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I hate math I fucking hate my math teacher why the fuck are you picking me to answer when there's enough people to answer

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Uhh- um- ugh- im- I'ma- I'm a complainer I love to complain let me bitch to you about any minor issue I have pls pls listen to me complain I don't care if you're interested or want to help I just want to complain complain complain

(absolutely not related to me never feeling heard or listened to nooooo)

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I hate comparing my period and other people's periods, cause like I know people who literally can't walk because of the pain and all they can do I lay in bed trying not to throw up, then here I am. I don't have any pain besides some soreness in the first day or two, but my mood swings get literally so bad that I blow up at the smallest of things and think that the only way out of this is ending it all.

But it's not as bad physically as other people so I can't complain.

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this blog hates donald trump

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Tw Sh

Didn't really feel it today :/

I tried multiswiping to make at least something of it, but that didn't work. For some reason.

Plus the whole ensemble with the star I made. Not really healing the way I want it to but oh well.

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New bandaids acquired 👍 expect a lil sesh

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I love how for me it's just a monthly streak of no dreams whatsoever and then it's one dream every blur moon, and since getting new blades every single one of those rare dreams has been related to self harm, often involving wounds that I don't even have and never plan on doing bc they're way too noticable.

Like I had a dream today that my brother saw my cut up thigh, except it wasn't just the few cuts I did on the inside of my thigh, the whole front of my right thigh had cuts. I realized that I haven't seen my brother for the whole day since he went to work early with my mom, so obviously it was a dream, but only later I remembered that I don't even have those wounds.

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Please please please let me get what I want (being able to cut myself without people worrying)

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what if we bled out on the floor together?

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I love love love love picking at scabs but when I'm done I have no more scabs to pick :(

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(a lil carving :3)

I tried making a little star, since y'know I'm not really used to actually making cuts look like anything, and it turned out a lil wonky bit that's okay :}

I added some normal cuts around it later but forgot to tape another pic lol

Gotta get some cutting in bc I have my first and last lesson with the worst fucking teacher ever tomorrow :D I hope she gets into a car crash and her car blows up. I gotta steal some more bandaids tomorrow after school bc I'm once again out of bandaids >:(

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no bc what do you mean i thought i was gonna be gone by 13 and i’m still flipping here…

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School is going so bad, my life is falling apart and I don’t know what to do, I swear I feel so bad, like my body physically hurt

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Me when the sh hurts

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Edit with the half healed cvts

Kinda have a love-hate relationship with these cuts cause on one hand oh my God I have cuts that don't heal after one night, that's not much compared to other people but 11y/o me would have never thought I'd reach that, on the other hand im super scared they'll somehow start bleeding again and bleed on my pants.

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Only a few cuts bc I would've thrown up if I did more, I was disgusted with myself. But ey at least in a new place.

Okay I lowkey fw these filters. Not what I wanted but idk where y'all get those hearts and all, still cool. I wish I bled cool funky colors.

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Trying to not be jealous of people who actually cut deep challenge