janethesiren

[janethesiren]

hi beautiful people. for multiple reasons, i've changed my handle and moved blogs to @dazeracha. you can follow me there if you still wanna see me around.

i'm not so comfortable anymore with consuming adult content because it really affects my mental health. still, i would like to keep my follow for some people i've really grown fond of in here, but i will not consume their writing.

see you in the other blog. logging out. x

[janethesiren]

hi beautiful people. for multiple reasons, i've changed my handle and moved blogs to @dazeracha. you can follow me there if you still wanna see me around.

i'm not so comfortable anymore with consuming adult content because it really affects my mental health. still, i would like to keep my follow for some people i've really grown fond of in here, but i will not consume their writing.

see you in the other blog. logging out. x

[janethesiren]

idk what traumatized or mentally ill person needs to hear this but dreams (especially the really disturbing ones you dont want to talk about to anybody) arent some deep peek into your psyche or a sign of your True Desires or whatever theyre quite literally your brain making fruit salad with whatever it can find on the shelf. just putting all that shit in a blender and hitting obliterate. its fine, youre fine, youre not a weirdo for it

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“The reason I started making music was to express my inner struggles through music and to become someone who can represent the concerns of people like us. Instead of becoming an idol or an object of admiration, I hope to be an artist who lives in the same era as those people, someone who can capture the stories of many people in my music and create a sense of empathy together. I want to become a singer who is a proud to someone and a friend-like figure to others.” [trans]

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today i feel less useless than yesterday

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food intake today: two takis and three slices of bread

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Please don’t walk away from me, I beg. I think I’m falling in love with you, Juliet.

Charcoal Blues In C Minor by @cb97percent — Ren, thank you for writing stories that feed people's hearts and souls. Thank you for Charcoal Blues In C Minor. It changed me forever.

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i feel ridiculous sharing this to a social platform no where no one's gonna read it. but i have nowhere to go

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i've lost every single person i have ever loved. how can I be so difficult to deal with that every single one of my lovers ends up leaving

[janethesiren]

i ran out of the people I love. i'm gonna mis him so much. he was the love of my life and the one person i. never felt judged by, i found him so endearingly beautiful inside out, so incredibly special and warm. so misunderstood and critically misjudged. i've prayed years for his recovery and life full of plenitude and at the end he had to get rid of me to find that. i saw our future life go down the drain. all the plans of moving, getting married, getting kids. the endless amount of love and patience. the years waiting to kiss him and sleeping with him. i am a colateral effect to his sins.

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i feel like an ungrateful piece of shit but i do not remember a single year that went smoothly in my life. i do not want to continue this path. i wish for God to make me insensitive and unproblematic. i want to be normal and find comfort in having a normal life. i can't keep up like this.

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my brother is disappointed in me all the time, my friends and mom are tired of my pain and struggles, my grades are awful, my work is awful and i can't and don't want to have a job at teaching because I do not know how to make people learn. the love of my life kicked me in the ass but didn't let me leave, ended up arguing and crying the hardest I ever have. i don't think i'm a good person. i'm pretty sure i'm a pathological narcisist and i will not achieve content or happiness

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time to come back to this shit hole so i don't k*ll myself

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-And in every other universe, it doesn't end well. -There's a first time for everything, right?

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You know Miles “Who’s Morales” Morales, Gwen “Gwanda” Stacy and Pavitr “This is your daughter, I do not know her” Prabhakar are all absolutely horrible liars, but Hobie? Hobie is the extremely rare Spiderperson who can actually lie perfectly, and he can, will, and certainly does use that to his advantage.

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On a scale of Felix, how y'all feelin today?

Part 35

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PARAMORE for Office Magazine (Spring/Summer)