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“Some people asked me for what I can't give, and for that, I am "lacking." For others, I gave more than they could handle and receive, and because of that, I am "too much." I know, in my heart, I am giving what I can, when I can, with all that I am. For that, I am enough. And somewhere, someday - someone will think the same of me.”

words by Pau Roxas

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Di na niya ako mahal katulad ng dati at ramdam ko yun araw-araw.

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Nagseselos na ako parang ang dalas na ata.

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Wala na. Tapos na ang lahat.

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Pagod na daw siya sakin. Di na nga siguro niya ako mahal. Kaya hinahayaan nalng niya ako ng ganun na lang.

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when you're around someone for so long, they become a part of you, and when they go away, you don't know how to continue your life

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Can't believe that we're done, You've been such my inspiration, But now you're gone; And i'm still craving for your attention. 😔

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Sana di nalang nangyari.

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Mahal na mahal ko talaga siya pero kung makita ko man at maramdaman na hindi na siya masaya. I'm willing to give him up. :(

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I don't know the consequences of my actions kung tama nga ba yung naging stand ko na wag na siyang sumama. Kahit talagang pinaglaban niya na gusto niya, na ipinamukha niya na gusto talaga niyang sumama na kahit anong sabihin kong kapalit wag lang siyang sumama tinanggihan niya. Masama ba ako para pigilan siya sa kung anong gusto niya? Tama ga naman, girlfriend lang ako at nasa kanya pa din ang decision sa mga gusto niyang gawin. Siguro nga kung di niya nakinig yung iyak ko, sasama siya. Ganun yun kahalaga sa kanya. Pero hindi napigilan ko, ako yung pinili tapos tinanong niya ako. "Masaya ka ba sa nangyari?" Siguro nga hindi dahil ramdam ko na hindi ka masaya na ako yung pinili mo. Siguro naramdaman ko kasi na nanghihinayang ka na hindi ka sumama. Na parang kahit sabihin mong okay lang, ramdam ko na masama ng loob jan nahindi mo sinasabi. Kita ko sa mga mata mo lalo na nung sinasabi nila sayo na "sayang di ka nakasama, sobrang saya." haysss di nalang ako umiimik ano bang dapat iangal ko pa? hindi ka na nga sumama db? pero bat hindi masaya. kasalanan ko din siguro. kasalanan ko lahat. ako na nga lang siguro ang di nakakamove on. i'm trying pero di ko pa talaga kaya.. di ko alam ang consequences ng mga nangyaring ito pero natatakot ako na dumating yung time na ito yug isusumbat mo sa akin para iwan mo na ako., na baka next time katulad ng sinabi mo noon sarili mo na ang pipiliin mo at hindi na ako.

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hayy feeling ko ang sama kong tao. :( feeling ko nahihirapan na siya sa akin dahil sa ugali ko. :( nahihiya lang ata siyang sabihin pero ewan ko ba siguro dahil sa takot ako? kaya siguro nagiging paranoid ako na baka everytime na lumabas siya baka may iba na pala siyang kasamang di ko nalalaman? or baka nakikipagkita pa din siya or nakikipag usap? hindi ko alam. alam ko nahindi dapat pero para ba akong nagisig sa katotohanan na hindi lang ako ang taong pwede nyang mahalin, na hindi lang ako yung taong pwede nyang piliing makasama. :( madami pang iba at wala akong magagawa kung dumating yung time na hindi na ako yung gugustuhing piliin niya. :(

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I can’t afford losing the one’s I love.

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I will always love you, no matter how hard the situation may seem.

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I want to give you the freedom you deserved. Hangout with your friends and be with other people that you want to be with but I’m afraid that after a long day being with them you might realize that your fine without me, that you’ll no longer needed my presence to make you happy and lastly you might forget the very reason why in the first place I gave you freedom. Love.

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Minsan natatakot ako na dumating yung panahon na masanay nalang tayong magkaaway na balewala nalang na magkaayos tayo hangga't sa parang lahat ng meron tayo ay unti-unti nalang mawala.

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“I hope we last. I hope we do. But if we don’t, this is how I want you to remember me: I want you to remember me curled up, listening to the sound of your heartbeat and tracing maps across your skin. Remember me laughing at your jokes, even the stupid ones. Remember me in hysterics for absolutely no reason and in tears because one time you made me so sad neither of us thought I’d recover. Remember me brave, that time you held my hand and I thought I was going to die; remember me scared and gentle and delicate and breakable - only for you though, only for you. Remember me happy, and all the ridiculous ways I tried to get your attention. Remember the way I was too stubborn to talk to you and how absolutely insane it drove the both of us. Remember all the firsts and how they were so delightful we went back for seconds and thirds and fourths. Remember the songs you couldn’t stop listening to and the childish dreams you allowed yourself about the future. If it’s any consolation I allowed myself to have them too. If it comes to it I don’t want you to remember the ending. Remember the beginning. Remember the first time you knew.

S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #132 (via blossomfully)

The way you felt nervous when you hold my hands. The moment you cried when you said you wanted to court me. The way we fell asleep with each other arms wishing that it will never end.

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How are we supposed to do what’s right when we don’t even know where it all went wrong?

@endlessunicornsauce a question for the soul (via endlessunicornsauce)