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Does anyone else just randomly feel like they're annoying everyone around them and that they should just disappear for a while to give everyone else a break from their existence, or is that just me?

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Don't kill yourselfs because there's still a chance that afterlife is just having to relive this shit show again with no power or chance to change anything.

On a different note, being passively suicidal is so funny to me (as a passively suicidal person) cause I just be like "I'll let life and fate do their things" while I worry the people around me with depressive as fuck comments and lowkey dangerous behavior.

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“are you ok?” lol fuck no

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Idk if I'll ever really post sh Pics on here again. This might just be a phase and I'll be back in like a month or so.

Like yeah I still feel like shit but cutting/thinking about cutting makes me feel shittier for some reason. Idk if it's some kid of guilt or fear of being discovered or a feeling of betrayal bc my relationship with my brother got a little better again or bc I got a friend that's actually there for me or because I can actually see myself have a life with my partner at some point, but yeah this account will be pic free for a while.

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rejection sensitivity is so fucking lame. like boo hoo look at me i felt mildly ignored for 30 seconds and already started planning my own funeral liKE BITCH CHILL it was never that serious

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What do you mean staying home during the week is bad for my mental health because I feel useless and like a traitor? What do you mean it's also bad for my mental health to go to school (specifically on Thursdays and Fridays) because seeing specific teachers makes me want to kms?????

What do you mean?????

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Imagine you want to cut yourself in peace but your fockin' brother comes in and fucking leaves the dog laying on your back before you can even start

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I hate math I fucking hate my math teacher why the fuck are you picking me to answer when there's enough people to answer

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Uhh- um- ugh- im- I'ma- I'm a complainer I love to complain let me bitch to you about any minor issue I have pls pls listen to me complain I don't care if you're interested or want to help I just want to complain complain complain

(absolutely not related to me never feeling heard or listened to nooooo)

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I hate comparing my period and other people's periods, cause like I know people who literally can't walk because of the pain and all they can do I lay in bed trying not to throw up, then here I am. I don't have any pain besides some soreness in the first day or two, but my mood swings get literally so bad that I blow up at the smallest of things and think that the only way out of this is ending it all.

But it's not as bad physically as other people so I can't complain.

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this blog hates donald trump

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Tw Sh

Didn't really feel it today :/

I tried multiswiping to make at least something of it, but that didn't work. For some reason.

Plus the whole ensemble with the star I made. Not really healing the way I want it to but oh well.

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New bandaids acquired 👍 expect a lil sesh

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I love how for me it's just a monthly streak of no dreams whatsoever and then it's one dream every blur moon, and since getting new blades every single one of those rare dreams has been related to self harm, often involving wounds that I don't even have and never plan on doing bc they're way too noticable.

Like I had a dream today that my brother saw my cut up thigh, except it wasn't just the few cuts I did on the inside of my thigh, the whole front of my right thigh had cuts. I realized that I haven't seen my brother for the whole day since he went to work early with my mom, so obviously it was a dream, but only later I remembered that I don't even have those wounds.