ivy-paintdr2ps

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11/3/21

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no literally they're going so insane atm

got my phone taken away for 2 days and holy fucking shit the fucking porn bots r out of control

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i had my second therapy appointment today and like idk,,,

ive never done therapy or anything like it ever so it's all so new so ofc the whole thing is just weird but i feel like i just don't vibe with her?

like i low-key feel like therapy won't help and like,, very genuinely ive done p okay when ive tried to recover on my own like ik what needs to be done im just bad at relapsing

but also idk i just don't like her that much? like she hasn't done or said anything to make me feel that way it's just eh

like i also feel like id vibe better with someone younger?? idk

but I'd feel guilty telling my parents bc it would be a waste of money to switch now yk? like that's two whole sessions wasted

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being obsessed with eating and also obsessed with losing weight has made living slightly challenging

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lasagna is gross

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I sure put the eating in eating disorder

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when u start to realize how much your mental health is causing you to lose you personality <<<<<<<

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HEARTBREAKING: Poor girl has to get out of the soft warm bed even though she is so so so so comfy

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ew ew ew

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i just want to be normal again

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what if i just wasn't 😳

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cringe

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what if i broke my sobriety streak 😳

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FUCK I HAVE MY SECOND THERAPY THING TMMRW IM NOT READY AND I DONT WANT TO GO

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I'm actually the most boring bitch ever