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how I feel when bucky arrives at the stalag all beaten up and bloody w a black eye and greasy ass hair matted w blood.

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meanwhile at band of brothers bootcamp: the sign of rpf to come

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mota + twitter screenshots saved in my phone that reminded me of them.

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- Fear on John Egan’s face: a study

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BUCK & BUCKY | 2/? Masters of the Air — Part Two (2024)

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not enough talk about how gale felt when bucky said "you remind me of buck back home in wisconsin" bc no way he saw it for what it really was at first. more likely he thought well he's just befriending me because i remind him of someone from home in this unfamiliar place where we're getting ready for war. it's not really about me. but then it's "buck, can you help me tie my shoes" and "buck, help me fly this plane" and "buck, you're my best friend. you know that, right?" the last one mumbled into gale's neck when bucky is three sheets to the wind but gale knows it's no less truthful for it. and maybe being buck isn't so bad, when it means being bucky's.

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the missed opportunity to have a mota episode from lemmons’ pov a la bastogne… john orloff I’m killing you in my mind…

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so. i've been thinking probably way much about bucky's attachment issues bc they're soooo loud to me like he clings to people so hard!!! he wants to be chosen!!! him asking gale "did you miss me?" after spending objectively not that much time apart half joking but half sincere bc he's used to people getting tired of him and leaving so he has to make sure.

And it makes gale saying no to london even more of a Big Deal. and paulina leaving him the morning after even when he asked her to stay!!! and lil kissing him but getting with dye!! and once again feeling rejected in the stalag when gale won't leave with him, won't even entertain the thought of it !! andddd not having anyone writing him letters, possibly not even his family for reasons we don't get to know but probably are a big part of why he has attachment issues

i've already said this but i'll say it again even though he's confident/cocky at times he doesn't... like himself . or has a lot of regard for his own life which we literally see in the show. he was Capital S Suicidal – bc of the stalag obviously but come on he drinks like crazy and gambles and smokes even before things get Really Bad. and the plane wing sceneeeee you don't goad your friend !! not even a random person but a Friend into hitting you if you're a well adjusted individual. And he was ready to give up fr when gale went down. he did not want to bail out with brady!!! AND him risking his eye to get gale a bike (which while yeah crazy yaoi moment . to me also ties into him needing to be wanted/needed so people won't leave him) so yeah clearly not huge on self preservation which at least in my perception is something that stems from self hatred

all of these rejections (even if justified at times) are probably a series of blows to his perception of himself/sense of self and just reaffirm to him in his head that he's not good enough and he is right to expect to be left by the people he loves. and he tries to stop that by clinging as hard as he can and not being expendable/replaceable. but if they do leave he can rationalize it because if everyone leaves him clearly it's his fault, he's the one lacking – which feeds his recklessness and self destructive coping mechanisms even more

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ANTHONY BOYLE and LOUIS GREATOREX in MASTERS OF THE AIR (2024), part four

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MASTERS OF THE AIR (2024) Part one

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a single loose curl over john bucky egan’s forehead send tweet

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callum turner I just have a few questions for u. was the face grab scripted. was the face grab scripted. was the face grab scripted was the face grab scripted did they write the face grab into the script did u read it in the script and then act it out according to said script was the face grab scripted. and lastly was the face grab scripted

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MOTA GIFS PER EPISODE | Part 1 – Why didn't you tell me? You didn't tell me it was like that. – I didn't know what to say.

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oh so that cheek grab in ep 2 was ad-libbed as fuck and no one on set wanted to risk being called homophobic for pointing out how gay it was huh.

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a single loose curl over john bucky egan’s forehead send tweet