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Hello again Tumblr... And maybe goodbye?

I obviously haven’t posted here for a while. No particular reason as to why. I will still keep this account open, but I will start moving forward to a more personal blog showcasing some projects I have worked on, such as DIYs, cosplays and recipes (although I haven't done too much of that yet). I haven’t posted anything yet but feel free to keep your eyes peeled for when I do (probably sometime this week or next). Until then, adieu Tumblr!

Jordanscraftsandfoods.blogspot.com

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I used to be judgmental of people who had relationship or boy problems... Well now the tables have turned. I’ve been hurt so many times, I really don’t know how much more of this I can take. I’m turning into high school freshmen me, which I’m trying so hard to prevent. I need to be surrounded by people who really care about me because that’s how I healed the last time. But we’re all growing up and it’s hard making plans now. I really just want to be with my friends and forget about this heartache I’m feeling. I really don’t know what I’ve done to feel this way but I don’t like it.

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Happiness first

I knew I would get hurt at some point, but I wanted to keep trying anyways. In the end, I hurt myself more. I don't know if I'm just cursed and I'm not meant to be with anyone, but I was hoping you of all people would've broken it. I'm glad you still care about me and you're trying to figure yourself out, but I know I deserve better. Yet I still want you. I've dug myself to the bottom before, and it's no fun being here, so I'll slowly bring myself back up.

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Is it bad that I feel a little bothered when people tell me I look really tiny/skinny? Ever since I moved back home, my dad cooks my meals and I have a free gym membership. My body is reverting back to the way it was before I went to college. I’m trying to look more toned and healthy, and I do eat three meals a day, but I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do when people tell me I’m “skinny/tiny”. Do y'all want me to be fat… Again? I’m pretty sure once I move out of my house I’ll gain a lot of weight again because I relied on fried food and going out to eat a lot when I was in college. Actually, I’m scared that will happen once I move out. But even now, losing all this weight, I'm happy I did. Maybe I lost too much? I'm still in my triple digits though and I def want it to stay that way. All throughout grade school, I was only in my double digits. My freshmen year of high school I went through A LOT... I don't wanna be THAT small again. I'm not sure what the happy medium is for my body. I never liked my body and I'm still trying hard to love it.

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I don't know why, but I don't want to give up.

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There's still a small glimmer of hope.

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Pokémon and Star Wars planters by PrintAworldService on Etsy

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Sailor Moon X Pokemon Crossover (Credit : @ zerbear333 on Tumblr and Deviantart) - I didn’t know how bad I needed this in my life. Its so so cute and amazing.

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I kinda miss Vegas lol

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I know I deserve better... But I know what I want.

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Print available here: http://www.deviantart.com/print/38479909/

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Last week of 23

I feel like there's a lot of things I should be looking forward to, but honestly right now I'm getting stressed. I should be excited for Vegas, but right now I'm stressed. Hotel plans aren't working out, I don't have my nights and outfits planned out... Idk. I feel like I'll be more excited once all the plans fall through. I have to apply to grad school but not really putting effort into it. Gap years are so hard because who really wants to go through the stress of college again? I love school but I love this free time I have right now. I'm making money as well as learning a lot. I'm turning 24... TWENTY FREAKIN FOUR. I feel old but I don't.. Act old I guess. I like being young, growing up sucks. Blah. Oh well, one more week until the big day.

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This was stuck in my head after the NetEase PAX After Party... Idk why lol

DEEP. DOWN. LOW.

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Cash Cash feat. Busta Rhymes, B.o.B. and Neon Hitch - Devil