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Freaky

Rainbow doodle from class c:

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man i hate people that have way too much sex “oh yeah i just hit up a friend of mine for some head” can i skin you alive how are you so nonchalant about it

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shake zula on the cross

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i’ve been posting too much serious shit. gotta get back to basics and post memes i have in my phone

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i am for destigmatizing sex work. but i would not encourage anyone to do it for the reason you mentioned: abusive execs, lack of social mobility, etc. i do feel that young girls are groomed into it and proceed to dive straight into the sex industry the day they turn 18. the fact of the matter is there are rings of people online that will obtain new performers by stealing away the future from women who just turned 18. potentially convincing them to do sex stuff before then. that’s the type of lowlife i don’t want anywhere near my family.

i also don’t think sex work is always involuntary; informed adults reserve the right to open up any kind of business they want. they deserve to make porn and distribute it and make a living off it if they damn well please. i don’t want sex workers to go through what you describe with exacerbated difficulties getting out of the industry. that’s a major reason i’m wary of it rn. i don’t want people to be controlled by their abusers because they can’t go to the police about it. i don’t know how you got the idea that i hate sex workers.

"Porn is bad because (something that happens because of lack of sex education)" is such a frustrating and common opinion tbh

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but porn *is* bad. at least the irl stuff anyway. rampant drug use and coerced consent are pretty commonplace in porn. a major porn company got busted for flying girls out to them under the guise of a modeling gig and leaving them no way to return unless they made a movie. onlyfans has pimps in there making money off the backs of women. would you personally be comfy exposing your body and genitals and stuff to the public for them to essentially consume you? i wouldn’t. i wouldn’t let my sister or my mom or my dad or anyone do it at all costs.

i should admit i used to consume irl porn all the time and occasionally relapse to this day. but besides everything being made for the male gaze exclusively, remembering how much exploitation there is gets me to stay far away from it. drawn/written porn is 100x more ethical and it’s way sexier to boot. this is where i would disagree with radfems: the kinks or just liking sex and wanting to look at porn isn’t inherently evil. idk dude i am a massive hypocrite. i don’t hate sex workers or anything i just want the best for them. and if they want to do onlyfans or make porn that’s ok i just don’t want them to be forced into anything they don’t want.

"Porn is bad because (something that happens because of lack of sex education)" is such a frustrating and common opinion tbh

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i do really fucking hate to pull the special snowflake card but yeah. i do feel different. not in a good or bad way: i just am. like it was noted that i was roughly two years behind my peers in terms of emotional development and it used to show a lot as a kid. i now feel as though i was either babied or bullied a lot for it: either way, i feel as though i was othered. to be honest i felt like i was behind my peers until college.

it was pretty embarrassing too, like everyone would be having a good time playing mario or something and i’d lowkey be freaking out because i was fucking scared of the minibosses. i guess besides being a massive pussy i used to cry a lot, and then when the adults around me tried to fix that, i hurt myself and later had full-blown meltdowns in class. i was very situationally unaware to the point where it was a common thing for people to say i lacked common sense. if i’m being honest i feel lucky i had friends and actually got along with people growing up because i’d have been fucked if i didn’t.

nowadays i do feel more normal relative to my friends, though i don’t really consider my friends normal people. but acceptance and a base level of understanding is nice. looking at the poll results it may be that it’s normal to be rough around the edges in some form over another. i guess if i felt like someone i knew growing up had the exact same experiences i did i’d be freaked out.

Discussion encouraged!

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I hate fandom, fanfiction, shipping, and blorbos. Fanart is cool but only if you're drawing naruto characters in modern sportswear

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i hate the word “sir” with a passion like “thank you sir” i’m gonna murder you with my bare hands and eat your organs how about that

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dealing with two mobile phone scares in one day is crazy. first my charger was rejecting any plugs. i thought i somehow broke something internally so that the plug was misshapen. so after i fired off a message to friends, they told me i just had some dust built up in the port. crisis averted: i just took a toothpick and scraped out a notably large piece of lint. then later today (30 minutes ago in fact), i discover my sim card wasn’t reading. i guess it got dislodged while i was poking around inside my (black box of an) iphone, so yeah it was another pain to get it in the tray until i discover that i was trying to force it in the wrong way after 20 minutes of fiddling with and nearly breaking the tray. so yeah

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me putting my massive party orgy on pause to receive the news that baldur’s gate 3 is woke and gay

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sometimes i happen upon a completely vile gaggle of people on the internet and think to myself that, if i had kept going the way i was just two months ago, i could’ve been one of them. i don’t quite know what’s changed since then. but i’ve felt less inclined toward blind hatred. maybe not out of any sense of justice, but of a sense that no matter how hard i try, i really can’t give enough energy to establish an enemy and to hate it. i feel really sorry for the bigoted shit i said and the slurs i said and typed in private and all the hours i have dedicated to hate. it was like a drug and i felt as though my mind was pulsating and spinning, like in all sorts of directions and it couldn’t slow down. i am bitter. i am hurt. i wish there was someone or something to whisk me away to safety and comfort. away from the people that have robbed me of finding myself. i lashed out at lots of people, all undeserving. i feel powerless to this day to stop it or to improve my condition. i feel as though, no matter how much i hurt inside, i’ll always be seen as a man. no matter how visibly upset i get, i’ll always just be a weird male to others. i feel as though i can’t tell anyone. i don’t want anyone to see. i can’t heal. i can’t move out. i can’t start from scratch. i give my deadname when placing orders. force of habit or fear that they might see me for who i really am and destroy me. i don’t want to make it seem like i know a great deal of pain. i’ve lived comfortably on a material level and my needs are mostly met. it’s always just felt incomplete in the identity department. as though i live out a lie to keep myself concealed. fuck. i just want to feel safe and to feel as though i’m enough. feel as though i am a woman. i can’t explain it to cis people; they don’t understand how much this shit wears on you. i can’t explain why i feel the need to be a woman or explain why i’m in pain, or if i really am in pain. so much shit to unpack, so i feel such a temptation to lash out at everyone. don’t know what to say. sorry this post got out of hand.

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should i decide what my name is gonna be with a 32 CPU smash bros tourney where each CPU corresponds to a name

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dude wtf is this “they see us as pigs” type stuff it’s just a shitty movie. can we just take a deep breath and realize this shit doesn’t matter? nobody’s going to go see it because literally every demographic is off-put by the trailer.

youre not gonna be able to bully the minecraft movie directors into reanimating anything because unlike with the sonic movie clearly the people who made this movie lack any personal nostalgia for it and dont get it beyond "game my kids play" and therefore just decided to take a popular ip and throw popular actors at it and spit out a corporate slop script and designs because they dont care about the viewers beyond their ability to consume and they dont care about the consumers' time unless it gives them money. to them we are pigs and this is the scraps mixed in a pail with mud and worms for us to gobble up and keep growing their coffers. its not made because they care and its not made to be cared about and i promise in like 2 years it'll disappear off streaming services because they dont care about it enough to pay to keep it around and obviously nobody's gonna rewatch it. honestly just dont watch it. not even out of spite. there's better things out there that respect your time and your hard-earned money

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finally bothered to watch the minecraft movie trailer and were you dumbasses expecting literally anything else. of course it’s gonna be a crappy-looking cash grab for kids the concept of a minecraft movie sucks anyway. nobody asked for this so why even expect anything from it.

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i’m gonna lose my fucking mind at these clowns