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i want to be put in a car like a child. drive me somewhere i don't choose. love me as i am, even when i take off my socks and shoes on the way. tell me it's all okay. let me feel the turn onto my childhood street with my whole heart. i want to know the curves of the driveway. i want to be carried to bed. i want to feel the porch light behind my pretending eyelids. i want to love my dad again. im trying so hard. he makes it harder. i want to wake up to april in the morning and find no time has passed has since 2010.

but im okay that it isn't. i find myself here. she holds my hand on the way. she turns on my porch light. we carry each other now.

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Addiction is a progressive narrowing of the things that bring you pleasure. A good life is a progressive expansion of the things that bring you pleasure. Btw

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i loved so big and wide at 12 years old. i had a giant gap in between my teeth and smiled more ferociously out of spite. now i am twenty and i hastily brush on mascara before i enter a store. god how achingly sad! i scream around the parking lot for that 12-year-old. she was taken from me a long time ago anyway. i am the mourning parent of my soul, pleading with the community. and now as the year turns the corner toward my 21st, i can hear her talking again in the next aisle over. i will scream her name out until she runs to me, and we fall into a hug in front of the canned tomatoes. i never stopped looking.

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i love how delusional some articles of clothing are, like you read the tag and its like “hand wash only/tumble dry on low” son you are a cotton tshirt. youre going in the warsh and whatever happens in there is in gods hands

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- A Psalm for the Wild-Built, Becky Chambers // kagonekoshiro

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Mary Oliver, Upstream: Selected Essays

(Embroidery on paper)

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tabby two doors down

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life is so much better when u stop hyperanalysing urself and realise u can’t hate urself into being better u just have to accept ur a lil weird n fucked up slightly but it’s not that deep just live

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From Why be happy when you could be normal by Jeanette winterson

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it matters to me

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Deck the balls. Whatever

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— Ernest Hemingway, from The Complete Works; "The Old Man and the Sea,"

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ummm . to love a little cat is to see the face of god

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"the troops suffer" I literally have to live knowing i'm my father's daughter but ok

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it’s funny how the u think are the big things turn out be be kind of insignificant while the things u think are the small things that u overlook turn out to be the really big things

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