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Instead of cortisol and adrenaline I could really use some Marijuana and serotonin
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i wish there were more kidnap fantasy posts that were less about the sex, and more about the actual keeping of a person in my house.
don’t get me wrong, the sex is great, but half the fun is setting the rules, the schedules, etc. maybe i’m just autistic, but i find i lot of pleasure in the details.
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Im either going to die from gun violence, a hate crime or sickness. Why not my own hand.
In the words of Frau Schneider-
Who cares? So what?
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Its so bad
#the dead speak#i was feeling okay for a second#thought it was over#it is in fact not#i dont want to be here anymore#i dont want to put my art out i dont want to fucking work for anyone i dont want to do anything anymore#there is no fucking point in trying to put myself out there#the art community is disgusting there is no media literacy anymore facism is rising i font want to do this anymore
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thinking about forced intimacy with a pretty lil victim/captive. kissing them over their taped mouth, cuddles while they’re still restrained. i know you don’t love me yet baby but you will, i did everything to get you and i definitely won’t let you leave now.
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Hands have started shaking.
I wish hospitals weren't lit like a Walmart.
I tell myself my medical trauma is nothing (because compared to someone like my partner, it is) but the minute im trapped in one of these fluorescent hell boxes I loose it.
#the dead speak#i remembwr when mg moms hair was comjng out in clumps#and when she criwd and told me she was sorry for being a bad mother#because she was dying#all of the puke and piss and blood#three rhings i have come to know more well yhan i woukd like to
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Teenage character who was grown in a lab sobbing as they’re strapped down to be vivisected for the second time in their life. But not struggling or hating the scientists for this because this is not wrong. This is just a fact of life. They have tests and surgeries and chemical experiments done on them. So they lay there and wait to be sedated and dread the excruciating pain they’ll wake up in immediately afterwards.
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Scared for when the dust settles and I cant just say "let's not worry about it right now" or "there's more serious things going on than my feelings"
'Thankfully' my life is just one big never ending fucking shit show so the dust will continue flying
#the dead speak#how do I even begin to get help#my brain feels like spaghetti shrouded in fog#in the most malicious and soul sucking way possible#Im scared of myself#Im scared of how badly I want to bleed#how violent I feel towards myself#i frequently fantasize about strangling myself to death with my own hands#like a clone of myself I guess?#when it gets bwd I usually sit and think about graphically torturing it#jeez bro chillax#eat a moon pie
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Chat am I really living if I waste a quarter of my life working. Hey chat not to be the Joker but what is the fucking punchline.
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Watching your only reason for living wither away really makes you wonder about GDs sense of humor
#the dead speak#chronically ill love#sitting in a waiting room quietly#my ass is numb and my joints ache#clock keeps ticking#hours go by#the sun sets#and the sterile white walls laugh
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Anyone else feel like they are at the fraying end of a rope rn haha
#the dead speak#I want to self harm so badly its like a nauseous hunger#cut and sleep#just sleep#but tomorrow I wake up and instead go to my job I dont give a single fuck about and waste my life away instead#sometimes I think it would be more painless to kill myself and have it done with rather than continue living#which is a slow s l o w painful death#im only here for my partners#im so tired
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