isthisevenrealanymore

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Just say no, you can accommodate me. That’s one of the big reasons I left in the first place.

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Act normal for once and everything will be fine. You’re fine.

[isthisevenrealanymore]

What the fuck is wrong with me

[isthisevenrealanymore]

FINALLY got my meds back

Almost immediate improvement 2 hours after taking it

Thank god

Alsooooooo lmao unrelated but I KNEW something was happening lmao

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Bro, what did you think was gonna happen when getting with the shittiest person to ever exist? Of course they’re selfish and don’t give a fuck lmao

You can’t fix them. No one can. They need to be by themselves because all they do is cause destruction for EVERYONE around them. You’ve caused so much fucking pain for him, for so fucking long. Fuck that person.

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Jesus why is today harder than most?? 4 more hours I guess

[isthisevenrealanymore]

I’m just gonna have to make myself look so fucking hot that you can’t keep your hands off me. I’ll take that challenge. It seems to be the only way.

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Hm.

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Good for you, honestly. You’re so out of their league anyways. I hope you can grow from this. I think I’d actually go on a rampage if that happened to me. I’m glad it’s not affecting too much but JEEZ I couldn’t imagine.

[isthisevenrealanymore]

I have to say…the more I think about it the more fucked up it is. I could literally never do that to my partner. Like what the fuck

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Why do I feel like this

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Upset stomach on the second day of starting my new job is NOT what I expected today lmao

[isthisevenrealanymore]

The dark thoughts that I can never be good enough to be involved with friends are back and I don’t know how to fight it anymore. I think I’m meant to just have my partner and the family we make together :/

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Why am I a fucking idiot?

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Fuck

[isthisevenrealanymore]

Every parent themed holiday is hard for me. I hope I can overcome this at some point but I know it’s still going to be a long road ahead of me. That will be different for my kids. They’re going to have parents they are proud of!! I’m breaking that cycle.

[isthisevenrealanymore]

If I off myself I wouldn’t have to think about upsetting people anymore.