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Its over... for now

This was something i never thought i would have to write . After a week of thinking about it my meny , many days crying about it i decided to withdraw from my study abroad program. This was one of the hardest decisions i have ever had to make. I had to take some time to grieve the loss of the opportunity before i could go online about it . Life can give you something that is unexpected ,and sometimes no matter how many precautions you take and plans you make bad things are going to happen and there is nothing you can do about it. I know that there has to be meaning for everything  a person has to go  through in life . When there is nothing to be mad at and honestly nothing to regret about this whole experience. I can’t honestly even call this a no more like a not yet. I still have a feeling that i will be able to go to Germany. But not i the way or the timeline i was really expecting . so now that i have done everything i could do and cried every tear i could about this. It’s time for me to do the only thing i can do restart.

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Here comes trouble

It seems as if bad things started happening all at once. As soon as May came the flood gates started to open. No matter how much you try to plan something can and will always happen. Tough choices have always been made and i don’t want to lie to anyone who reads this. I have had minor troubles during this experience but nothing like this . No one can actually know why bad things happen and they lead to tough choices. I don't know how my summer is going to play out at the moment and for someone who is a big planner it can be very hard to deal with. I can’t honestly say that i regret any choice that i have made . 

Just when everything seems to be going right and all is well with the world something you can’t control happens. You roll with whatever it is that’s given to you i honestly can’t tell you what is going to be in my next blog since i still have to do a lot  of thinking . I keep thinking about the point of no return post i made ,and the huge choice will also have to make in the coming days.

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First meeting

I will not be in Germany alone . that is one of the comforting things about this whole experience. I already know one person  who will be traveling Germany with me and the others i will be getting to know along the way.As a huge introvert branching out and making friends hasn’t always been my strong suit. But i am excited to get to know them as we start to spend more time with them. I am also glad that we will have such a kind guide. I don’t think i would have been able to go if i didn’t feel comfortable with the people who i would be spending all of my time with. Something that our guide also told us was about the cultural differences between the U.S. and Germany. And she told us that we might make some mistakes and we will most likely be screamed  at in German. But that it is all apart of the experience . The good will definitely outweigh the bad. And from what our guide has planned for us my group and i are going to be in for  an amazing experience. And when i start my official vlog series this summer i hope that you will stick around and enjoy some of it with me.

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A flight at last

  It felt as if i was searching for a flight almost as soon as i committed  to going to Germany. I had no idea where to start, every sort of travel app came up and i was almost  over whelmed. i am in no way a traveler and i didn’t know what was the right way to go when it came to the hundreds of travel sights that claim to have the best seats and at the lowest prices as well. And there always seems to be one seat left and if you don’t get it then you’ve missed your chance. It was a relief that i was able to choose my flight and as soon as i paid for it .My wallet might’ve gotten a lot lighter but there was also a huge weight off of my chest . But there is also a bigger one coming it is so nerve wracking that i am only weeks away from my trip and lately i have been feeling more excited than nervous. As the days keep moving closer and the plans are more deadlines then the fantasy they were even last semester,  I am so excited that you are going on this journey with me.

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The break is over

So i took two weeks off of Spring Break, but i don’t know how much i could call it a break. From spending time with my family to getting ready for my upcoming trip to Germany. Picking the right flight is a lot harder than i thought it would ever be . Deciding between all of the flights were enough to make my head spin.  

I was glad that I had got a lot of advice from others who knew what to look for. I haven’t decided yet but as the days count down to my trip . My first official class meeting is coming up this week and I cant wait to tell you about my experience and the new friends i have met.

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Point of No return

I stared at the computer screen, I know that this point would come and my mind was in two places . I could leave now decline say it was two expensive and not have to worry about it . I tell myself i could live with the disappointment in my family’s eyes when i told them i couldn’t go. I can take the words of comfort saying that they still love me and  that i will find something else to do this summer. 

But what would i say to the girl starring back at me when i look in the mirror. No excuse i could give would make her not know the truth ,I was too scared i would’ve accepted any excuse to back out. So why did i click accept not once but twice.

I am never one hundred percent sure about what i ever want to do in my college experience. But i don’t  want to live with any type of regret when i look back on my years as a young adult , As far as i know i only have one chance at this life . I want to aim for more experiences i can look back on than regret

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passports please

When i first told my family that i wanted to go to Germany this summer ,the first thing out of their mouths we questions about my passport.

For anyone who has never been through the passport process .It can be much more complicated and expensive than a person would think it could be. I was lucky to get help from my dad and grandparents with the bill for the photo and the actual passport.

I stared by going to get my photo taken a few days in advance. There are a lot of places to get it done i chose a local chain pharmacy and the photo costed about 14 dollars. now for the actual up have different options. the card for Mexico and Canada,  the book  for any where over seas. And the book and the book and card. I went with the book only costing me 145 dollars. 

I had to full out two sheets of paperwork to bring to my passport appointment. I didn’t know i had to make one the first time i went. i also needed my actual birth certificate  and they take this so  expect it when you get your passport. The whole process took less than twenty minutes , thanks to the right planning.

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why i chose my program

I chose my program because i seemed like it was the perfect fit. When i went in to my advisers office there were three things i was looking for in the program.

 The first being affordability i knew that it would be a steep bill and i would need a few scholarships to help cover it .

the second being housing and  i didn’t want to worry about having to find a place to live or trying to find my way to an unknown address at night. I also did not want to be alone and with this program i knew i would not be. 

the finial thing being that i knew i would get the most out of this experience i knew it would be great for me .

i will be back next weekend with my experience getting a  passport. 

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i’m back

It’s been over a year since i was on and i am happy to say that i am back. The big  inspiration for  me to come back is .Coming this May i will be studying in Germany until July. I’ve never dreamed that i would be able to have an opportunity to study outside of the country and it still feels unbelievable that i am even writing this and i plan to keep you updated on the highs and  lows of the process of getting ready, tips on scholarship applications and essays . There will be a lot to get done and i hope you will enjoy joining me on this process. i will be updating every weekend , so watch for this Saturday for why i chose my program.

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it was the night before finals

well it’s here one more week packed full of stress before we are able to relax and enjoy our winter break. with two finials down and two more to prepare for i am feeling the stress. but like i had said before the longest and most stressful weeks must end.

this semester had been more changeling and more rewarding then i thought it would be and i would’ve never thought of starting a blog until now i hope you all have a happy holiday.   

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on the second week of chrismas

well we are finally at everyone's favorite time of the year. the cold air and the Christmas songs and specials and if you are or know a collage student the stress has kicked in because before any collage student celebrates Christmas we have to go through finals first.

 it can be one of the most stressful times of the year for a student but i always try to stay positive and watching Christmas movies and specials always puts me in a good mood. i hope you all have a happy holiday and best of luck on your finials. 

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what a week

hello everyone, so the past few weeks have been very interesting on November 1st  my mass communications class took a trip to two tv news stations in Topeka ks. and we also got to see a k state alumni do the channel 13 noon broadcast live. it was an incredible experience to see what it takes to make an actual news broadcast run.

but other then that my week ran pretty normally well as much as it can get for a collage student and it has also gotten be excited to see where i will go in the future.

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Happy Halloween

happy Halloween week, my past week was pretty normal as me and a few of my friends got into the holiday spirit including but not limited to painting pumpkins eating popcorn balls and drinking apple cider.and going to a haunted house i love this time off year because the weather gets cooler and it brings back good memories with me and my family my big sister birthday is on the same day as Halloween giving us much more to celebrate.  

i hope you all have a happy and safe Halloween and a great start to the holiday months.   

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an insightful week

this week i had had the chance to listen to not one but two informative lectures. one was from the curious incident of the dog and the night time. there were three different speakers one spoke about how animals bring out a person humanity, the second was about police  brutality and the third one was about the reflection of pop culture characters in society. all in some way had a tie into the book . 

The second lecture was from a women named Jana and she spoke about her business strictly social media. and its impact in the business world. she had a lot of information for us and defiantly made me think about starting a business of my own.  

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places to go

last week was something i would like to call the calm after the storm. and it proved that even the longest most stressful weeks do end. this week seemed to go by so fast. i was also told about two opportunities to be able to study abroad, one in Italy and the other in Germany. going to a new country would be an awesome experience that i hope to have .

this week i was able to listen to a lecture on global communication. and the biggest thing i was able to get of this week was the importance of culture in communication. it could matter more then the language. 

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Becky Shaw

This week for one of my classes i was asked to help with k-states production of the show Becky Shaw. From last Sunday to this Sunday my evenings were spent behind stage helping this show run smoothly. Theater is and will always be something that will be a part of my life and it is something that is demanding yet very rewarding.with that classes and my job on the year book my week has been one of my more stressful ones ,

The more i dive deeper into school the more i learn about myself and how i manage my time. i usually try to do papers but i tend to do podcast because it gets me out of my comfort zone. i hope to use it to expand my horizons as a journalist.

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what do you do when your back is against the wall?

if this week could be described in one word it would be stressful. two big projects due on the same day plus club obligations at night and to top it all off a quiz on Friday.it is enough to make anyone feel overwhelmed, but i am going to tell you how i survived my week in just three steps,

step one things are usually only half as bad as they seem, take a deep breath and evaluate what you have to do. step two prioritize what need to be done now and what do you think can wait. also do this for you clubs if it really comes down to it you might have to miss something. also take a break when you need to it wont  help anything if you are  unfocused. step three stay positive it may feel like your drowning now but there is always a light at the end of the tunnel weeks like these do not last forever.