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independantlove-blog · 8 years ago

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I never made u pick

Maybe I should have torn your dad apart like he does me but I never knew how bad he was til your dad knew he couldn't support himself without you as an extra income. Maybe I should have told u all the true stories to what your dad has done but none of that is really your business, your dad was mad at me because when I work I do pretty good your dad just didn't wanna contribute and I got tired of your grandparents coddling your dad. I know deep down when I get things in a row your gonna come back to where you know your truely loved.

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independantlove-blog · 8 years ago

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Saturdays Gone

I remember when me and you would go everywhere, circus, all sorts of things. One that sticks out in my mind is when u were about 2 and your father dropped us off at the CN centre and we waited and waited and waited til I walked with your tired body and carried you to the end of town to the closest pay phone to call grams, your dad went and got High and left his family.

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independantlove-blog · 8 years ago

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The ring

Your father never loved me he loved the fact someone was doing the things for him he had no reason not to do himself. I know he makes you do more then your share now I’m gone and that makes me so angry . I didn’t have you to look after us. I had you because I thought maybe this little person will love me unconditionally, some I could love unconditionally someone I have LOVED unconditionally. Your father loves me so much on our wedding day he had to get high before doing it, hide it and then make me feel guilty. I thought getting married would make things right. I was yet again mistaken. When Max actually made a real proposal, with a real ring I can actually say this man loves me. When it was exactly what I would pick, I saw he listened. And when I look at him I know he loves me. I look at myself in the mirror and I think why???

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independantlove-blog · 8 years ago

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Saturday visit request.... Denied

Your fathers changed his number and so has the rest of the family. It worries me what they are hiding, it worries me you will blame me. This isn't what I wanted and it hurts me to think you don't know and that you will blame me for not showing up thinking I'm high or drunk. I don't have life like that your father lies through his teeth and now knows there's nothing he can do to stop me from trying to see you. Your fathers making it easy to prove he's hiding something but what ? How bad? What's happening to you? Who's taking care of you ? It worries me because your father gets interested in whoever shows a little bit of interest in him. Your father won't take his time to find someone right for you and him, instead your overcome crackheads, thieves, whores, and pill poppers. With me it took me a year of dating Jody to introduce him to you, Jody and you were inseparable with rob 8 months you knew that wouldn't last and after what happened between us I wish you could tell me what he said to u and now the last man I will ever bring into your life and a man who will treat u like his own I know this because he's always talking about the things he wants to do with you and the life he wants to provide for you and I never asked him to he knows without you there's no me because u are and always will be my only true love. This is why I'm fighting because I have the strength to breath and fight now.

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independantlove-blog · 8 years ago

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I'm screaming out I love you

I'm sitting here alone, my supportive partner is out updating his courses in order to look after me and my son soon hopefully. I sit here and find my life so easy so stress free something I'm still adjusting to, something I've never had the sense of living. So these are the feelings I've hid for so long, these are the feelings I've meant to have but could never feel simply because I've never had the time. My life has become easy and I am overwhelmed by the love Max gives me, he buys me expensive gifts that really arnt necessary but he feels I deserve them. I've never felt I deserve anything but emptiness and guilt Elis left me to feel. He told me I was weak, I had gotten soft told me I didn't have it in me anymore to survive the way I wanted. The way I wanted was what anyone could have wanted... bills paid, food in the cupboards, and a husband that works with me for the things in life. Instead Eli gave me the life of working 2-3 min wage jobs, never getting to see my son, supporting him as well while he sat at home watching and showing my son porn on the computer giving my son playboys at 7 and coming home to a different argument every night with dinner left to cook and a house left to clean, laundry to because of 3 sets a clothes a day to be able to work again the next, and all along trying to make time to see my son. I left to make an easier life to be able to provide my son with the life he deserves to be able to be a child now I'm struggling to get you back to enjoy whats left of it. My life perfect almost... I don't yell anymore because I have no reason to, me and max work together and he provides me with the opportunity to go back to school for that career I know I'll be good at. My reality show is going to show me picking up the parts to the disaster Eli, Rob, my biggest hater and the backstabbing bitch have tried to do to knock me and I'm gonna show you Seth first hand the troubles and the pain and the heartache and everything I'm doing to show u that I'm screaming how much I love you !

#mybabyalways #forevermybaby #forevermyson #loveyouforever #alwayslearning #cantwait #cantquit #fallowyourdreams

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independantlove-blog · 8 years ago

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My hopeful visit

I was so ecstatic when you agree to meet me next Saturday. I'm disappointed your father called me back and tried to get me to threaten him, only to force another year away from you. I'm thankful my strength and excitement to see you, overcame his power to take it all away. Years ago he told me if I left I left alone and not with you, if I did he would kill me . As years went by, I stayed and took the emotion, mental, spiritual abuse, I only left because your father agreed you would come into my care after I found a place, so I agreed. Only to be disappointed once again, this time only being his sneakest yet.

#realstory #real life

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independantlove-blog · 8 years ago

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