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ok. years have passed and we've had some distance, so i'm finally gonna take the leap of faith that tma fandom is finally ready to hear me on this. let's talk about tannins.

161 was the first tma episode i heard on early release, and i felt the bit where martin declines wine and cites tannins was pretty obvious in its implications. cool, got it, say no more.

imagine my surprise when i was one of maybe three people i saw read between the lines there, in a fandom famous for red stringing--a fandom that immediately caught the much less obvious thread of ignition sources in the same episode. i'll spell it out: alcohol is an issue for martin.

maybe it just felt obvious because addiction is a pet issue for me--as it is for jonny, who has said everything he writes is filtered through a lens of addiction. i don't know if that's due to his own experience or a loved one's, and i won't speculate; i also don't know if martin personally struggled with drinking or just avoids it for fear he would, but alcohol would fit what we know of his family. his dad walking out and his mum spiralling into bitter wallowing and verbal abuse? i'd bet one or both of them drank, yeah.

on a basic level martin tries to decline alcohol, and that alone should have raised eyebrows given what we know of martin and, again, a fandom that dissects everything. we already knew martin "K" blackwood lied about his personal life and his family in particular, especially pre-canon, which is when this flashback took place. i was shocked that everyone took his flimsy excuse at face value with no further questions.

and the excuse is flimsy. martin turns down wine by--nervously--exclaiming tannins are "a proven headache trigger!" which sounds like trivia from a magazine cover and not the words of someone who actually has headaches--and it hasn't come up before or since. jon, confused, points out that tea, a drink martin consumes to a degree that is memetic both in- and out-of-universe, also contains tannins, and martin squawks a panicked, "what?!"

if tannins are enough of a concern for martin that he knew they're in wine and so avoids it, why didn't he know they're in his drink of choice? why does he still drink tea at the time of canon, and why doesn't he struggle with constant headaches from consuming 'a proven headache trigger' day in and day out? why, indeed, would someone avoid wine and not tea?

when sasha insists martin drink he caves and agrees to 'just a drop'. i imagine him pouring it in a plant, which admittedly he could have done if tannins really were the issue. i will say that i, for one, would be less likely to falsely agree to something that makes me physically ill than to a private issue that i'd rather not be pressed on any further. this scene also establishes martin's birthday was an ice cream party instead of the more traditional visit to a pub.

also, this scene was in the first episode of the final season, as one of three flashbacks that could have been to any pre-canon event in the archives. prime narrative real estate. not really time one would waste on establishing the important character context that martin has... headaches. which never comes up before or after, even regarding the week he spent in spiral town. but you know what is pretty crucial character background...?

it felt like a no-brainer, and yet all i saw was h/c fluff about jon attending to martin's headaches. and i hate feeling bitter about disability representation. i want folks with chronic headaches to feel seen and have fluffy escapist fantasies. i don't want to be mad about people portraying a character with a disability. but, guys? you got the wrong disability. jonny sent a clear message, and it went over fandom's head.

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Kamarissa Elena avasi vaatekaapin ja veti kaikki vaatteensa alas sängyn päälle. Ne olivat kuluneita ja vanhanaikaisia, niillä kehtasi mennä korkeintaan navettaan ja silloinkin varovaisesti etteivät lehmät säikkyisi.

Lautapalttoo. Anna Englund. Siltala, 2022.

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if your immediate reaction to queer identity you've never heard of before or don't understand is to take it in bad faith, you are not the "good queer" that you think you are. you are not the progressive you think you are. this is behavior carried over from cisheteronormative society. you don't have to do that to other queers- queerphobic society already does that for us.

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I think people should be allowed to sleep in the same bed in a non sexual and non romantic way. I think cuddles can happen non sexually and non romantically. I think most acts of affection are non sexual and non romantic until you make it sexual or romantic (other than the obvious things like actual sex is sexual)

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See how the brain plays around

And you fall inside a hole you couldn't see

And you fall inside a hole inside a-

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A new door🚪

The full version of this, finally.

(Again this is like a year old so there’s definitely some things I would change lol)

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Mistletoe

And I wish y'all a Merry Christmas!! 💚

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Jouluilta (1841, 1922) luettu:

Kolmiosainen runoteos. Kaksi perhettä – yksinäinen torpan vanhus (Ukko-Pistoli) ja kartanon herrasväki – odottavat molemmat jouluiltana poikiaan kotiin sodasta.

Yhteiskunnallinen hierarkia läpäisee koko teoksen. Kartanonherra perheineen kuuluu ylhäissukuiseen upseeristoon, joiden moraalinen velvollisuus on huolehtia alemmistaan ja tarvittaessa elättää heidät. Pistoli on vanha sotamies, joka suhtautuu entiseen komentajaansa kunnioituksella.

Ei tämä kuitenkaan olisi Runeberg, ellei tavallisen kansan edustaja olisi jääräpäisyyteen asti ylpeä ja omanarvontuntoinen. Pistoli ei ota vastaan almuja tai sääliä.

Taustalla mylvivä konflikti on Kreikan itsenäistymissota Turkissa 1820-luvulla, minkä yhtenä osapuolena Venäjä oli. Vanha Pistoli muistelee lisäksi Suomen sodan aikaisia tapahtumia.

Turkkilaisiin ja muihin itäisiin kansoihin liittyviä uskomuksia viljellään anteliaalla kädellä. Iloluontoinen Augusta-neiti on sepittänyt orientalistisen runon, joka on klassista 1800-luvulle tyypillistä haaremiromantiikkaa. Pistolin tarinoissa ovat kaikki rasistisimmat ja raaimmat luonnehdinnat, ehkä siksi, että alaluokkainen hahmo saa olla luvan kanssa rääväsuisin. Suuri twisti on se, että Pistoli paljastaa yllättäen tulleensa kohdelluksi todella hyvin näiden muukalaisten vankina, hekin ovat ihmisiä!! Voi melkein kuvitella Runebergin myhäilevän itsekseen kun hän opettaa ennakkoluuloiselle lukijalle humanistisia periaatteita.

Varsinainen joulu on tarinassa himmeästi läsnä, mutta yksi joulufiktion klisee on jo hyvin hallussa: poissaolevien rakkaiden odottaminen. Meno on siirappisen sentimentaalista. Mikään yllätys ei ole se, että Runeberg taitaa parhaiten värikkäät ja koskettavat ihmiskohtalot.

Teoksesta on uudempikin suomennos Otto Mannisen käännöksenä; tartuin tähän Juvan tekstiin yksinomaan siksi, että se on tekijänoikeuksien raukeamisen takia helposti saatavilla. Luettavuudeltaan suomennos on jo jonkin verran vanhahtava ja vaati pientä ponnistelua; alkuperäistekstin soisi saavan samanlaisen modernin käsittelyn kuin Vänrikit.

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Born to don't wanna. Forced to gotta

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Christmas calf

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Don't know if you take submissions, but I saw this in the subway and immediately thought of this blog!

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A friend suggested that you might want to see the Meat Door, so I am sharing the Meat Door.