irishspringsoap

[irishspringsoap]

it genuinely makes me sad and kinda upset when someone purges all their old art off the internet like. barring harmful content what if someone liked that. What if someone would have. And now nobody will ever know and it's just gone. even people's old invader zim askblogs or whatever getting deleted feels like a micro alexandria to me and that's just something I made up. I wasn't even thinking of a specific one it just stresses me out. Is this the autism I don't get why nobody else seems to freak internally abt it like I do. I see artists whose blogs I've never even looked at go like "man so glad I deleted all my old stuff it's so clean" or saying they throw out art from when they were kids I'm like. how are you not hurling. How is that not distressing that is literally your tree rings why would you do that. I want to see what's out there. people want to see it I promise someone out there likes it

...don't they??? Does everyone get quietly irrationally upset by this as me, or is this just hyperfixation/autism/some amalgam of the two. I'm not a hoarder or obsessive compulsive or anything like that so i wonder..

Anyways. reblog if you had a favorite amateur youtube animator in your childhood whose channel got nuked without a trace one day that you still think about.

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I'm like 100% sure this fic was deleted but it still lives on in my heart 😭

TDLR; I'm trying to find this fic I read ages ago (TW: Abuse, Unsympathetic Patton)

I never post anything but shit is driving me absolutely insane. I read this fic maybe a year ago and it was unfinished/discontinued but I still liked reading it. Now I can't find it (don't remember the name to use the way back machine) so I'm just gonna describe it and hope someone knows what I'm talking about.

Unsympathetic Patton but Sympathetic everyone else. Virgil was a light side but the drama between the dark/light sides was somewhat made up for show, the only person who truly disliked them was Patton.

Patton's like super manipulative and controlling and is always watching Logan, Roman, and Virgil. It gets to the point where physical punishments/abuse is involved so Virgil tries to get Patton to focus it all on just him because "One hurt side is better than three hurt sides" (only quote I remember).

It gets super bad for Virgil to the point where he doesn't even fully realize that what's happening is wrong anymore, Patton has fully convinced him that he's doing it to make him "good". He even cuts off Janus and Remus because Patton convinced him they were "bad". He's also constantly concussed and bruised with broken bones.

Logan and Roman start plotting to get help from the other sides who are completely unaware that Patton is like this. I think Roman hides a code in a poem and gives it to Remus and he and Deciet figure it out.

The fic left off with them defeating Patton and finding out that he wasn't actually Morality. I can't remember what his function actually was (maybe rage?), but he kept actual morality (the orange side) locked up in the subconscious.

At the end there's also Virgil covered in casts and fighting being treated by Emile (I think, it could've been Remy??) because Patton had taught him that he needed his injuries to stay unhealed because he was still "bad". They all end up having to restrain and sedate him when Janus and Remus walk in/he realizes they won't let him see Patton.

If anyone knows the name of this fic, please lmk! I've been looking for it for ages

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I remember subscribing to it so it had maybe last updated sometime late 21 to mid 22 🥲. I do not remember how many chapters it had, maybe 10-15ish? 🥲🥲🥲 I've accepted that I may never find it agan

TDLR; I'm trying to find this fic I read ages ago (TW: Abuse, Unsympathetic Patton)

I never post anything but shit is driving me absolutely insane. I read this fic maybe a year ago and it was unfinished/discontinued but I still liked reading it. Now I can't find it (don't remember the name to use the way back machine) so I'm just gonna describe it and hope someone knows what I'm talking about.

Unsympathetic Patton but Sympathetic everyone else. Virgil was a light side but the drama between the dark/light sides was somewhat made up for show, the only person who truly disliked them was Patton.

Patton's like super manipulative and controlling and is always watching Logan, Roman, and Virgil. It gets to the point where physical punishments/abuse is involved so Virgil tries to get Patton to focus it all on just him because "One hurt side is better than three hurt sides" (only quote I remember).

It gets super bad for Virgil to the point where he doesn't even fully realize that what's happening is wrong anymore, Patton has fully convinced him that he's doing it to make him "good". He even cuts off Janus and Remus because Patton convinced him they were "bad". He's also constantly concussed and bruised with broken bones.

Logan and Roman start plotting to get help from the other sides who are completely unaware that Patton is like this. I think Roman hides a code in a poem and gives it to Remus and he and Deciet figure it out.

The fic left off with them defeating Patton and finding out that he wasn't actually Morality. I can't remember what his function actually was (maybe rage?), but he kept actual morality (the orange side) locked up in the subconscious.

At the end there's also Virgil covered in casts and fighting being treated by Emile (I think, it could've been Remy??) because Patton had taught him that he needed his injuries to stay unhealed because he was still "bad". They all end up having to restrain and sedate him when Janus and Remus walk in/he realizes they won't let him see Patton.

If anyone knows the name of this fic, please lmk! I've been looking for it for ages

[irishspringsoap]

TDLR; I'm trying to find this fic I read ages ago (TW: Abuse, Unsympathetic Patton)

I never post anything but shit is driving me absolutely insane. I read this fic maybe a year ago and it was unfinished/discontinued but I still liked reading it. Now I can't find it (don't remember the name to use the way back machine) so I'm just gonna describe it and hope someone knows what I'm talking about.

Unsympathetic Patton but Sympathetic everyone else. Virgil was a light side but the drama between the dark/light sides was somewhat made up for show, the only person who truly disliked them was Patton.

Patton's like super manipulative and controlling and is always watching Logan, Roman, and Virgil. It gets to the point where physical punishments/abuse is involved so Virgil tries to get Patton to focus it all on just him because "One hurt side is better than three hurt sides" (only quote I remember).

It gets super bad for Virgil to the point where he doesn't even fully realize that what's happening is wrong anymore, Patton has fully convinced him that he's doing it to make him "good". He even cuts off Janus and Remus because Patton convinced him they were "bad". He's also constantly concussed and bruised with broken bones.

Logan and Roman start plotting to get help from the other sides who are completely unaware that Patton is like this. I think Roman hides a code in a poem and gives it to Remus and he and Deciet figure it out.

The fic left off with them defeating Patton and finding out that he wasn't actually Morality. I can't remember what his function actually was (maybe rage?), but he kept actual morality (the orange side) locked up in the subconscious.

At the end there's also Virgil covered in casts and fighting being treated by Emile (I think, it could've been Remy??) because Patton had taught him that he needed his injuries to stay unhealed because he was still "bad". They all end up having to restrain and sedate him when Janus and Remus walk in/he realizes they won't let him see Patton.

If anyone knows the name of this fic, please lmk! I've been looking for it for ages

[irishspringsoap]

Not yet but I'm not giving up!

TDLR; I'm trying to find this fic I read ages ago (TW: Abuse, Unsympathetic Patton)

I never post anything but shit is driving me absolutely insane. I read this fic maybe a year ago and it was unfinished/discontinued but I still liked reading it. Now I can't find it (don't remember the name to use the way back machine) so I'm just gonna describe it and hope someone knows what I'm talking about.

Unsympathetic Patton but Sympathetic everyone else. Virgil was a light side but the drama between the dark/light sides was somewhat made up for show, the only person who truly disliked them was Patton.

Patton's like super manipulative and controlling and is always watching Logan, Roman, and Virgil. It gets to the point where physical punishments/abuse is involved so Virgil tries to get Patton to focus it all on just him because "One hurt side is better than three hurt sides" (only quote I remember).

It gets super bad for Virgil to the point where he doesn't even fully realize that what's happening is wrong anymore, Patton has fully convinced him that he's doing it to make him "good". He even cuts off Janus and Remus because Patton convinced him they were "bad". He's also constantly concussed and bruised with broken bones.

Logan and Roman start plotting to get help from the other sides who are completely unaware that Patton is like this. I think Roman hides a code in a poem and gives it to Remus and he and Deciet figure it out.

The fic left off with them defeating Patton and finding out that he wasn't actually Morality. I can't remember what his function actually was (maybe rage?), but he kept actual morality (the orange side) locked up in the subconscious.

At the end there's also Virgil covered in casts and fighting being treated by Emile (I think, it could've been Remy??) because Patton had taught him that he needed his injuries to stay unhealed because he was still "bad". They all end up having to restrain and sedate him when Janus and Remus walk in/he realizes they won't let him see Patton.

If anyone knows the name of this fic, please lmk! I've been looking for it for ages

[irishspringsoap]

TDLR; I'm trying to find this fic I read ages ago (TW: Abuse, Unsympathetic Patton)

I never post anything but shit is driving me absolutely insane. I read this fic maybe a year ago and it was unfinished/discontinued but I still liked reading it. Now I can't find it (don't remember the name to use the way back machine) so I'm just gonna describe it and hope someone knows what I'm talking about.

Unsympathetic Patton but Sympathetic everyone else. Virgil was a light side but the drama between the dark/light sides was somewhat made up for show, the only person who truly disliked them was Patton.

Patton's like super manipulative and controlling and is always watching Logan, Roman, and Virgil. It gets to the point where physical punishments/abuse is involved so Virgil tries to get Patton to focus it all on just him because "One hurt side is better than three hurt sides" (only quote I remember).

It gets super bad for Virgil to the point where he doesn't even fully realize that what's happening is wrong anymore, Patton has fully convinced him that he's doing it to make him "good". He even cuts off Janus and Remus because Patton convinced him they were "bad". He's also constantly concussed and bruised with broken bones.

Logan and Roman start plotting to get help from the other sides who are completely unaware that Patton is like this. I think Roman hides a code in a poem and gives it to Remus and he and Deciet figure it out.

The fic left off with them defeating Patton and finding out that he wasn't actually Morality. I can't remember what his function actually was (maybe rage?), but he kept actual morality (the orange side) locked up in the subconscious.

At the end there's also Virgil covered in casts and fighting being treated by Emile (I think, it could've been Remy??) because Patton had taught him that he needed his injuries to stay unhealed because he was still "bad". They all end up having to restrain and sedate him when Janus and Remus walk in/he realizes they won't let him see Patton.

If anyone knows the name of this fic, please lmk! I've been looking for it for ages

[irishspringsoap]

TDLR; I'm trying to find this fic I read ages ago (TW: Abuse, Unsympathetic Patton)

I never post anything but shit is driving me absolutely insane. I read this fic maybe a year ago and it was unfinished/discontinued but I still liked reading it. Now I can't find it (don't remember the name to use the way back machine) so I'm just gonna describe it and hope someone knows what I'm talking about.

Unsympathetic Patton but Sympathetic everyone else. Virgil was a light side but the drama between the dark/light sides was somewhat made up for show, the only person who truly disliked them was Patton.

Patton's like super manipulative and controlling and is always watching Logan, Roman, and Virgil. It gets to the point where physical punishments/abuse is involved so Virgil tries to get Patton to focus it all on just him because "One hurt side is better than three hurt sides" (only quote I remember).

It gets super bad for Virgil to the point where he doesn't even fully realize that what's happening is wrong anymore, Patton has fully convinced him that he's doing it to make him "good". He even cuts off Janus and Remus because Patton convinced him they were "bad". He's also constantly concussed and bruised with broken bones.

Logan and Roman start plotting to get help from the other sides who are completely unaware that Patton is like this. I think Roman hides a code in a poem and gives it to Remus and he and Deciet figure it out.

The fic left off with them defeating Patton and finding out that he wasn't actually Morality. I can't remember what his function actually was (maybe rage?), but he kept actual morality (the orange side) locked up in the subconscious.

At the end there's also Virgil covered in casts and fighting being treated by Emile (I think, it could've been Remy??) because Patton had taught him that he needed his injuries to stay unhealed because he was still "bad". They all end up having to restrain and sedate him when Janus and Remus walk in/he realizes they won't let him see Patton.

If anyone knows the name of this fic, please lmk! I've been looking for it for ages

[irishspringsoap]

TDLR; I'm trying to find this fic I read ages ago (TW: Abuse, Unsympathetic Patton)

I never post anything but shit is driving me absolutely insane. I read this fic maybe a year ago and it was unfinished/discontinued but I still liked reading it. Now I can't find it (don't remember the name to use the way back machine) so I'm just gonna describe it and hope someone knows what I'm talking about.

Unsympathetic Patton but Sympathetic everyone else. Virgil was a light side but the drama between the dark/light sides was somewhat made up for show, the only person who truly disliked them was Patton.

Patton's like super manipulative and controlling and is always watching Logan, Roman, and Virgil. It gets to the point where physical punishments/abuse is involved so Virgil tries to get Patton to focus it all on just him because "One hurt side is better than three hurt sides" (only quote I remember).

It gets super bad for Virgil to the point where he doesn't even fully realize that what's happening is wrong anymore, Patton has fully convinced him that he's doing it to make him "good". He even cuts off Janus and Remus because Patton convinced him they were "bad". He's also constantly concussed and bruised with broken bones.

Logan and Roman start plotting to get help from the other sides who are completely unaware that Patton is like this. I think Roman hides a code in a poem and gives it to Remus and he and Deciet figure it out.

The fic left off with them defeating Patton and finding out that he wasn't actually Morality. I can't remember what his function actually was (maybe rage?), but he kept actual morality (the orange side) locked up in the subconscious.

At the end there's also Virgil covered in casts and fighting being treated by Emile (I think, it could've been Remy??) because Patton had taught him that he needed his injuries to stay unhealed because he was still "bad". They all end up having to restrain and sedate him when Janus and Remus walk in/he realizes they won't let him see Patton.

If anyone knows the name of this fic, please lmk! I've been looking for it for ages