intunewithpow

[intunewithpow]

I’ve been thinking about you, Paula.

We used to talk so much on Tumblr and Telegram.

I hope you’re okay. I miss our conversations and your energy, and I just wanted you to know you’re in my thoughts.

XoXo

Max

Thank you for reaching out to me.

I need space from social media etc. (besides this blog) I hope you are also doing well, Max.

Take care as always :)

[intunewithpow]

TBH

I know when you are being fake or not

You know how to please others on the spot

But realistically, that is not you

I know you only trust a few

You have been hurt before and are afraid to open up

Instead you lead people on and always have a backup

Afraid to move on and create a new beginning

Your whole outlook on life is now spinning

To me you are one hit wonder

Something that you shouldn’t ponder

I support what you confess and share

But you tell me to “be careful and to be aware”

You think you don’t deserve what is good for you

If you only had a damn clue..

You should forgive yourself for NOW knowing what you DIDN’T know before you learned it

That is something you need to work on, I admit

All I ask is to have your soft side

But you are hesitant with how the way you replied

It takes time to rekindle your past

I am not going to dictate what you should do like a podcast

We compliment each other but I see you are scared

So you decide to stand firm and alert, and are always prepared

Fuck what made you switch your mindset to that

You are special and someone who is influential to look up at

It takes 2 to tango so please let me in

We can forget all the nonsense in our lives and learn again how to begin

[intunewithpow]

Big Girl Issues

A woman like me who is going to do big things, cannot let small things get to her

I had everything planned out but now that you're in my world, it has all become a blur

It's a good thing, I guess?

Being in this organized mess

I have always wanted a partner who could teach or expose me to new things

A person who studies me, pays attention and knows how to play my strings

Emphasizing on the little details and its little quirks

I rather stay at home and you be my homework

Autonomous, now what?

You removed the pain from my gut

I was told that, "The more you love yourself, the more love you will attract from the universe."

Is this the answer? Something I did not rehearse

I had everything going for me

Is this a detour or how it will be?

We will see where it leads

Like a flower grown from a seed

As a big girl now, I have to make my own decisions

No one else can predict my future visions

Just so you know, every day is an adventure with you by my side

I choose you over many, that means 'worldwide'

This girl hates getting into a rut

But knowing now that you are here, you made the cut

I know we are meant for each other but don't guide me blindly

Instead with your generous heart, I whisper kindly

[intunewithpow]

I Accept You

"I talk a lot, eh?" "It's OK since I like hearing your thoughts"

It helps me figure out how to connect your dots and untie your knots

Two souls don't find each other by accident, though I can be naive

But somehow you did steal my heart, you thief

I don't want a relationship for the title; I want a best friend, a spiritual partner with a loving demeanour

They say, "On the other side, the grass is always greener"

Yes - we found each other and there are so many memories to create

We will go around town and have cute little romantic dates

We are very compatible

I know that our connection is unstoppable

I don't need to be saved by a knight; I just want to make us work out every day even when I am wrong, and you are right

I can say with great certainty that I did not know what was love until you came into my life

I always cared about who I was going to hook up with, never wanting to be someone's wife

You show me the intimacy of being understood,

You get me with all my different moods

I will hold you tight like a clutch

I want, no need, you very much

My love language is touch and quality time

I will accept you when you are at your lowest and when you are at your prime

Your naked body belongs to me since I fell for your raw soul

When I think of you sometimes, my thoughts get out of control

Need to cancel out the nightmares and channel my inner zen

I am delighted for us because we learned to smile again

This is not me just wanting to have sex with you..

It is about waking up together the next morning sharing, "I love you's"

[intunewithpow]

Addiction

I was born with an addiction, an infliction I was

Didn't understand why I was still alive, or live with a cause

Until you walked in my life and treated me fine

Unsure of this feeling, jitters going up and down my spine

I observe that you put others before you

You make people feel understood - don't you want that back too?

I do substances instead of rekindling things and using my voice

It is hard to choose which drug to do like a test that is multiple choice

I tell myself I won't fall back to my old patterns just because they're familiar

You can relate since you have been through some things that were similar

I admire how you make everyone around you feel seen - that is your superpower

You check up on me every second, minute and hour

You take in my madness and outbursts

Even when I yell and curse

Going through withdrawals is no fun

Feeling depressed/anxious/irritable are so overdone

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I need a fix

Could that be you, miss?

I'm joking but not

I don't want to lose you in my blind spot

You're the medication I have chosen instead

My thoughts of you will not get out of my head

You're the antidote that I crave

Oh Heaven, please keep you safe

I feel like I'm in ecstasy when we are two

I will overdose on it since I can't get enough of you

[intunewithpow]

Soul Searching

I have been searching for you in every person I have met

Even though I am exhausted to explain my soul to someone again, I am willing to put my heart on reset

I almost forgot what warmth was like, 'til you appeared

My troubles and issues have vanished and disappeared

I love talking nonsense with you and eating/dancing in the middle of the night

Watching horror movies while I squeeze you tight

I have fallen so hard since you make an effort to stay with me

I have overcome my insecurities and jealousy

Do you understand the violence it took me to become this gentle?

Taking substances and being in delusional relationships made me mental

But you understand when I am quiet

You don't punish me from my past, but care for me like being on a balanced diet

I want a relationship that I don't have to beg for it

Instead, wanting us to be together like a permit

I don't have to try so hard for you to hear me

You taught me again how to be carefree

Let's leave all our uncertainties aside

All the girls who want you are [access denied]

"For you, I would. Understood?"

You put me in a hella good mood

You know when you're with the right person, you barely have to try

That is why God united you and I

[intunewithpow]

We Would Be Cute Together

Pulling you closer by the hips

Licking ice-cream from your lips

Sharing hoodies and pecks

What will we put on our bucket list next?

We are musical soulmates

With exquisite tastes

I wonder if we ever overthink about each other at the same time

Usually that happens before I pass out at bedtime

You are all that I need, I don't shamefully plead

We hold hands while I drive

Cuddling in bed at a hotel with a rating of 5

Leaning your head on my shoulder

Living together as we get older

Nothing to fill our void

Don't worry, you don't make me easily annoyed

Your head resting on my thighs

We count the stars in the sky

Sharing food and secret looks

Your admiration has got me hooked

[intunewithpow]

Your Happiness Is My Happiness

You know that feeling when you open up to someone and you immediately regret it after?

Well, with you I know that we trust each other in this beautiful disaster

The universe has existed for billion of years and by chance we ended up living at the same time

Is that a coincidence? Or all apart of the climb?

You can call me when you can't sleep at night, hearing your voice is quite a delight

You are my favourite notification, let me know where is your destination

What has a man got to do for himself?

I am selfish in the way that I want you all to myself

I now know that some things have to end for better things to begin

You are a blessing, not a sin

You are a proof that God still loves me

I am thankful, I know you agree

[intunewithpow]

I'm Yours

Dream girl for every man, reality for me

You are like an abstract, wanting to hold this connection through eye contact

Mentally attracted, you make me easily distracted

My favourite vibe, the amor of my life

Please leave me a mark, not a scar

Got my heart beating as fast as a racecar

I have a playlist with the words I can't say to you

What I'm trying to say to you is that je t'aime beaucoup

My love language is to support you through it all

Got me drunk in love like a fireball

You and I are delicately interconnected

This is not what I expected

What we have is more intense than puppy love

Makes me nervous, not really, OK - kind of

One day you will hold a bouquet down the aisle

Babe, this is not a 3-month trial

Committed; I can't and will not unlove you

You make my perspective of things fresh and new

Your fondness runs through my veins

I will stickwitchu through the good and bad days

[intunewithpow]

Prisoner Of My Heart

Found the other part of my breaking heart

I don't even know where to start

I have been locked up inside, searching for the key

I am curious to know why you chose me

Days, months and years have passed by that I have been alone

Now I know how it feels to be sitting on a throne

Show me the world where I have been hiding

Out up there or deep down where you go diving

Keep close to me every single minute

I want you all to myself with no limit

Surrounded by others but felt so lost

I have made a 360° which I am content with the most

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Prisoner of my heart, what are you doing to me?

I was isolated by now I am set free

Inside, I wanted to die

But with you by my side, I am able to fly

You are close inside, let's keep it that way

I want you here with me, not stray away

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Battling a war in my head

I want to be at peace instead

I had no choice to be taken away

It is a price I have to pay

Guilts inside but now laid out

It was something I used to cry at night about

I have many regrets and things to let go

But with you, I am an exception, you told me so

You came into my life, with no warning

A criminal into prince charming

I could be that for you, if you give me a chance

The colours of my love will enhance

I am grateful that I am chained up in your hands

Not stretchy and loose like rubber bands

I will become someone better

To be your warmth like an oversized sweater

You teach me ways and I will show it back

All the empathy I used to lack

My intentions are good, please remember that

Don't walk all over me like a welcome mat

I am slowly changing, this time it will do

In this journey we explore we will be stuck together like permanent glue

You don't judge me

You are so full of glee

I would rather be caged up with you, you obviously know

We will work together through it all, I just want to see you glow

Squeezing your hand oh so tight

I rather it be concrete, not light

I daydream and think about you every night

You have removed me from my den and showed me the light

I have unlocked my burdens and now I am who I've always wanted to be

Un-cuffed me from my past decisions, I wonder if others will see

We'll make it out of this hell hole

Focusing on what is meant to be and succeeding our goal

I tallied the days for this to come true

Maybe this could be deja vu?

Thanks for saving me from this nightmare

I am currently focusing on me and what to repair

I will fix up my act

Get out of this rat trap

We will make each other better, if we really try

Just have to be honest; be a good girl and guy

I am now a survivor because of how you make me feel

What we have together is precious and real

[intunewithpow]

Mood (waves)

I want to be by your side

But my feelings go in and out like the tide

Not aware of what we had

But at some point you made me glad

You left me thinking there was no connection

But realistically I was keeping my heart under protection

I have been through a lot of losses I tend to reminisce

How did we end up like this?

Have to pick up the pace from andate to allegro

Calling you "hun" but now it is "bro"

I'm not sad or mad actually

I am delighted that you can move on easily

I have done this before, I can do it again

This is not where my story ends

It is just a wake up call to love myself more

Not depend on others like I have before

I will be stable first before I jump in again

Become a 10 out of 10

I do dream to find "the one"

I will love him for the long-run

It is about give and take

A promise we shall never break

It should not depend on one side

I will not worry too much and enjoy the ride

We will both be ready for each other

Being silly and sincere with one another

Ah, I can't wait to have that feeling again

I want to be with him until the very end

[intunewithpow]

Your Aura

Your existence is a beauty

Illusion to reality

Surrounded by your love not hate

Talking always even though it is very late

Happiness defines you

You make me want to be brand new

Comforted by your voice, even your laugh

No need to measure this feeling on a graph

All my life I have wanted this

An opportunity that I will not miss

Loneliness to feeling whole

Is this what I have been waiting for?

Yes, your smile lights up the sky

Your affection makes me naturally high

Friends into lovers

No fake conditions of whatsoever

You bring out the best in me

I am addicted to you, I am very keen

I want to make love with you until the morning

Your body I am still exploring

Every inch of you I will discover

Your touch helps me recover

All these love songs finally correlate to me

You are my honey I put in my tea

I like the thought of you calling me "hun"

Sharing our thoughts and feelings into one

Like a manic episode where I do a shopping spree

Let your love overflow towards me

I cultivate what I can get from you

The things I can imagine what we can do

My attention towards you is persistent

You have taught me how to be more consistent

I love your company

It is better than having a lot of money

Sticking to me like cologne or perfume

This attachment we have will always bloom

[intunewithpow]

Concrete Soul

Babe, you make me feel crazy inside

My love for you I will not ghost or hide

We can represent what "true love" is - I want everyone to see

Hmm, how hard can that be?

I don't question my feelings for you

I will be honest with what I say and do

I am tantalized with how you are so smooth

For once, I am not the first one to make the move

This feeling is ingrained in my brain

Your touch keeps me sane, removing all the pain

I have fallen so deep

You are someone I want to keep

Let me show you the way inside my head

We can be living proof of romantic novels everyone has read

You belong to me, I know you agree

Instead of "me" it has become "we"

You are stuck with me for now on

Every evening until the crack of dawn

[intunewithpow]

Love You Later

You came into my life with a certain degree

During the times I just want to party

Not thinking about commitment and the long run

I was at an age where girls just want to have fun

You said you want me, we would be a perfect pair

Also that you admire the smile that I wear

You could be my man of chivalry that I don't deserve

A kind and hostile individual who is quite reserved

Would you wait for me as a I change?

I sense your love towards me won't re-arrange

It seems you are the right person but wrong time

You make it obvious that you want to become mine

I am still gaining back my trust

But right now I am looking for lust

I have to settle down but part of me feels in-between

Choosing myself before others, just like the attitude of a teen

I must be considerate of how others feel

But I am confused from what I want, if I'm faking it or it is real

I have a hard time keeping someone for a long time

I am oblivious to whoever wants to keep me company all the time

I choose to have a higher self-esteem

To be aware who surrounds me and not be so mean

I know how to give love though, or too much of it

One day I will show it again, bit by bit

I must move forward since that is all I can do

Learn from my past and renew my point of view

Please wait for me until I am ready

One day we could be together going steady

I like you a lot, but probably in our future

Just have to look at the bigger picture

If it is meant to be, I accept

If not, I can't spend my whole life upset

I will leave you for now, but you will visit me in my dreams

How it would work out and us becoming a team

God's timing is all we have

Having patience towards each other I think is pretty rad

We'll try to make it through, do not fret

I still have to get to know all of you like learning the alphabet

Let's see if it's meant for us to meet again

I'm sorry since I have been with so many men

Space is valid for me at this phase

I'm still working to have a true smile on my face

Forgive me for acting this way

But I do want you, someone I know I can't replace

Stay by my side, I secretly hope

Nod your head "yes" not shake it "nope"

Time is ticking, I will hurry up the pace

You're ahead of me looking to commit which looks like the case

We'll link up one day

I will either flee or stay

Love you later baby, our time will come

Looking forward to what we can become

[intunewithpow]

Your Shawty

I am yours throughout the four seasons

For so many meaningful reasons

You walked into my life, and made space

So I would fall for you at my own pace

Something about you makes me smile

Even when I ignore you and look down at the tiles

Excuse me for being straight forward

I will not let you think that you are being cornered

All this is coming true from my dreams

It's God who united us, it redeems

It excites me when you wear a tie and suit

I can't control myself, I have to be put on mute

Thinking of so many situations in my head

Naughty to a good girl's thoughts instead

I have chosen you to be mine

While other are still waiting in line

Have to be on my tippy toes for us to kiss

I close my eyes and hopefully will not miss

I feel this connection from my head down to my toes

This will be the last, but whoever knows..

Through the highs and the lows

I will be your sidekick following wherever you go

[intunewithpow]

Your #1 Fan

I watch you play basketball

I find it hot since you are tall

A "lay-up" to start

Then "slam-dunk" into my heart

I won't call "defense" for this connection

"Travelling" around to be part of your collection

"Dribbling" quickly around the court

Your stamina is high of some sort

I am on the bleachers screaming your name

Hope there are no "fouls" in this game we play

One-on-one you try to "shoot" inside

Your score semi-brings up your ego and pride

"3 pointer" so that makes 2 points

Let me massage your tightened joints

I will always support which team you are on since you are there

Using your jersey in bed, it is my favourite to wear

I caught your eye and you blow me a kiss

Oops, you tried to shoot but it missed

Your #1 fan, I am hyped for you

Show me your tricks and moves too

I love seeing you sweat, it gets me in the mood

Confident in your ways, not the type to be rude

Running past me - up, down, left and right

I will never let you out of my sight

[intunewithpow]

Let's Settle

My ex lovers and I have a bad history

I would be the one to end its misery

Since it wasn’t a give and take situation

I didn't fully agree or partake in all its participation

Instead I just wanted to have fun

Potentially find a way for us to be done

I broke hearts due to my fulfillment 

I was selfish and gave their heart a dent

I would live rent free

Just to see the possibility

That one day we could make it 

But instead we spiralled down in a never ending pit

Until I found YOU..

I put my guard down and let you guide the way

I was blinded at first like looking up at the sun ray

You make me not want to cheat

My desire for you is burning with heat

I can’t get you out of my head

I want to show you off not just stay in bed

I dream that we can tie the knot

The is the type of relationship I was shown and taught

I want to settle down, not like before

Grateful you appeared and I only want more

Come as you are; my expectations have been met

I won’t leave you; I will be your safety net

We hit it off quickly

Not forced but chose to be together freely

Your smile makes me melt as well

I want the world to know - you are my show and tell

I finally understand what love is

I feel it when we hug and kiss

We collide; some traits different, some traits the same

You are my novocaine; you take away my pain

I’m on fire when you are by my side

Going with the flow, like a rollercoaster ride

We may not always agree all the time

Even when we pout or whine

But, I know my fondness towards you will never die

In the end, our solutions end up as a tie

No extra party or anyone to split us up

If so, my mind will violently erupt

Consciously thinking of you with whatever I do

Like in my music, I get the cue

Let’s not say goodbye but hello always

Not lost in thought, no need for google maps or waze  

I have found my life partner, how amazing is that

Someone that will admire me and my cats

I filled this blank space

Not anymore lost without a trace

This feeling I have for you won’t ever stop

I put our love on top