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I’ve been having dreams of a black hole forming near the earth enough that it’s starting to suck it in to the abyss and witnessing it getting destroyed with everybody getting all torn apart until it got to me too. My torso seemed to hurt as well when I’d finally wake up from the dream. It all started when I saw @sixpenceee post a week ago regarding a simulation of what it would look like falling in a black hole. Though, I think it was pretty cool.

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The rain never stops since yesterday afternoon. Now, it seems like we live in a swamp.

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Amenenem.

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Fourth panel would most likely be, now send nudes.

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Thank Geezus for the graces.

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Jeff Buckley handwritten words/lyrics

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Take baby steps. Ask if Mac Demarco is already dead, inside.

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Not yet?

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I was checking out Mac Demarco’s music and listened to this song called Still Together. Actually, I just found the guy today, when Youtube recommended me That Poppy’s version of My Kind Of Woman and I’m glad I listened to it ‘coz it made me all sentimental and shit, shedding a lil tear from my left eye. Anyway, as I was scrolling down the comments section, this guy (in which I’m not gonna mention the name due to confidentiality :D) made this, I don’t know how to describe it really. It just, directly points out to how I currently am at this very moment, and well, some moments before that too. I tend to get pathetic sometimes. It’s rather very creepy, in a good way. Makes me wonder if that’s how he tries to connect to me, and here I am, still desperately yearning of a dream visitation for a closure, a last conversation which we never had. I’m lovin’ Mac Demarco by the way.

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I think Meg White is like me in some sense. I mean like, she’s obviously more successful and I’m a nobody, but she’s very amateur in the craft she was known on The White Stripes. At the whole course of the band, she did improve, but her drumming seemed to just remain how it was. And how Jack White talks about interesting stuffs, and she just stares, still but in a state of panic deep within. How she say it directly to the point, to somewhat avoid talking so much. People may think she’s dull or overly shy, but it’s not really totally like that always.

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Trembling at the thought of feeling. Wide awake and keeping distance. Nothing seems to penetrate her. cause She's scared as hell.

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I didn’t mean to hurt you pretty baby.

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Some things I learned from previous years:

That I still need to be a little less impatient, again. That strengthen my self-discipline seemed desperate so far. That being selfish often got me lonelier, so I need to struggle more in order to reduce it to at least 30%. That I need to just zip up my mouth when I’m mad, especially towards those I love. That romance is really more pain than it makes me feel good. But it’s really all I long for. That a soul mate is not necessarily someone I’m gonna end up with, but someone who’ll imprint in my whole life. That grief never leaves. That there’s this specific little voice deep within me, which keeps on feeding me something I am not and will not be. That it really is easy for guys to cheat when in the workplace. That my death is getting nearer by the day. That I am getting a bit too emotional over sentimental stuffs, that sometimes it makes me hurt easily over petty shits. That I cannot pretend to like when I’m trying to be a sociable person. That it’s okay to be afraid but still do what has to be done anyway. That hate can be comforting sometimes. That I can be a pretty good liar.

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*2017

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I was looking for the cunnilingus scene in Anomalisa and boy I was glad I could find it in .gif! I think that was just the most remarkable in the whole movie, although, I loved Micheal Stone’s speech in his conference. Overall, it was an interesting animated movie. A bit slow and the plot is really not that special, the ending was also quite disappointing, but it felt real as it can be for me. So yeah, it was worth a watch.

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OH! THIS IS HOW I BREATHE.

fuck all of this next year positivity i am going to grab 2017 by the throat and curb stomp them if they decide to fuck with me because i have had It™

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Pathetic word alert that perfectly describes my soul.

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