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Z,

Thank you for loving me in your own way as much as I love you ♡

I know I'm emotionally unstable, and you deal with the backlash, but I love how you put your fans first♡

I appreciate you for being you, and I will always love and support you

Love,

Your forever fan

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Watch as I move oceans for you

Watch as I carve paths for you

Look at how lovely my love lasts for you

For now

For Ever

Para siempre

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5 years... it took me five years to realize you declared you loved me, in your music of all things...

So, now when I listen, I just melt at the thought of how much you actually love me...

I never thought it could be this way, but I'm starting to believe that there has been more than one song that was for me and i just want to stay

"I really, really, really love you baby"

- If

N a y h o o

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Back in high school, I would just be myself and the pretty ones would kiss me.

Only the ones who saw my worth and weren't afraid to show it to the world would kiss my affectionately parched lips.

And that would inspire and move me to keep on until the next one arrived...

Always chasing the feeling of:

"better to experience it once than never at all."

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Feeling the love of healing that I needed was something so beautiful

It wasn't any type of relationship love that I recieved

It was love of gentle care and just respect and princess treatment. It was strangers helping me up off the ground. I feel like all the aimed anger from domestic trauma that I got over in a night drive holding my best friends thumb.

I felt safe.

If I never feel that again, it's fine because feeling that is a once-in-a-lifetime sort of energy...

I hope to feel it again when I'm 40

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This back pain is killing me...

I hope that I'm able to cope with it properly

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I've been depression sleeping a lot and I'm just hoping that everything ends up okays..

I am just going to do my best and trust in those who have my best interests at heart.

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Honey, the five letter word that melted my heart like butter on warm toast

Honey, the five letter word that pierces through my cochlea in pain and treachery

Honey... you said you loved me but all you have to show for it is my wounded and battered soul...

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Dear UMA,

I will never half ass anything when it comes to anything important in the medical care because having upmost data in information is key to a long bond of success and trust.

P.S. learn to not half ass and be the best you that you can be!

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Wishing for all of my friends and family's safety, wherever they may be, may they be safe🙏🏻🤍💐

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As I think of my hospital stays from the past, i think of all the good treatment i had occur to me the very first time, as well as the last (most recent) time i was admitted, i was treated with proper care.

Though my treatments in-between were not the best.

I was heavily sedated that i was nervously-scared that i would be taken advantage of while i was sleeping so i did what i could to keep myself safe. Yes, they got upset with me but it was my safety/protection before their own.

As well as when I admitted myself, the nurse at one point tried to say i did not sleep enough when i jotted down the time in which i fell asleep and woke up. They seemed upset at the fact that i kept a sleep log. That I signed myself out of the institution due to his hostile treatment towards me.

One time I was admitted and undergoing a lot of stress, they even stole the shoes i invested in myself (with a strong ankle hold) that i ended up in distress needing and calling for help. And my friend/new acquaintance assisted me in purchasing a new pair thanks to his donation.

Due to the fact that my shoes were stolen in one incident i had to find a way to travel around with my Ankle Foot Orthosis (AFOs) with woman's period pads attached underneath. If I would have fallen backwards and injured myself further the institution would have been at fault. Thankfully I did what I could in order for the facility to not undergo a serious financial matter as such.

As well as when I went to go retrieve my hospital records and they accidentally placed in my packet someone else's electronic health records would have also caused a lawsuit i went back and informed the woman at the front desk to be more cautious.

I have done so much for the community that no one sees... i had done so much to keep the medical facilities alive cause i know their importance but people need to also understand that working in the medical field you also need compassion...

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Ima tell you right now, when it comes to filing Taxes, I am going to need all the help I can get...

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Love is the only force that can turn a house into a home.

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Isn't it ironic that some of the loudest critics are often the ones with the most skeletons in their closets?

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The mask of hypocrisy may hide the face, but it can never conceal the truth in one's heart.

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When I get ghosted for 12 hours I get excited for a response so I can ghost for two days