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,,,,, Sesame Street au with single dad alex.

alright, so single dad au rules, lawrence is somehow adopted -- alex takes the sesame street gig because it pays well and because his kid is the only thing he cares about, might as well make something he can watch. as far as lawrence is concerned, and as far as alex is concerned within lawrence’s hearing, the whole thing is real, the puppets and the set and all of it. which means when lawrence assumes that george is alex’s best friend in the whole world, alex can’t exactly deny it without shattering the illusion. and -- fine, they are friends, it’s not like alex has much of a life between work and the kid, so maybe he’s closer to george than to anyone else who isn’t his son. but they’re not hang-out-after-work close. alex goes from filming to his baby and back again. he’s worried that if he starts spending too much time with george beyond that stoop on sesame street that -- that he’ll forget the way things really are, and start to believe the illusion, too. 

but of course lawrence wants to visit the set. and they have their ways of doing it without breaking it to the kids that it’s all a show, and lawrence is a smart kid but also has a big heart full of belief and imagination, so it’s fine. then lawrence meets george. it’s not that -- alex knew he’d love george, everyone does, but it’s immediate, george is lawrence’s favorite person (aside from alex -- hopefully) the moment he crouches down to say hello to him. lawrence wants a hug, so he gets a hug, and george is so thoroughly gone on this kid immediately, he’s the sweetest thing, bright like his dad, and curious, and hilarious, and it’s just. immediate. george can understand why alex was so reluctant to tell anyone he was a parent, of course he wanted to keep this wonderful little boy to himself. it’s a perfect afternoon, lawrence is so impossibly happy, and alex is so much softer around his baby, so much more open to the magic of things. 

then lawrence wants to hang out with george. all the time. can’t understand why him and alex don’t hang out all the time, because they’re best friends! his dad smiles so big when george says something nice to him! it’s so easy, and alex -- alex is stuck, because lawrence wants it so much, and george is completely open to it when alex mentions it half-jokingly. “he can’t understand why we don’t hang out outside of work. and i mean, i don’t have a life, so i get why he assumes that, my time is split between him and you, basically, but -- you, obviously, have. other things to do.” and george tilts his head, faintly amused, “i don’t, really. the most fun i have all day is here. if you’d like to do something, the three of us, we could. i would enjoy that.” and george is his friend he’s just also kind and beautiful and sometimes when alex sits beside him on their stoop all he feels is warmth and muscle where their arms touch and alex cannot afford everything that would mean, but somehow his dumbass mouth opens and -- “yeah. he’d like that. i -- i would like that.”

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FUCK sometimes I just wanna get a pair of ultra reflective contact lenses, hang out by the road just at the edge of the forest after the streetlights turned off, stare directly into the headlights of an oncoming car, drop down to all fours, and just fucking BOOK IT into the woods

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i had to see this and now so do all of you

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so i’m reading my old fanfics and ew

ew ew ewwww

why did i ever think those things were good

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I actually can’t watch Hamilton on Disney+

It gives me war flashbacks

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Hey, I know this blog is about writing angsty fanfiction about musical/historical people.

But I’d like to make it clear that if you don’t support BLM, then feel free to leave my mostly inactive blog. ✌️

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I love history because if you just do enough wild shit, maybe in 200 years people will still be talking about you

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please don’t ignore me and send me which mutual i am

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all trivial fond records [a whamilton fic]

While Shakespeare’s work ostensibly turns on Hamlet’s grief for his father, Custis’ production spotlights the father-son relationship nearly to the exclusion of all other dynamics. Washington commands the stage as effectively as King Hamlet’s ghost as he has in any of his leading roles, and it is this presence that renders Hamlet’s wide-eyed, obsessive attentions not only believable but also strikingly necessary. “Wicked or charitable”, neither the audience nor Hamlet can look away. 

Hamilton’s take on the play’s protagonist is at turns tragic and infernal; nowhere in sight is the noble, tortured hero of past iterations, including Washington’s own portrayal. Yet even at his most damnable – his casting off of Ophelia is particularly difficult to stomach considering the quiet dignity and strength Schuyler imbues the character with – the viewer finds themselves hard-pressed not to recall Hamlet wrenching free of restraining arms to chase his father into the dark, more lost child than bitter wretch or clever wordsmith. 

“Alexander?”

read the rest on ao3!

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I would like everyone to know that it’s literally illegal to kudos any fanfic I’ve ever written because I get whiplash thinking of the fandom

Thank you

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I shouldn’t have to say this, but we’re on a hellsite so:

Stalin wasn’t a good person. He committed multiple genocides and is responsible for several million deaths. Maybe don’t romanticize the USSR under Stalin, k?

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there’s a quarantine going on… no pressure but i KNOW ya’ll have WIPs

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The amendments, in this order, are:

1. Talk shit

2. Get hit

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god i feel so bad for elizabeth schuyer

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Alex doesn’t need to change! He just needs someone to love who he is!

Like, don’t get me wrong, George definitely teaches him a few time management skills. But Alex is probably so caught up in being the perfect boyfriend that George has to remind him that he fell in love with Alex as is.

thinking now about how washington is so uniquely prepared to deal with the sharp, grasping way alex loves. he’s seen him in a professional context, seen how he digs his teeth into every task he’s given even to his own detriment, knows that when alex dedicates himself it’s wholehearted to the point of destruction. so when alex tells him, after everything, that he’s not an easy person to love, that he knows he’s too much on every front, george wants to laugh, a little – didn’t he know all this at the start? didn’t he know loving alex, being loved by him, was always going to leave a mark? 

just. so much of why i love this dynamic is how clear-eyed gw is about everything alex is. he sees him and knows him in ways alex doesn’t even know himself, and it’s their one saving grace – there’s not much alex can surprise him with, even early on. alex falls hard and he clings hard because everything he’s ever wanted has been ripped from him, and george just plants his feet and lets alex hold on for as long as he’d like. 

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This is highkey why their relationship works so well. Because Alexander is inherently unsteady in his emotions. Anyone unprepared would take his words and actions to be spiteful.

But George doesn’t, because he knows full well what he’s getting into. He knows that when Alex isn’t talking, it’s because he’s content in the silence. He knows that when Alex burns toast, it’s because he got distracted by George’s eyes. Alexander’s ambition isn’t a downside in their relationship, and it was never meant to be.

Alex is crazy devoted, because of course he is- it just takes someone who knows what his devotion looks like.

thinking now about how washington is so uniquely prepared to deal with the sharp, grasping way alex loves. he’s seen him in a professional context, seen how he digs his teeth into every task he’s given even to his own detriment, knows that when alex dedicates himself it’s wholehearted to the point of destruction. so when alex tells him, after everything, that he’s not an easy person to love, that he knows he’s too much on every front, george wants to laugh, a little – didn’t he know all this at the start? didn’t he know loving alex, being loved by him, was always going to leave a mark? 

just. so much of why i love this dynamic is how clear-eyed gw is about everything alex is. he sees him and knows him in ways alex doesn’t even know himself, and it’s their one saving grace – there’s not much alex can surprise him with, even early on. alex falls hard and he clings hard because everything he’s ever wanted has been ripped from him, and george just plants his feet and lets alex hold on for as long as he’d like. 

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Someone said Bloomberg looks like the grasshopper from a bug's life and I cant stop thinking about it