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he'll occasionally give me little reminders that he thinks about me even when we're not in class, and they might not be much, but they mean the world to me.

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brb forming unhealthy attachments to middle-aged men

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Maybe I’m just delusional but I feel like we’re slowly getting closer to each other.

He recently told me that he can talk to me about things that the others wouldn’t really understand and I then simply replied with “I know” and it just felt like such an intimate moment between us..

He’s so gentle with me sometimes, it’s so unbelievably sweet 😞

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thinking about me ruining him… thinking about him ruining me… just… thinking

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i am stuck in an eternal state of yearning in which i romanticise and fantasise about all the lovers and lives i will never experience.

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Currently waiting for summer so I can start dressing cute again and it got me thinking about this situation last year-

Last summer we had a meeting in the office with M and two of my colleagues and they were all standing by my desk so I was able to just stay in my chair. I was wearing a black mini skirt and some white sneakers and I was just casually resting one of my feet on the trash can right in front of me so my legs were pretty exposed you could say.

M was in the midst of explaining something when he turned to me and looked me up and down and I think his mind went blank for like a second because he suddenly stumbled over his words which usually doesn’t happen and he seemed like kind of shy and embarrassed about it which had never happened before!!

I swear I felt so powerful during that moment and I didn’t even say a single thing until then- I simply looked up at him while I was still sitting there and I think we both knew what the other one was thinking at that moment.

So yeah I’m currently thinking how I can recreate this situation again this summer 👍🏻

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sometimes i feel like he's frustratingly oblivious to how much i care about him, but then i look into his eyes and i'm struck with the impression that he does know, and he's deliberately trying to help me let go of him by being apathetic and blunt with me. i'm quite sure at this point that he's doing his best to discourage me early in the game so that i learn to keep my distance rather than leading me on and breaking my heart.

this isn't to say that he's always cold with me; of course he isn't. but as much as i hate his seriousness sometimes, i'm convinced that he's looking out for my future.

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Do you know what I do all day?

I’m overthinking the words you said to me and looks that you gave me.

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You know they’re important when they’re constantly in your dreams

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I was helping him out with something in the office and our hands accidentally touched for like a split second so yeah I almost freaked out right in front of him. I was too scared to look at him at that moment so I wonder what his reaction actually was or what went through his mind.

Also he told me to be careful so I don’t break off my nails which was so cute and unusual for him to say.. ♥️

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Do I really like you or do I like you because I can’t have you?

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i wish there was something i could do instead of be at home thinking of him

i just want to be somewhere i can feel him

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no one else compares to you. their attention means nothing if i don’t have yours.

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L’amant (1992) directed by Jean-Jacques Annaud

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‎إذا الشي من نصيبك عمره ما يكون لغيرك

If something is destined for you, never in a million years will it be for somebody else.

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i feel silly looking for your face constantly when i visit an ordinary place.

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Euripides, tr. by Anne Carson, Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides