itsallfornothingreally

[itsallfornothingreally]

No one will see this anyway..

I'm just gonna vent here soo yeah,

I realised i've fallen to deep into the rabbit hole (ch fandom), i thought this was just a harmless fandom that i could join to cure by obsessiveness with klance, buut after what i saw by people's drama, the things that happened and why. My life had been screwed over.

Here's the thing, i never really liked real life drama and i try to be away from it as far as possible but this has been awakening something in me, paranoia.

I always hated that word, because it's literally the very word that describes me the best.. and how i act about life.

I always have that nagging feelling that something is wrong, and that i have to stay away from as far as possible and... i just don't know anymore.

Besides all the point, this fandom did help me with obsessive tendencies.

But in the cost of giving me depression.

And destroying my already destroyed mental stability.

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Wow.. i should go to the phsyacatrist...

[itsallfornothingreally]

He is too pure.. #countryhumans #countryhumansindonesia https://www.instagram.com/p/B6fG15agKnw/?igshid=ie9xwh6s46mq

[itsallfornothingreally]

First introuduction to the fandom