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I've learned recently that money and fancy things are more appealing than someone without any of those things. Someone I trusted convinced me it wasn't necessary and that it wasn't about the money or things it was about the message/helping people. Turns out, it wasn't true, and ignoring me in regards to it was how they proceeded until I, after accepting the reality of the situation, excused myself from further participation. Unbeknownst to me, was that the friends I thought I had made, no longer talk to me either. It's as of I've done something to them but unaware. I share my story about what my stbxw put me through, my new walk with Christ, how he helped and protected me, still does, my journals and journey, narcissistic abuse, thinking I've finally found people who will help me, who understand, are selfless, true and honest and they help people over streaming services!! They kicked me away as well, over money. Because I couldn't pay. Stay vigilant. Stand in your truth. I have no doubt who guides me, protects me, loves me. Part of that, is giving messages to people without a thought of myself never knowing or asking why, being of service. More times than not, people stop talking to me, I feel their contempt, anger, scenarios/gossip, and disdain. Thoughtlessness about thoughtfulness. I'll always be of service to God. Be well and in faith in all you do.

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I've decided to share my ten year journal from beginning to end about my marriage to a covert, malignant narcissist with BPD. These are my private journals and they're in great detail. My hope is that it helps someone out there who's unaware or currently going through this. You have my permission to share and or contact me if you have questions via email at

murphyjared1061978@gmail.com

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A few things you need to listen for in the beginning of every relationship so you aren't caught in the witches web of manipulation.

1) If she tells you every relationship she's been she's been cheated on.

2) Love Bombing.

If it's to good to be true, it is. We've all been in love before. This type will have you spellbound in a way that you'll be sucked in like never before. Overly agreeable and overly accommodating.

3) Sex.

Unprotected unlimited access. Non stop action. Like when you were a teenager. Anyone building a relationship on sex, is not in it for mutual companionship. This is also meant to suck you in and have you thinking with your other head instead. Just as she's intending

4) Walks ahead of you in public.

If, when you are out in public she walks ahead of you and acts like it's no big deal, or anyway in public really. Grocery store, sidewalk, etc... This is absolutely huge right here. This is when you'll notice "the shift".

I'll add more to this but I'm getting this out there in the hopes it helps one person and saves them the personal hell they'll surely be living in for years. I was married to one for 10 years and I'll be sharing my personal experiences, in exact detail on this personal blog. Thank you