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If we date you're gonna have to get used to me always wanting to touch you

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Fuck parties man I just wanna drive to the lake and look up at the stars w someone I love

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@alrightaryn is it @jappomutt?😉😏

In the mood to sit on a specific boys lap and kiss him until I can’t feel my lips

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ways to stay productive in summer-

1. learn a new language-

ah, all the time in the world we all have during summer! currently, i’m trying to learn Italian, which isn’t too hard because my first language was Spanish. if you all want a different post on how i got started tell me!

2. start a bullet journal-

with no school in your schedule, you have time to make your bullet journal as complicated or as simple as you’d like. i recently bought a journal and used it as a bujo. i love it!

3. practice your handwriting-

i know many people hate their own handwriting, but how are you going to like it if you don’t practice! i’ve changed my handwriting completely this summer. if you guys want a post about it let me know.

4. make a studyblr/blog-

that’s what i did! i’ve started my studyblr, instagram, and blog (all are linked on my tumblr page ;) )

5. practice calligraphy-

i’ve learned how to do calligraphy with Crayola markers. it’s very easy once you get the hang of it. There are plenty of tutorials online.

6. clean your room-

it’s a great time to clean your room! i know when it’s the school year i never have time to be cleaning my room. you can do a deep decluttering because you probabaly haven’t in a while…

7. DO YOUR SUMMER HOMEWORK-

please for the love of god, do! your! summer! homework! if! you! have! it! i finished my summer homework a couple weeks ago, but my friends still haven’t started. i’m saving their butts by helping them with it. i know plenty of people are going to start doing it two days before school starts. please don’t be one of those people.

8.read!-

i know a lot of people don’t like to read but maybe with your summer boredom you’ll get so bored that you’ll want to read? currently, i’m reading Lord of Shadows by Cassandra Clare.

9. try to prepare for the upcoming school year-

look up your classes and research about them. it’s good to start preparing for what you’re going to learn. it helps so when you go over those subjects in class, you can excel in it ;)

10. relax-

this is summer. your free time. relax and get ready for another stressful school year <3

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My body looks like a "Sorry, we're closed" sign at the diner late at night. My body looks like the reaction you have when you see those people who look like their pets and it's lowkey weird because you don't look like your pet. My body looks like man the AC is just too damn cold in only my room and I don't know why! My body looks like it doesn't matter if there's a trans flag worn as a cape on my back or not, because people will still see a target. I already know how I'm gonna die. I guess you could say I'm suicidal because I'm so loud about being transgender sometimes my friends ask me for ear plugs. The other day my best friend told me to tone it down or I'm gonna get shot. And honestly, he's right. I'm probably gonna be another hashtag. I've been asked how I'm so proud to be trans, like people automatically see my body as a burden. To me, my body does not look like a burden, more of a difficulty. My body looks like suffocating in gym class because my binder is too tight or changing into four different shirts before school because some of them just don't sit right on my chest. My body looks like just fidgeting with my hair when it feels like I'm experiencing crippling dysphoria. Dysphoria looks like growing my nails out like my mother wanted and painting them red with blood because dysphoria looks like ripping off my own skin and painting it blue again my body looks like peeling pink paint with that blue underneath. My body looks like my friends begging me not to go to the Pulse Shooting Vigil because they're scared people see a target. My body looks like a target. My body looks like 1/12 trans people getting murdered. My body looks like yes, we experience police brutality too. My body looks like fuck the politics, I'll probably be dead by then. My body looks like it took my own mother three years to show me support. Three years to turn fists into an open palm, ready to take my hand. I love my mother and my mother loves me so I understand it will take some time for her to love my new body. It is scary when your body looks like an easy murder scene, but it's even scarier when it's your child's body, bloody on the pavement with caution tape blocking out that last "I love you." My body looks like Leelah Alcorn, my body looks like an example of hate crimes and violence. My body looks like Aydian Dowling, my body looks like representation of love and acceptance. My body looks like a mirror image of Marsha P Johnson sparking the queer revolution. So yes, I am proud to be trans. I am loud because god damnit who else is going to be if I'm not? If my body doesn't look like this, who's will?

Ryan Stalvey 

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