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[jamaisvelut]

20/05/23

Dear Diary,

Whew...! So much has happened since my last entry, I don't even know where to start. Todays aura is unfortunately a very soft blue, so soft it's almost not there. I feel this way because I am blue and feel invisible, unheard. I had been having many good days in between this entry and the last. I went to the cinema with my friend and watched an AMAZING rom com, it was so lovely, we must go together to another sometime. I loved seeing her, we went to a Korean wing place after and the food was great and they kept playing BTS songs, YAY! Since then, I had been straight STUDYING with my besties, working hard for our last assessment. I think it went okay, freaked a bit but it was fun doing it with a friend. We went to Nandos after and they helped me film a video for an application which was so much fun! We parted ways and I miss them so much already, but I'll see them soon! Fast forward and I'm back home. The journey was good, thankfully, but being back isn't what I'd hoped. Just now, we had to move a bunch of stuff out of the garden but there were a ton of bees so it was hard. Regardless, I did a lot whilst the others didn't do anything, until mum and stuff came out, suddenly my brother was a hero doing everything and complaining that me and my sister did nothing. It was infuriating. And then he took my idea for a solution to a problem we had and my mum wouldn't even listen to my explanation of the situation, but listened when my sister's dad said the exact same thing. I felt unheard and unimportant. They recognised that I was sad, and my mum hugged me after but I still feel blue. I'll throw myself into my work to feel better. Writing this out definitely helped at least. 💕

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08/05/23 02:39

Dear diary,

It's been a while! The aura of the past few days have been a mellow yellow. So much has happened since I last updated with a new entry. I went out twice! I saw one of my girls and we went shopping and bought boba and ate and it was so lovely, we had so much fun just talking and existing and sprinkles of happy moments kept happening! The next day I met with my other friend and she wanted to walk around taking pictures during the coronation and talk about boys, and I love walking around just to take pictures, so I'm so glad we hung out. I missed them all so much and I can't wait to see them all again. Been chilling, relaxing, doing skin care and such the past few days and it's been nice not having to worry about things like work. Lazing around in bed is the nest feeling. Meeting my other friend in a few days so I'm looking forward to that! I was stressed out just a little bit a few days ago but I refuse to let myself come undone after working so hard and good things coming my way. Here's to me and happy days.

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05/05/23 00:23

Dear diary,

It is just past midnight so this is actually an update for the 4th. Let's just pretend! Sooooo, today's aura was maybe a soft purple, lavender perhaps. It was uneventful but in a self reflective sort of way. I didn't overexert my mind or spirit, I didn't stress or dwell on the bad things in life, and moments of my day were sprinkled with fairy dust. It was a cute and simple day and it's these small, insignificant moments in my life that I value above all. I get to genuinely appreciate life and take it in one breath at a time. I hope I have more days like this. The 5th will be fun. Shopping, friends, BOBA, I'm so excited! Here's to lovely lavender days ~

[jamaisvelut]

03/05/2023 23:01

Dear diary

The aura of the day is super pink because today has been super special! Today I have realised that with all the bad comes so much good. My darkest days lead to my sweetest smiles. Good energy, success and achievement has come my way today and all I can do is be thankful. I'm excited to document my journey and see how far I grow and what I come to achieve. Keep your head up girlie, life really does have a funny way of working out ~