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Friendly reminder that you're not required to publicly take sides in any geopolitical conflict you don't understand.

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Let us be real clear here Cj,

MULTIPLE PEOPLE have asked for transparency, so where you get that nobody wants that I can only assume is made entirely in your own head.

When I was still playing there were three seperate issues of transparency going on that you shut down.

People wanted the AI stuff to stay pinned until all the art was replaced. You ignored them.

People wanted roadmaps and breakdowns of where their money was going and you ignored them. I saw multiple threads asking for such.

People wanted you to be clear about rules rather than banning or deleting threads whenever you got upset. You LIED to people about it and ignored me whenever I brought it up. What was it? Last month that we spoke? I got timed out and didn't get a reason for over an hour and you said you didn't even know it happened. You continued to delete threads and warn people for feedback that you deemed an attack when it was never that whatsoever. Is it so crazy that people who paid you hundreds of dollars want to be reassured that they aren't going to just be banned on a whim for saying they dislike a feature?

You're a deluded person.

We had a long convo over DMs where the end result was that you have to back off because you're attacking people who are trying to help you. You're pointing fingers whenever someone doesnt agree and then crying on discord about how you're being bullied after all your hard work. Meanwhile someone has cancer and how dare they mention it! People react with thumbs up emojis in support of one another and they're "So wrong" for it, in your words. Fuck man, you threw the biggest hissy fit and shadow banned an artist from commission work because you didn't read their TOS. That's on YOU. You not only had a tantrum and attacked this artist's financial work, but you called them childish and unprofessional for enforcing their boundaries as well as holding their financial troubles above their head (something you have been blamed of doing in the past as well). That isn't just shitty behavior, but that's gaslighting. Rather than ask what needed to be done to get commercial use from the artist you tried to harm them financially and then keep them quiet from telling people.

You can play victim however much you want, but the only power you have is this pet site that got lucky with some good artists. Most pet site owners do this as a passion project and put their own money into it, you are not some saint for doing it. You're just the only one who constantly lords it over people's heads whenever someone calls you out for your bullshit.

I left Santae because the game isnt fun and you're a tool that was insufferable to have to tiptoe around. I keep an eye on Santae because my friends who are still part of it constantly get upset because of your idiotic actions. Every good person that was on your team is gone now because of how you treated them and others. And what did you do? You crashed out for the umpteenth time and banned them for no reason. You let your paranoia over a leaker drive you to attack people who had nothing to do with anything and then justified it by saying people are attacking you.

Yes, sure you're a person behind that keyboard, but bad people ARE actually still people and lovebombing with gifts does not make you a good person. You having marital issues doesnt mean you get a free pass to be a dick to people, to scream at them, to put them down, etc. You can surround yourself with yes men, but that isn't going to get you far in life.

Fuck Luti for snitching twice too and fuck you for using private convos off site to punish people who weren't doing anything wrong but expressing themselves. And people let you get away with so much because they don't want to rock the boat and set you off again or they dont want you to attack the wrong person in your paranoid delusions.

I don't give a fuck if you're a person because if you're going to be a shitty person, then you deserve the hell you're going through.

I told you before that I am happy to discuss things plainly and respectfully, but you do not attack my friends. I'm done with trying to be respectful. Delete the site. You said you might when we chatted. Put everyone out of their misery because Santae is bringing nothing to the world but drama that you feed into. Your writing is horrible, your worldbuilding is subpar, your features are repeats of the same god damn thing that nobody likes anymore, and you've utterly destroyed the community with your own god damn hands.

I know it's crazy to say about pet sites, but grow up and take accountability Cj. You have your whole god damn staff team brainwashed to think that any amount of disagreement or dissent is an attack so they're becoming as paranoid as you are. These people are going to be fucking useless on any other staff because you've made everything so staff vs. users. You made a game to sate your own ego and how dare users want to play something fun. Just delete your miserably unfun game that promised more than it delivered. I have yet to talk to one person who quit Santae who wasnt happier for it, even if they loved it before.

You can say with respect, but I have not once seen your speak respectfully to anyone if you werent pretending to be the victim. We only talked as long as we did because I let you whine about how bad you have it. Anytime I pushed back you tried to end the convo and I had to give in to keep you going. That's fucking insane. You and your team can talk shit about us all you want, the opinions of the deluded are hardly worth listening to. And inb4 you try to pull an uno reverse card, look at the hundreds and hundreds of users who left your site and dislike you vs your tiny team of yes men who only persist because everyone with sense already left to protect their own mental health.

Do everyone a favor and delete santae like you did with your last site and this time don't try again.

Setting the Record Straight

I’ve stayed quiet for a long time. Too long.

Every single piece of art, line of code, and moment of story has been created by real human beings who care deeply about this project and the community around it.

Let’s be absolutely clear: None of Santae’s artwork is AI-generated. Not now. Not ever.

We made the ethical choice over nine months ago to ensure our pipeline was 100% human-created, and we’ve stood by that decision ever since.

The artwork currently being falsely labeled as AI was created by LoreMonsterStudios / A.B. Feester, a contracted artist, who used and stated, “I used this because it’s faster than google” So that made sense to me. However, as Alpha went on the AI questions started, and I defended them, and would send them to AB, and every time she would say she drew it 100%. We’ve reached out to them multiple times for clarification. Nowhere in our agreement did it state that AI tools would be used. But it also didn’t state they wouldn’t be used. Back in 2019 there was not AI, I learned about AI from AB in Dec/Jan of 23/24 and at first thought it was really neat. Until I was educated how it was developed and created and how it works, from that point we changed our policy, and AB still said she drew them, so we continued to defend them. When users started showing the drawing over the inspiration image and some were almost identical, I can’t put into words how stupid I felt and how used I felt. I haven’t heard from her since then and I’ve asked multiple times to speak to her or address these claims publicly.

We decided to re-draw every asset she did for the sake of integrity and to do the best for the site as some were very similar but others were completely different. She took 80 of my characters/OCs/Comms from previous years of coming up with them and did this. I asked her at least 4 times as the shading kept changing what she was doing different, I’m no artist I just assumed she was doing better. I was working 100-hour weeks I barely was awake sometimes and the Content Manager was the one running things at this time. If the assets were created by AI and it was 100% confirmed there would be chargebacks occurring, as that is theft basically. I worked so much because I wanted to be able to pay artist what they felt was fair and until all the underpay accusations every single artist said they were fine with the pay or at least to me and the leads. The work was presented to us with process videos and visual walkthroughs. I trusted it was authentic. But I’ve worked too hard to let one bad order and me not paying attention and just going with it on autopilot ruin Santae’s name.

I do want to make it clear we will not tolerate are defamatory posts, slanderous accusations, and the continued harassment of innocent artists who had nothing to do with this situation. Artists like Whixy, ErmineLeader, Ggio, Keshi, and many others have been publicly attacked, accused of using AI, and had their hard work insulted. These are real people, doing real work, they do not deserve that, they deserve better.

Another rumor I see frequently: “They took the money and ran.”

Let’s Walk through the actual numbers.

• $106,000 was pledged through Kickstarter.

• $14,700 of that was never collected due to canceled or failed pledges.

• 12.25% went to Kickstarter and Stripe fees.

• That left roughly $91,300. After taxes (around 30% at the business rate), we were left with approximately $55,000 net. In October of 2024 we received the payout, taxes in January. However there was also 12,000$ put into the Kickstarter before it launched. Out of my own pocket to get it ready.

• Artist pay has been doubled since our Kickstarter to ensure fair compensation.

• And no I have not taken a paycheck from any of this. Not one cent. I’ve been living off my own savings and 401k since October 2023, working full-time to deliver on every promise made.

So, when people say I’m “running off with the funds,” I ask you to look at the work and look at the site. Look at the dozens of systems, NPCs, pets, minimals, festivals, events, quests, UI upgrades, and everything else already live or in progress. That work speaks louder than any rumor ever could.

So, when people say I’m “running off with the funds,” I ask you to look at the work and look at the site. Look at the dozens of systems, NPCs, pets, minimals, festivals, events, quests, UI upgrades, and everything else already live or in progress. That work speaks louder than any rumor ever could.

I’ve watched and the team has as well watched for over a year as lies spread like wildfire, driven in part by individuals with personal grudges, beginning with a former staff member who manipulated our team, disrupted communication, and ultimately tried to charge me $40,000+ in fabricated late fees off a 250$ invoice. Since their removal, we’ve seen targeted campaigns and private DMs being selectively leaked and weaponized that were sent to them and you guessed it, often out of context to of course fuel more negativity.

We’ve been told “don’t say anything,” “don’t respond,” “it will die down.”

But silence has only made it worse. So, this is us saying: we see what’s being said and we won’t let it define us anymore.

Santae is more than just a website. It’s a labor of love, built by a small but dedicated team of artists, writers, coders, and volunteers. People just like you, people who work late nights, double shifts, and weekends to keep bringing you new content all while working another job as well. People who do this, do this not because it’s easy, but because they love it. Because we believe in Santae.

What We’ve Delivered So Far

• Every single “Design a Tier” Kickstarter reward is completed — except the final npc, which is in the sketching phase.

• Pets, New Themes, Crafting, minimals, items, and avatars have been released.

• Major systems like the Trades System, Banking, Mining, Sanctuary, Resurrection Machine, Crafting Mechanic, Pet Backgrounds, along with Mystic Adventure, Leveling, Skill Trees, Tutorials, Divine Quests, and more are actively being worked on and tested.

• Multiple festivals have launched successfully.

• All of this in under one year.

We’re still in development. That’s never been hidden. But we are growing, progressing, and hitting every milestone the best we can.

We welcome feedback. We welcome criticism. We do not welcome harassment, slander, or bullying.

We are not perfect. We’ve made mistakes. But we are committed to learning, growing, and making Santae the magical, safe, welcoming space it was always meant to be.

Behind every username on our staff is a real person with a life, a story, and a heart. Just like you.

So please, if you’re reading this, take a moment to pause before sharing that next rumor or jumping to conclusions. Let’s continue making Santae the best site possible, together!

With respect,

CJ

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Happy Pride!

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Now we need an alternative to squatting over the tiniest cup to give a urine sample for drug testing.

"The Food and Drug administration has approved the U.S.'s first at-home alternative to the Pap smear, a procedure generations of women [and nonbinary and trans people with uteruses] have dreaded and often found painful.

The new device by Teal Health will offer a "much preferred experience," the company said in its announcement, and also aims to increase screening rates by making the procedure more convenient.

Traditionally, gynecologists have inserted a cold metal speculum deep into a woman's vagina to scrape cells from the cervix.

The Teal Wand — "built with empathy," the company said — uses a swab to collect a vaginal sample. Women will then mail the sample to a lab that will screen for HPV (human papillomavirus), the virus that causes nearly all cervical cancers. A growing body of research has found HPV testing to be highly accurate.

The FDA approval Friday [May 9, 2025] follows a U.S.-based study that found at-home screening was just as effective as that done in a doctor's office. The study also found women overwhelmingly preferred self–screening at home, and said they'd be more likely to stay up to date with cervical cancer screenings that way.

Every year, about 13,000 cases of cervical cancer are diagnosed, and more than 4,000 women die from the disease. Rates are down dramatically since Dr. Georgios Papanicolaou published a 1943 paper on how to use the Pap smear for screening, and it then became common.

But about a quarter of women in the U.S. are behind on such screenings, and medical experts say reducing that is key to the ultimate goal of eliminating cervical cancer. There's also a racial gap, with Black and Native American women far more likely to die from cervical cancer than white women. The HPV vaccine for teen and preteen girls, introduced in 2007, has also led to a global push to tackle the disease that way.

At-home cervical cancer screenings are already available in several other countries, including Australia and Sweden.

Teal Health says its self-testing device will be available starting next month [June 2025], in California first and then expanding. It will be by prescription, through a telehealth service, for women 25-65 years old who are "at average risk." The company says it's working with insurance companies to provide coverage."

-via NPR, May 10, 2025

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@arandomshotinthedark oh shit we can be knights together!

ATTENTION!

FEUDALISM RESTARTING IN 10 SECONDS. CLASSES WILL BE RANDOMLY ASSIGNED

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EVERYONE(!) I’m blazing this post because at this pace we might barely hit 1,000,000 signatures—or just fall short. PLEASE reblog this post, no matter where you are from, so we can reach as many EU citizens as possible and end this horrible practice!

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rb to tell prev they're being so brave right now and pat their head a little please

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Annoying people go away. I'm watching Jurassic Park and you're ruining the mood.

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I really believe there's some sort of "emperor's new clothes" phenomenon happening with Gen Z discoursers where they're too afraid to question the logic of some of the discourse being thrown at them for fear of appearing to be unwoke so they just blindly parrot it not to be excluded by their peers

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I really didnt think the Latuda was doing much, but now that it's been a bit over a week waiting on my refill I'm realizing just how loud my brain is. Like shut up. How did I exist like this before? It's like a room full of hushed whispers in my head.

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One of the many perils of engaging with Internet Discourse is that sometimes you realize after the fact that the person you were responding to is a literal child who has mistaken their first big feeling about a wildly complex adult topic for an informed opinion, at which point you have to just stare wearily into the middle distance like: ah, yes, this is my cosmic punishment for having once also been fourteen and convinced I knew everything.

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rb to tell prev they're being so brave right now and pat their head a little please

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real question,

why do proshippers love rape so much? do you guys want to rape someone irl?

why do you guys love pedophilia/grooming so much? have you ever had thoughts about doing those actions or irl minors?

why do you guys love incest so much? is this just a way for you to vent your frustration cause your sibling(s) /step sibling(s) rejected you for your literal illegal behavior?

why do you guys love all these crimes so much? why do you love it when someone calls sexual and predatory abuse attractive as if it hasn't traumatized billions of people word wide?

this is like a genuine question I'm being deadass

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"I don't want to read this" is totally valid.

"This is disgusting to me" is totally valid.

"I don't want to read this because it is disgusting to me" is totally valid.

"I don't think anyone should be allowed to read or write this because it is disgusting to me" is authoritarian.

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I am going to admit something that might have people looking at me differently.

TW: abuse, suicide, rape, attempted SA & attempted homicide

When I was 14 my dad died. My mom had been dead for 7 years already so my little brother and i were sent to my grandparents to live. I love my grandma. She isnt perfect, but i love her. My grandpa was a monster.

Picture Muriel and Eustace from Courage and that was my grandparents. My grandpa was horrendously abusive. Absolutely the worst. I was his favorite target. He would drunkenly say over and over how I was the bad child, how I was lazy and worthless. I wasn't. I was a good kid, but bad people see the world as bad as they can to justify their actions.

I was a very scared child. I listened to my grandpa rape my grandma. He once tried to touch me and made inapropriate comments about me and my friends. I put up with it, because I was afraid if I told someone they would take my brother away from me, which was something my other grandparents threatened to do after my dad died.

That house was my Hell. It was purgatory. I just kept saying I had to wait until my brother graduated and I would get us all out. Unfortunately my brother had a long way to go.

One day, my brother's 13th birthday, we had some relatives over and my grandma made all my brothers favorites. We were allowed to play xbox in the living room while my grandparents, aunt, and uncle were in the kitchen. I got up to go get my brother his food while he was playing his game that we had just walked in a blizzard to get. My grandpa took that opportunity to belittle me. I was a loser, i was worthless, crazy how I was doing something because i was so lazy. It broke me and i ended up going to bed early.

My brother, apparently, yelled at my grandpa.

My grandpa spent the rest of the night calling my brother a bastard.

I woke up around 1 am and heard my grandpa calling my brother names. He was drunk and just loudly shouting it in a stupor. My uncle was the only one still up listening. They tried to stop him but nobody could get him to stop so they had long just put up with it. My brother had texted me saying he wanted to die.

Now, I had a metal bat. I used it to scare off my brothers bullies. It was heavy and was absolutely a weapon more than a recreational tool. It was one thing to be put down myself, but I didnt tolerate anyone going after my brother. Something in me snapped. I picked up the bat and left my room.

I stood in the dark listening to my grandpa carry on, letting myself get angry. I didnt need to emotion to do it, i had already decided I didnt care anymore what happened. I needed the anger for the power to try to do it in one go so he couldnt fight back and overpower me. I had thought about it. I had thought it all the way through. Prison was better than letting that man keep hurting us.

So i listened. I got madder and madder.

But just before I could do it my uncle came around the corner. He saw me. He saw the bat. He hugged me hard and told me that my grandpa wasnt worth it. He said he loved me and he was sorry he couldnt protect me. He hugged me until all that adrenaline I was using to power up came out in quiet sobs. I didnt feel regret, i was mourning the person I used to be and the knowledge we would just continue to live in hell.

I went back to bed.

My grandpa ruined us all in different ways and often I wish I had done it

So in this hypothetical where I am to picture strangling the person i hate... i can see it. It feels good. It feels right.

But it isnt right. Everyone deserves to get what they put out in the world. I fully believe that we should fight to have an ideal system and that every villain gets their fair trial. My grandpa didnt get that, but nobody went to his funeral or mourned him. They cremated him and threw him away. Just what he deserved. That's good enough retribution for me even if sometimes I still wish I had just done it because of the things he ruined afterwards.

I could kill a man out of spite, I've gone to therapy and been up front about it.

I still voted No, that no one person should have that power.

You shouldnt need the fear of personal guilt or turning into a monster to do the right thing. No one person has perfect judgement or can see the world as it is and not how it disappoints them. The fact i know i can kill a person in person disqualifies me from even being considered to use the death note correctly. Power makes victims into monsters. And when the monsters devour the monsters, they'll eventually make more victims. It never stops.

The brave thing to do would have been to tell someone. Being safe and apart is better than being in danger together. Killing was an indulgence to my anger and fear.

That Tumblr death note poll having over half of voters say they would use it to purge their political enemies puts so much of this site into context. Almost nobody here is progressive you're all just aspiring inquisitors and tchekists looking to purge the world of the unholy through fire and sword. The only guiding moral principles on this site are that might makes right and that the strong should do as they please while the weak suffer what they must. It genuinely contextualizes all of the awful behaviors that are accepted as normal here.

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Never thought I'd had to go out of my way to block scientology to make tumblr stop serving me scientology ads...