iseiis

[iseiis]

this is like screaming into the void but i still feel there's something cathartic about the fact that i kinda abandoned this acc as a consequence of a severe accident and now i'm checking back in years later while sitting down to bid on antiques for my new home :] life is so crazy. i hope everyone here is doing well too and i do miss being around such a creative community

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i love looking through my drafts nothing bad ever happens there

nothing bad ever happened to me... int he safety of my own drafts.. haha....

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“His attention is like the sun, [...] Glorious at first, but then it just—burns.”

-the other lamb (2019)

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she :(

ft. peak briseis characterization

if anyone cares........... i am (re)reading the iliad (stephen mitchell translation) and sotg + twot as well to get back ~into my groove~

(+ listening to the hour long monologue of an iliad as part of my daily affirmations)

[iseiis]

if anyone cares........... i am (re)reading the iliad (stephen mitchell translation) and sotg + twot as well to get back ~into my groove~

(+ listening to the hour long monologue of an iliad as part of my daily affirmations)

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troy, 2004

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still think it's lame that the troy movie mixed up briseis/chryseis/chryseus characters and made briseis a priestess of apollo(?!?) but didn't even have the courage to put briseis in this kind outfit #slay

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SENTENCE STARTERS FROM 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐒 𝟑.

A crow in his cage as you see, now.

But here we are, an encounter for the ages!

I cannot comprehend this myself, let alone teach it to you.

When a pupil strays from the path, the master must intrude.

Little bird, what's to be gained?

You are a vile, starved beast.

If you didn't invade, didn't pillage, whatever would you do?

You beast. You've trifled with the wrong knight

Vicious one, aren't you? I knew it all along.

You are no longer of use. You'll run free no more.

Duties we each bear, but one's duty is a solitary affair.

I'm afraid I've involved you in my affairs, over a little promise, at that.

...Oh you could at least act as if you are paying attention!

But, why... Is that all I'm worth?

No matter the victim's stature, every killing has a consequence.

Well, you look reasonably sane.

Shame on you, you insatiable wench.

Shame on you, you rotten cleric.

It wasn't me, but you still deserve an apology.

By the gods, curiosity is going to kill you kittens.

Some places are better left alone, you know.

You're still alive, and I'm here grovelling in the dirt, so to speak.

I won't ask for thanks, but I certainly deserve it.

Please, take this. Recompense for my foolish request.

You'll go mad one day, but not today. 

That's what you mad fools always say. 

There is a darkness within man, and I am afraid you will peer into it.

Fear not, your choice will bring you no scorn.

Be careful though. Few humans are privy to this knowledge.

As captain, 'tis my duty to honour knights of great accomplishment.

Thy duty is all, and thy duty lieth elsewhere.

Then tarry no longer and begone. 

Every fleeing man must be caught. Every secret must be unearthed.

Please, bear witness to our resolve...

Make the tales true, and burn this world away.

When the world rots, we set it afire.

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foreigner's god – silence of the girls – heroides 3

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DREAMS BECAME LESSONS, lessons became dreams : things happened all at once or not at all. had he done that or only dreamed it?

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Iphigenia (1977)

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sea of tranquility.

dialogue starters from sea of tranquility by emily st. john mandel.

can a house be haunted by failure?

sometimes you don’t know you’re about to throw a grenade until you’ve already pulled the pin.

i am absolutely certain there was not a single thought in my head.

i heard something. i don’t know. it seemed … supernatural.

would it help to unburden yourself?

i’ve heard stories. that is, one hears stories.

someone who works long hours can hide anything.

you look like you’ve seen a ghost.

everyone feels like a fraud sometimes.

i hope i never get used to it.

what was your first clue that you loved ____?

what’s your idea of the perfect murder?

everyone has their own idea of what constitutes a big moment.

you’re a master of deflection. you’re like some kind of deflection ninja.

it’s hard to know what we know sometimes, isn’t it?

oh, god. pretend i didn’t say that. i’m tired. i shouldn’t have.

i need to talk this through with someone i trust.

i’m fine, thanks for asking. nice to see you too.

you missed me so much you had to come home early?

i saw some things i wish i hadn’t.

i’d do it again. i wouldn’t even hesitate.

no one’s better than me at what i do.

i don’t know if we’ll see each other again.

i was reckless. tempting fate, i suppose.

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@joyuex​  sent :  some  men  are  not  built  for  adventure.  some  men  should  concern  themselves  with  gentler  things.    

 briseis  cannot  bear  to  even look  the  knight  as  he  speaks.  her  gaze  is  fixed,  and  have  not  wavered  since  she  first  stumbled  upon  the  scene,  on  the  unseemly  mass  of  fabric  and  limbs  awkwardly  collapsed  in  the  grass  between  them,  partially  obscured  by  tall  weeds.  the  garden  has  grown  unruly  in  the  years  alcimus  has  been  away  to  war,  and  they’d  meant  to  deal  with  it  since  they  both  came  back.  the  overgrowth  spares  her  the  gruesome  details  –  she’s  only  able  to  make  out  the  top  of  his  head  from  the  auburn  locks  peeking  through  the  green,  at  an  undeniable  distance  from  where  his  torso  is  hunched  over.

 she  feels  the  entire  weight  of  him  squarely  on  her  chest,  the  taste  of  his  blood  in  her  mouth  like  it’s  her  own.  it’s  a  wonder  she’s  able  to  speak,  convey  any  sort  of  accusation  or  inquiry  and  yet  the  knight  gives  her  nothing  but  insult  for  all  her  trying  –  “ he  was  gentle. ”  petulant,  a  childish  effort  to  defy  the  judgement  a  stranger  would  impose  upon  them  in  their  own  home  –  her  home  now,  as  it  were.    poor  alcimus,  she  thinks.  poor,  sweet  alcimus.  sweeter  in  death,  perhaps,  than  in  the  time  they  shared,  however  brief.    “ why?  i– ”    she  turns  her  head  to  the  side,  a  moment’s  respite  from  the  horror,  and  bites  down  on  the  words  to  prevent  them  getting  away.  “  what  have  you  done? ”

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i need to stand ankle deep in a creek about this

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anyway, this paragraph still haunts me. thanks pat!

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our flag means death starters

❝ you ever feel trapped, that you’re just treading water, waiting to drown? ❞   ❝ all the revenge, and rage, and anger…it ages you. ❞   ❝ there’s always an escape. ❞   ❝ weeks we’ve been out here with nothing to show for it. ❞   ❝ if you wanted…i could be your family. ❞   ❝ that was a close call, wasn’t it? ❞   ❝ yeah, i’ve heard of you. i’ve heard all about you. ❞   ❝ to think of the ridiculous rumor going around about you. ❞   ❝ what’s on your mind? everything good? ❞   ❝ you almost got us killed. ❞   ❝ i actually thought you were kind of mad at me, if i’m honest. ❞   ❝ no, that’s the worst thing you could do. ❞   ❝ what makes me happy…is you. ❞   ❝ do you know how hard it is to drive a sword through someone’s skull? ❞   ❝ did you hear that? we’re under attack. ❞   ❝ one day, all this will be yours. ❞   ❝ now sheath our swords and sharpen our knives. ❞   ❝ that’s not…is that true? ❞   ❝ this, whatever it is that you’ve become…is a fate worse than death. ❞   ❝ that’s funny. i haven’t heard much about you. ❞   ❝ i, um…i missed you. ❞   ❝ unhand me or bleed. ❞   ❝ chose your next words wisely. ❞   ❝ the point is to rest our bodies…as well as our minds. ❞   ❝ you’re a child with a toy. ❞   ❝ how does one…move past such a thing? ❞   ❝ until you resolve this guilt, you’ll continue to be haunted. ❞   ❝ i wouldn’t take it personal. it’s just that they don’t like you. ❞   ❝ surrender. you have no chance of escape. ❞   ❝ i’ve seen death. i’ve seen the cause of death. it changes you forever. ❞   ❝ this is who i am. can you see me now? you were always gonna realize what i am. ❞   ❝ some men are not built for adventure. some men should concern themselves with gentler things. ❞   ❝ sometime’s a quick death’s the best way to end a bad conversation. ❞   ❝ the only good leaders are the ones that hate being leaders. ❞   ❝ stand down now. you’re in over your head. ❞   ❝ here it is. the spoils of battle. ❞   ❝ whatever you’re going through right now, it’s none of my business. ❞   ❝ the best secret keepers are corpses. ❞   ❝ have you killed anyone recently? ❞   ❝ i understand what it’s like to live in disguise. ❞   ❝ you’re not a ghost, are you? ❞   ❝ you know, i actually thought you’d be dead by now. ❞   ❝ maybe, in your next life, you’ll be a little less nosey, huh? ❞   ❝ ahhh. you’re in love. ❞ ❝ i don’t fit here anymore, do i? ❞   ❝ what are you doing? someone’s going to see you. ❞   ❝ they put a price on your head, remember? ❞       ❝ when you kill, you die as well. ❞ ❝ why’re you hiding your face? ❞   ❝ looks like we’re gonna live after all. for a little while longer, at least. ❞       ❝ i didn’t know this place was haunted. ❞   ❝ it’s always the quiet ones. ❞   ❝ we just can’t seem to stop hurting each other, can we? ❞   ❝ we’re friends. friends tell each other these kind of things. ❞   ❝ i can’t believe you made me do this. ❞   ❝ turn your enemy’s worst fear against them, you’ll own them. ❞   ❝ i will not be trifled with, so don’t even think about trifling me. ❞   ❝ still a coward. pathetic. ❞   ❝ listen. i-i thought i was going to lose you. ❞   ❝ you seem to know everything about everything in the whole fucking world. ❞   ❝ here it is. high society in all its grotesque glory. ❞   ❝ i couldn’t help but notice that they got under your skin. ❞   ❝ all their blood’s going to be on your hands. ❞   ❝ what’s happening? am i dead? ❞   ❝ all i’ve been doing is thinking. and drinking. thinking and drinking. ❞   ❝ i just wasn’t built for sitting idle. ❞   ❝ i’m not a good person. ❞   ❝ you’re not a human. you’re a monster. a plague. ❞   ❝ you know what your problem is? you have no idea how to relax. ❞   ❝ sometimes, i think i…i’ve heard you crying. ❞   ❝ we don’t do it because we like it. we do it because we don’t have any other choice. ❞ ❝ it’s not that you deserve it or that you’ve earned it…lord knows you haven’t done that. ❞   ❝ some of us won’t be coming back. others may be wounded. ❞   ❝ look at that. you wear fine things well. ❞   ❝ maybe we can just…get away? start over. reset. ❞   ❝ at some point in a man’s life, he has to face the music. ❞   ❝ do you mind if i sleep in here tonight? ❞   ❝ well, this has been quite a blast, but i’m sure you’re busy with all your things. ❞   ❝ these are my people. i’ll deal with it. ❞   ❝ what’s the scariest thing you’ve ever seen? ❞   ❝ you have any idea who i am? ❞   ❝ you were not raised to kneel, or to turn the other cheek. ❞   ❝ we’re in the middle of nowhere. no one’s gonna recognize you. ❞   ❝ i thought i’d have a cooler death than this. ❞   ❝ we’re gonna have fun today, and that’s an order. ❞   ❝ you can be a real bummer sometimes, you know that? ❞   ❝ i’m gonna try and undo some of the damage from that interaction. ❞   ❝ we are to be lighthouses for each other, remember? ❞   ❝ when you cut lose, you really cut lose. ❞   ❝ this is how you die. ❞   ❝ how does it feel to be in love? ❞   ❝ uh, no. i didn’t hear anything. ❞  

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HOW DOES YOUR MUSE CARRY EMOTIONS?

ANGER.     jaw clenching,    hands balling into fists,    teeth grinding,    yelling,    going non-verbal,    stuttering speech,    rushed speech,    slow concise speech,    rambling,    quiet,    arms crossing,    shaking head,    tearing up,    animated,    expressionless,    projects,    internalises it,    vents,    withdraws,    passive aggressive,    direct,    physical outbursts,    verbal outbursts.

JOY.     easy smiles,    fighting back grins,    suppressed laughter,    loud laughter,    giggles,    chuckling,    smirks,    whole body laughs,    covers mouth when laughing / giggling,    throws head back when laughing,    slaps leg,    touches people around them when laughing,    looks down when laughing,    looks for eye contact when laughing,    sparkling eyes,    bubbly happiness,    quiet subtle happiness,    obnoxious happiness,    wants to spread joy,    quietly savours joy.

SADNESS.     crying,    bottling it up,    seeks distractions,    wallows,    meditates,    trains and processes,    avoidance,    seeks out comfort,    withdraws,    talks it out,    internalises it,    sad smiles,    depression naps,    uses alcohol,    uses drugs,    seeks out sources of joy,    fidgets with sentimental item,    sits in silence,    broods,    gets moody,    wants someone to share the misery,    tries to hide negative emotions,    nurtures others to make themselves feel better.

EMBARRASSMENT  /  SHAME.     blushing,    looking away,    rubbing at back of head,    covering face,    laughing nervously,    laughs it off,    overthinks,    lets it go,    self-deprecating humor,    deflects,    gets irritated,    smiles,    withdraws,    crossing arms over stomach,    crossing arms over chest,    hands in pockets,    shoulders sinking,    shrugs,    falling into silence until comfortable again,    talking a lot to compensate.

GUILT.     avoiding eye contact,    shoulders sinking low,    head hanging down,    crying,    chest aches,    lashes out,    internalises,    apologises,    deflects,   " communicates ",    withdraws,    grand gestures for forgiveness,    accepts fault easily,    punishes themselves,    martyrdom,    victim complex,    guilt complex,    healthy conscience,    internalises it even after forgiveness,    seeking redemption,    moves on easily,    denial,    lack of guilt / conscience,    sorry they got caught more than caused harm,    can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

FEAR  /  ANXIETY.     trembling,    crying,    sarcasm / sass to cope,    rambles,    goes silent,    gets angry,    fidgeting,    clenching jaw,    picking at nails,    chewing at lip,    pulling at clothes,    adjusting jewellery / clothing,    swallowing thickly,    eyes widening,    over-reacts,    under-reacts,    calm,    logical,    panic,    irrational,    overthinks,    carefully analyses,    talks to themselves,    breathing exercises,    flight,    fight,    withdraw,    fawn.

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