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Today is the day! My shop finally opened.

I didn't receive any orders yet (as I predicted) and I probably won't for a few days. My family will buy some things from me to help my shop algorythm and stats flourish, but I hope to get at least 1 purchase from a random person this week. But well, if I don't get any what can I do :'3 I literally started from zero this business so I don't really have a steady following base.

Apart from that, I think I'll indeed start a YouTube channel to upload blogs about my shop. I'm kinda embarrased about showing my face and voice but it'll probably be a matter of getting used to it.

My hand started hurting two days ago and I've been resting it since yesterday. 0 drawing, almost 0 playing videogames, and 0 grabbing the phone horizontally. It's a pain in the ass because today I had to took my products pictures, and I don't really like the results. I'll probably redo them again tomorrow :(.

I'm very nervous but excited about the path that is in front on me. I hope I'll do well someday!

Here I leave the drawing of my one of my OCs, Ena, which is also a print for my shop <3

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It's just one week left until the first official release on my shop. I'm excited, but also very nervous because all of this is very new.

This past week I've been uploading videos on TikTok everyday. It's hard to get used to it, but my nervousness about it has been slowly decreasing everyday. Now I just upload them fine and without any worries. The first days I barely received any likes (which are still appreciated, because wow, people are seeing my stuff and liking it!) but the last three videos have been receiving around 20-25 likes. I know it's low as hell by TikTok standard, but for me it's a lot! I've also received a few sweet comments, as well as followers. I already love these people with my whole heart.

Last week I was also feeling kinda nervous and with low self-esteem because of how the products I have at home look. I drawed them back on summer vacation, and ordered them on september. From september to today, my artstyle has improved A LOT. Like, a lot a lot. But I obviously can't change the products I already ordered and paid for. However, when I unpacked them and took a look at them, they are very cute in person! They look colorful, cute and of good quality. It made me feel more confident on myself.

Today I also finished drawing a print I didn't think I would finish for my shop release. I've been planing future products, and just working on everything. My mom and I also ordered the envelopes and the address stickers (don't know how they're called on english) and they're at home waiting for the big day. I know I will probably start by only receiving orders from my family, but I'm grateful for that. Everyone starts from the lowest, right?

I was also thinking about making a YouTube channel. It would of course be on spanish, because it is the language I speak on a daily basis. I follow a lot of people from the United States that upload blogs about their shops and conventions, and I honestly would love to do that with my brand. I don't know how many hispanic people would be interested in this content, but it would be fun to do as well as another way to promote the shop. I will see about that :0

These past days I also redrawed one of my OC's, and I'm happy with the result. She looks so cute! Her name is Tako. Her design is obviously very colorful, maybe too much for some people, but I love it ^^

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I'm very bad at social media and I highly doubt this account will reach anyone at all, but I still want to use it as an online diary to have all my journey registered and immortalized (at least as much as something on the internet can be).

I'm an autistic wreck who had a very clear goal on life, but due to my disability it is out of reach for now and probably forever. The only thing that motivates me to work and live is the stuff I love, and art (drawing, writing and videogames) is a big part of that. However, I carry lot of shame inside me, and I have an insanely difficult time sharing my thoughts, creations and ambitions with both people I know and randoms on the internet. I feel dumb and stupid for having dreams, and useless and small for sharing my inner world to others.

This feeling has been pestering me for 3 years now, but this last year takes the cake. I won't enter into details of my private life, but I kinda became a "neet" (no work/no study) during 1 year. I was practicing my drawing skills, but yeah, technically I wasn't working nor going to uni.

I had this silly idea of opening an online shop about anime / videogames / nerdy merchandising and going to anime conventions. I've been fighting a lot with my shame, but it's finally going to happen in 2 weeks!

This is very scary but I'm also excited. Not having expectations over this blog also gives me relief about it being a flop with 0 views or something very big in an unexpected future, because I'm just being myself in this little corner and that's fine. No expectations = no worries = no fears = no shame.

Yesterday I overcame my fear of publishing the first TikTok video on my shop's account. Today I'll overcome the fear of starting my journal here. Hopefully in the future I can look back and see how much progress I made!

Here is a drawing of my beloved daughters💗