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i gained.

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they should invent a me who doesn’t fuck up every relationship i’ve ever had

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how can you expect me to live love laugh in these conditions (post election)

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i dont know if anyone actually likes me

it doesnt feel like they do

everyone seems so close to each other

what if theyre talking about me

do they hate me

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"good morning" - wrong because if it were a good morning i wouldnt have woken up

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I was never supposed to make it this far

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Hits so hard

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if you voted for trump fucking unfollow me, i don’t want anything to do with you ignorant motherfuckers.

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i completely forgot you could put GIFS AS YOUR HEADER oh i will be having a field day with this one

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how is it fair that he did this to me and he gets to walk away unscathed, but leaving me with lifelong trauma and the most painful fucking disorder that affects every single fucking aspect of my goddamn life.

how is it fair that he can start over and get into a relationship while i can barely even keep one.

how is it fair that he can keep on living his normal everyday life while leaving me with all of this emotional hell-ish turmoil and self hatred and it’s up to ME to try to get better and heal myself.

how is any of this FUCKING FAIR

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I'm getting better! (I started sobbing uncontrollably instead of cutting myself)

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People really think I'm joking when I say my emotions get so intense that I believe the only way out is to kill myself.

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i never planned on living this long.

where do i go from here?

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I don’t have the strength to kill myself, but I don’t have the will to live either. The worst possible scenario.