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my monthly bullet journal covers - 2024💫⏳

(all inspo is from Pinterest)

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Deku-Sensei got uninvited visitor that insists entering through UA’s teacher office door is too boring, so the window it is (it’s on the 6th floor).

(Aizawa has some complaints)

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The ACOTAR fandom is so weird because what do you mean Tamsand isn’t one of the most popular ships 🤨 Tamlin is literally on Rhysand’s mind 24/7, either this man is massively insecure, gay as fuck for Tamlin or massively insecure about the fact that Tamlin ain’t fuckin him right now and could be with someone else so he has the uncontrollable urge to tell his ex-boyfriend to kill himself. How are people not saying this is gay????

And then there’s whatever the hell is going on with the bat boys. Fucking in the same room? What you just gonna stare at each other? go one step further and just do it with each other. Stop being a coward bro 😤✋

And Azriel choking Eris, uh it’s just floor play. Don’t worry it’s cool, they have a list of dos and don’t that they made when they got married.

How can you look at Lucien ‘fire in his blood’ Vanserra and Tamlin ‘literally a big ass beast’ and go no I don’t think they have had nasty passionate sex under under a cherry blossom tree 🤓 like huh????? They’re literally roommates. Lucien lost an eye for Tamlin. Tamlin felt more betrayal over loosing Lucien than Feyre. YOUR HONOUR THEY ARE IN LOVE

Then the Valkyries…um gay too. Lesbian throuple. Come on people get creative. The girls are kissing and cuddling and having beautiful sex and you are all boring.

I have never seen a fandom go so feral for dry ass ships in my life. Literally no other fandom would ignore the plethora of gay ships.

This is your sign to stop caring about what is canon and start being fun, cool and interesting xxx

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bkdk // binary star system

our twin stars :’)

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@/juicyjuice_art on twitter won my art raffle and wanted me to draw rodydeku!

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Artists: @ pocamo  | @veltama |  @bookknowsnoage

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im not american but i consider myself a pragmatist and i am also somewhat familiar w fascism so here are my thoughts in the current electoral climate as far as i can cater them to my perception of the userbase of this website in particular:

if you live in a swing state, vote for whoever you want but do not sabotage or criticize campaigns to pressure kamala on israel (and these include campaigns such as uncommitted)

if u live in a blue or red state, vote jill stein so the green party can reach 5%

don't tell palestinians who to vote for

don't belittle genocide to convince people not to vote for trump

vote blue if you want to, but understand when you vote for the lesser evil (to you) it is still evil and you should be accountable for it. voting for the lesser evil is not harm reduction when the harm includes a genocide. this accountability includes understanding the anger against every biden admin policy, of which the foreign policy particularly has killed between ~40 to ~170 thousand people, and at least twenty thousand children.

you aren't making the correct moral choice when you vote blue, you are making a machiavellian one and you should view it as such. you have no guarantees your organizing or your conditions will survive another democrat administration either. nobody voted biden expecting him to embrace a genocide. like the current labour government, democrats are not reliable partners for even the smallest of their progressive campaign promises. it is not materialist or realist or whatever; it is base self-preservation.

i know thats not a catchy campaign slogan though, but if you're going to campaign (or as muhammed el-kurd put it, if you're going to laugh at the memes) you should do it with your eyes open

if your organizing cannot withstand the inherent and cruel contradiction of campaigning for and voting for people facilitating a genocide, if it cannot navigate this moment with humanity, thoughtfulness and understanding, and above all with the goal of preventing such an atrocity from happening again, and preventing americans from being forced to vote for genocidiares, then it is functionally no different to a trump rally. simply stating 'yes all american presidents are evil' is not sufficient, just as you know that saying 'thoughts and prayers' in response to a school shooting is not sufficient. see above for guidelines.

don't be callous or dismissive of any of this.

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How to write a thesis and defend it like a pro

A guide from a girl who didn’t believe she could do it.

happy to have you here my beloved study community and thank you for all your thoughtful wishes on my thesis defence 🤎today I’ll try to share with you all my tips & tricks on how I got there.

productivity tips:

1. start early ✍🏻

as soon as your professor announces your topic or you choose it, it is time to start before there is still not so much resistance. trust me, you’ll feel on top knowing that it’s you who did it first.

2. don’t be afraid to ask for help 🎓

do you think you’re stupid for asking? if I thought so I’d be getting my answers from tarot cards. but seriously, your mentor is the one who is supposed to be doing their job. of course try to do it in moderation, but ask questions because it is your success.

3. consistency ≠ quality 📄

you know how they talk about this annoying one all the time but really this is so important. you have to establish a clear goal, for me it was writing 3 pages per day. sometimes I didn’t feel like doing it so I wrote 2 or even one, but I showed up and tried my best with what I could write. you might write one page one day and the next one you’ll get the spark and finish the chapter.

4. set clear goals. 🙇🏻‍♀️

this one is fully connected with previous because this is 50% of your success. not having a routine with this task won’t lead you anywhere. let’s say you’re morning person so you wake up and do your best at 7 am consistently until 10 and you’re done for the day (or opposite if you’re a night owl). as James Clear says, it’s tiny changes but remarkable results.

5. make it enjoyable 🍫

you know this feeling when you finish something hard and you feel so much better. this is what they call hard work dopamine release, because you’ve worked for it.

but there’s a way how you can actually enjoy your thesis writing:

1. buy scented aesthetic seasoned candles 🕯️

2. always keep your study area clean 🫧

3. be a coffee or a tea queen/king ☕️ & 🍵

4. study beats / dark academia music (but keep it undistracting)

5. watch study tik-toks or study motivation movies like Gilmore Girls.

6. reward yourself but in moderation 💐

youtube channel recommendations:

💞 Unjaded Jade (her video: How to Write Your Dissertation)

💞 Dr Amina Yonis (she’s honestly an amazing woman who breaks down writing with AI, thesis components, resources that you can use & so much more)

💞 Merve (long study session videos with breaks + livestreams without music)

💞 ASMR Weekly (study in a Hogwarts ambience with a different time options, truly magical space)

a personal tip: watch study vlogs from people getting their ish together, it will keep you going when you will start to slack off (Yoora Jung, Phedra Dee, daiz and others)

writing tips ✍🏻

1. please cite your resources straightaway.

don’t repeat my mistakes and don’t spend time searching for what you didn’t save.

2. create a separate folder for your bachelor’s thesis resources.

this is a smart move so your documents aren’t over the place.

3. deep rewriting.

after you’ve done some reading you can come up with your own thoughts on topic that your previous paragraph is built on, that’s what they call your original work.

4. check for plagiarism and correct it.

there are many available resources on the Internet. many universities use Turnitin from UniCheck. some universities give access for personal student use, some check the work when it’s done.

before submitting it, which was really stressful for me, I used my.plag.com.ua for checking my work and I’ve got small percentage still didn’t change it up, but I do recommend it to you if you have more than 20 percent to have a positive feedback.

thesis defence day 📄

1. make a visually appealing presentation.

it is supposed to help you, not stress you out. of course you shouldn’t add all the text that you have, but simply add the most important information.

2. write your speech text in advance.

3. rehearse your performance (at least twice but don’t overdo it)

4. ask yourself questions (simply send your topic to ChatGPT and ask to write questions for your thesis). It helped me gradually because some questions were asked at the real defence.

5. when answering questions, be confident.

this is where you will prove your subject mastery but even if you don’t know the answer - don’t show it, start from afar. some people on interviews use the same technique, but they never tell the truth while their opponent is still satisfied with answer. I actually believe it works like that.

☕️🫧 remember: you’re more capable than you think. your worth isn’t based on your achievements. it is simply about trying your best with what you have. make the journey enjoyable!

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Poly+ ACOTAR Week - Day 3 Secrets (Feyre/Tamlin/Rhysand) @polyacotarweek

I'm weak for 'two enemies put aside their differences coz they love me more than they hate each other' trope and I was somewhat sad that's not where Feyre's love life went. Just think of the possibilities.

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Oh Amarantha would have HATED me, I would have said I love you to Tamlin quicker than he could explain where we even are. You're telling me I don't have to go to work anymore, I get a free house, free beautiful clothes, free ability to do whatever I want and pursue any passion, without any form of responsibility ever again.

I would be sitting at that dining table, heard him tell me, and said I love you; his mask would have just fallen off like a painting horribly attached to a wall. Amarantha would be bald from pulling her hair out.

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"Feyre shapeshifted to Illyrian form, during that time she was completely Illyrian-"

All I'm hearing is its completely canon that Tamlin could shapeshift to any person, including into female, and can *canonically* get pregnant.

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Reading Tamlin not holding back on his anger toward Feyre during the High Lord meeting has to be the best form of revenge he can do without causing another full out war. And Feyre and Rhysand deserved every bit of criticism and scathing remark against them.

I still can’t believe people defend Feyre’s actions during the meeting and against the Spring Court. Her problem was with Tamlin. Not the entire court who she previously kept insisting she wanted to help, whose lives she destroyed. She may have sworn to destroy everything Tamlin loves over actions that weren’t even his fault but punishing innocents out of anger is uncalled for.

From Tamlin’s perspective Feyre was SA and held captive by Rhysand. When she was finally home he apologized for what he did wrong and promised to be better and gave her space. He didn’t tell her about his secret about being a spy against Hyburn because he didn’t want to overwhelm her and still had some doubt that she truly was being manipulated and wanted to come back. Yet he still gave her a chance only for the woman he loved to manipulate him and destroy everyone and everything out of some form of sick revenge.

Even his best friend Lucien left him and while some of the reason’s were caused by Tamlin it was due to manipulation by Feyre. She made Tamlin believe she was having an affair with Lucien. Something I will never forgive because Lucien was innocent and was trying to help her ungrateful ass.

Everyone turned on Tamlin yet he managed to earn their trust again after being framed as an abusive partner. A mindset Feyre implanted in everyone’s minds not to mention the mind manipulations she used on Tamlin.

Feyre better thank whatever unnamed god SJM refuses to world build that Tamlin hasn’t gotten revenge against her for everything she put him and his people through and for being merciful enough to bring Rhysand back to life for her happiness. Because if Tamlin ever did decide to get revenge people would truly understand the wrath of Spring.

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The way people switched on Tamlin the moment Rhys was introduced is diabolical.

“Tamlin never really loved Feyre, it was all a trick from the start”: It is stated that Tamlin was disgusted by the idea of forcing someone to fall in love with him and considered it slavery, but ended up being so in love with her that he ultimately lets her go and choses her freedom and safety over that of his own people. Rhys confirms that Tamlin loved Feyre too much. And he loved her truly. Not because he had to. Tamlin treated Feyre with dignity when she was engaged to him. He introduced her as his lady, to be respected and cherished by all. And she really was loved by his people, too. Rhysand uses her as his lap dog to scare Hewn City and parades her as his whore.

“Tamlin never did anything for Feyre, he just used her”: He improved her and her family’s life in every aspect and offered her everything he had.

“Tamlin had sex with someone else in Calanmai”: Out of duty and responsibility because he didn’t want to force Feyre, who still wasn’t sure about her feelings, into it. All of the High Lords perform the Calanmai. Lucien says so. How convenient that this is never brought up with Rhysand. He surely does perform it as well. All the theories in here, “Lucien doesn’t know what he’s talking about/ This is a SC ritual only/ He probably just passes the duty on to someone else” are just a way for people to villainise Tam and glorify Rhys again. All of them inaccurate. The Calanmai is canonically performed by every High Lord. There’s no evidence that proves otherwise. As the son of one High Lord and the ambassador of another, Lucien would know. He is 500 years old. It’s just more convenient for SJM to never bring this up again because it raises the question of “Who was Rhysand fucking all these years?” and it makes her favourite character look bad. And once he is engaged to her, Tamlin flat out refuses to do it. Let’s be real for a second.

“Tamlin didn’t help Feyre under the mountain”: He literally could not. He was bound by a curse. He was forced to be Amarantha’s consort and a consort cannot oppose you. His powers were bound. Alis warns Feyre that Tamlin will not be able to help her. Stop acting as if he didn’t want to help her. He decapitated Amarantha the moment he got his autonomy back. Claiming that there’s no proof that Tamlin was under the influence of a spell when he literally didn’t break the curse and Amarantha’s magic didn’t allow him to use his powers is crazy. And even if he tried, he could never provide actual help. We see this when he begs Amarantha for Feyre’s life. Him showing he cares about her would only make Amarantha more jealous and vicious towards Feyre.

“Tamlin made out with Feyre instead of helping her”: He couldn’t help her run away. No one could do that. She would never make it, Amarantha would find her. In fact, Tamlin specifically could not help her in any way. He could only assure her he still wants and loves her. And she wanted that just as much. Rhys abused her physically, mentally, verbally, drugged her and much worse. And he enjoyed all of it. If he didn’t want to raise suspicions, he wouldn’t have placed a bet in her favour. Rhys is a masochist, SJM just decided to mellow him down in the next book so that we’d all like him over Tamlin.

“Tamlin ignored Feyre’s wishes and only wanted her to be his bride, he didn’t let her be High Lady”: Both Tamlin and Feyre were bad communicators going though trauma and Tam had a whole court to care for. Tamlin was unaware of how Feyre felt because she barely spoke up once. Rhys knew because he literally lived inside her head and had all the time in the world to focus his attention on her since his court suffered zero consequences during Amarantha’s reign. And Tamlin simply told her the truth: there’s no such thing as High Lady. Even her current title is given to her by Rhys, the magic of Prythian has not actually chosen her to be High Lady. The title and its power are decorative. And she said she didn’t want that anyway.

“Tamlin locks Feyre up and uses his magic to harm her”: He locks her in his humongous palace to keep her safe, after she just came back from the dead and his worst enemy is kidnapping her every month, while he runs off to protect his borders. Rhysand locks Feyre in a fucking bubble. Tamlin loses control of his magic. He doesn’t want to harm her. That’s not abuse. Abuse is intentional. Feyre and Rhysand lock Lucien and Nesta up. They lock the people of the Hewn City up in a cave. Feyre loses control of her magic and harms Lucien’s mother. Double standards I guess.

“Tamlin is a bad and conservative ruler”: Tamlin is such a beloved ruler that his sentries literally begged to die for him. Feyre had to fuck with their minds to finally turn them against him. They were his friends. He was so progressive that the lords fled his court once he became their ruler because he wouldn’t put up with their bullshit like his father did. He loved all of his people. He is against slavery. The Tithe was just tax collection. Rhysand practically rules over just one city, while ignoring Hewn City and Illyria. He treats 2/3 of his realm like shit and everyone except the residents of Velaris hates him. He collects tax, too, but we conveniently never see this. He ranks the members of his inner circle (my 1st, my 2nd etc.) and reminds them every moment that they are his slaves first and anything else second, while Tamlin treats them equally and even gives Lucien an official title by naming him Ambassador.

“Tamlin conspired with Hybern”: He was a double agent and his short lived alliance, two weeks all in all, not only didn’t harm a single soul, but ultimately saved all of Prythian as he was the only one who brought valuable information to that meeting. He dragged Beron to battle. Rhysand’s alliance with Amarantha harmed thousands and only helped save one city, Velaris.

“Tamlin is responsible for turning Nesta and Elain into Fae”: No, that was Ianthe, who got the info from Feyre. Tamlin was fooled by her, just as Feyre obviously was, or she wouldn’t have trusted her. Tamlin was disgusted by that act.

“Tamlin is less powerful than Rhysand”: Rhysand himself says that a battle between them would turn mountains to dust. Tamlin killed Rhysand’s dad, the previous High Lord of the Night Court, in one blow. He is just as powerful as Rhysand. SJM again just wants us to believe otherwise. And he is smarter, too. He was the only one not to trust Amarantha. And he was a good spy for Prythian against Hybern.

All of these takes are cold as fuck. SJM was testing the waters with ACOTAR and she made sure the main love interest, Tamlin, was insanely likeable, so that the book could be a satisfactory standalone story in case she couldn’t land a trilogy deal. She didn’t know it would be such a big hit. But once she realised she could turn this into a franchise, she had to figure out a new story to tell. She may claim otherwise, but there’s just too many plothotes to convince me. And in order to make her new main love interest seem like the best choice, she had to character assassinate the old one. There was no other way. ACOTAR Rhys was too much of an evil monster to be loved by the majority of the audience. But Tamlin was introduced to us as such a heroic and passionate man that is literally impossible to turn him into someone despised by all. Feyre’s relationship with Rhysand reads too much like cheating on Tamlin. That’s why anyone with basic analytical skills is able to realise the flaws of the narration.

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Feyre having the nerve & audacity to be upset at Tamlin & Lucien for BELIEVING HER LIE that Rhysand was still SA’ing her will FOREVER piss me off beyond reason!!

That was such a green flag that I’m convinced the delusional hoe is colour blind too.

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Hi-res version of the frostbite.studios & atouchofmagicdesigns ACOTAR dust covers! Bless them for making Lucien and Tamlin look SO FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDD!!!

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mer-Tamlin and Lulu🧜🏻‍♂️🥀