfigure your path. Everything in life is a learning lesson, that’s the one thing that never stops. You continue to learn as you experience. People come into your life and people leave your life and sometimes people return to your life. Sometimes you realize what you don’t when it’s too late and sometimes you realize it but can’t say anything. Either way, it’s ironic how it plays out. 

Sometimes what you reach out for isn’t what's always in your grasp. It’s okay because sometimes that’s just the way life works. What you want most isn’t always what you get and sometimes it takes situations for you to realize how much or why. 

Attributes are what set people a part what make them beautiful. People shine from the inside out. Genuine kindness and passion is what makes people glow and sometimes that’s what gets you. When you see what you want to be because at the end of the day that’s what we should want to surround ourselves with. 

Regardless of what side we end up on, I wish you happiness in every form :) 

[jasminekaurwalia]

“You believe in science and I make art. You see evolution and I believe in change. You bring people back to life and I give them a reason to stay. You listen to music and I hear the lyrics. You take photographs of the sunsets and I paint them. You see black and white and I only focus on the grey.You believe in science and I make art.”

—

Ming D. Liu

(via mingdliu)

[jasminekaurwalia]

You make me want to be better. I don’t know what that means all the time but when I get cold I don’t reach for the lighter anymore. That’s not saying that you exist to fix me but I exist to fix myself and I am glad to because people like you are real and this isn’t the world I thought it was. It’s like getting beat down constantly until one day you discover that you could stand and all of a sudden gravity means a totally different thing– I hate to make it sound like you are my universe, because you aren’t, you’re just a nicer perspective of it. I don’t wake up waiting for the night to  call me to bed again anymore I stay up watching the stars talk through flashing morse code with you and when the city gets too loud I don’t get lost wishing that a car would find itself inches from hitting me I just wonder where this train is taking me and I hope it’s to you. I’m not saying that love fixes anything glass will still break even when you paint something beautiful on it but sometimes everything feels more bearable around you because for once there is someone else and happiness doesn’t seem like it has to be a solitary journey anymore.

I’m not saying love is the cure, but it definitely helps (via ink-trails)

[jasminekaurwalia]

KINDNESS/Beauty is skin-deep

Defined by google: The quality of being friendly, generous, and considerate.

My perception: Understanding that everyone goes through things, no one gets to choose what’s greater or less. So why add on to that? Be there, don’t expect anything out of it other than the fact that you can maybe make a difference and bring some sunshine into someone’s life or even moment. The little things count, even if they aren’t the bigger picture. Even if it’s just smiling at someone, if you can make them smile back you altered that moment for them. Smiling brings warmth and sometimes it’s just what someone needs. Be generous with words even if it may seem like you’re feeding into someone’s ego but be genuine don’t say things just to say it, preach what you believe in. Be respectful of everyone. If you’re going to give then give wholeheartedly and if you do be okay with it and move forward. Sometimes it’s hard because we seek reciprocity which has been encoded into our subconscious. At the end of the day if you make someone smile what greater gift is there. It’s okay if you don’t receive it back there’s other opportunities in life that can bring happiness. Don’t ever give up or give yourself a reason to change what you believe in. Equality: at the end of the day we are all just human regardless of race, color, orientation and any other dividing factor, at the end of the day we all have one thing in common we are individual’s with a heart and soul traveling in our own paths with unknown destinies. 

There is beauty everywhere in everything. Sometimes you just have to take a closer look. If you look for negativity that’s all you’ll find and the rest will become insignificant. Word’s like: crazy, weird, different and strange -  may have negative connotations behind them but what do they have in common? Individuality and that’s what’s beautiful and unique yet to describe it isn’t even as pleasant.  

SMILE :) even if you aren’t in the mood just do it. You are beautiful who ever you are, there is beauty in you! Someone somewhere see’s it. Sometimes we are the last to realize it.