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No Control, and No Normal

I have had this disability since I grow up and unfortunately with me I begin to have seizures, medication could only control some of it at the time. Doctors couldn't figure out what causes me to seize People only know on the outside looking in. No doctor could figure out what triggers me. some people know why they seize and me...I don't know I am writing this because I want others who have this disability I know you feel embarrassed or out of control I know how it feels; I would say I feel embarrassed about this but also I realized it is a part of me...not my favorite part it sucks tired of biting my tongue and coming back from seizing I always wake up apologizing for something I can't control...well I need to just not miss my meds ever again it maintains me from seizing as much. I just want others out there if you have felt embarrassed or depressed about something like this you are not alone...I don't even know how I still feel about it and I have had them since I was 10, I am 26 now and I am still trying to except it. I hope others that have felt the same way you get stronger within time and people all around you are there for you. If not I can try to be,

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Hi THere

I am torn within my family and don’t know who I really am I don’t get to express myself without the guilt from my family sometimes I wish I could just run away from them all and start a new life but I can’t leave the ones I love in that kind of pain 

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Last day of 2020 and it has been enough for me to hope for a better world where we are is sad and locked inside with all the things that have happened I hope to God that this year will be better for everyone out there in this world.

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My mom's death is coming up it would be ten years since she died and everytime it gets sadder because I just don't cry anymore

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hi

I am alone and I need somebody to talk too

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An Odd Pair we would be (on Wattpad) https://my.w.tt/dzkEJbVCn7 Its a dream I had about Robert Pattinson and now I am just adding all this into a silly fairy tale or something of a wishful fantasy so bare with me I am still trying at this. whoever even reads this.

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This is me right now...

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I vowed to be her best friend #wtfmoment

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I was watching American Horror Story and my niece wanted my attention...#ahshotel #childern #randomness

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TRAITOR #traitorfortheday #paulfromverizon #verizonstopmotion #Paul

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Love this

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Judgement feels hurtful #BeingJudged #dontjudge

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#wearehere

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I love my damn job #JobIWouldHateToHave

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We love our markiplier #share so he can see this #markiplier #fangirls #loopforhim so he can see it!!!!

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Best boo cam ever! Compliments to my little sister!!! #boocam #scarecam #remixed