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Day 4

Day 4: 400 cals

5pm:

Starbucks coffee (300 cals)

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Day 3

Day 3: 300 cals

12pm:

Soup (120 cals)

Jell-o (20 cals)

1:30pm:

Tea (10 cals)

11pm:

Pasta w/ meatballs & 1 slice of whole wheat bread (450 cals)

Subtotal: 600 cals

Burned: 289

Total: 311 cals

[in-all-my-dre4ms-i-dr0wn]

When you’re hungry

Clean your room (wipe the floors, wipe the dust, vacuum, clean the Windows)

Reorganize/clean your desk, closet.

Shave/wax your legs/armpits and tweeze your eyebrows.

Put on a face mask

Do a pedicure or manicure

Fill your bathtub and just take a long bath

Make yourself an aesthetic notebook (to motivate yourself to lose weight or something like that)

Update your Tumblr(make a new header, change the colour…)

Draw or paint something

If you play an instrument, play all the songs you know 3 times

Draw something on your body with paint or pens

Drink 3 teas

Drink 3 cups of hot water

Drink 1 liter of water

Workout

Go for a walk

Go to the library and take a good book for reading or read there if you can do that

Read 50 pages of some book

Watch 5 youtube videos

Listen to some music (I recommend some lofi music, my favourite is lophee)

Watch some k-pop (all girls there are really skinny it will motivate you)

Watch some vine/meme compilations

Watch some fat acceptance cringe or something like that

Play with some make-up

You still hungry?

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Reblog if you're not homophobic

Every url that reblog’s will be written in a book and shown to my homophobic dad. 

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Reblog if you are Pro-Recovery 💕

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Reblog this if…

Your followers can message you about anxiety

Your followers can message you about depression

Your followers can message you about their sexuality

Your followers can message you about their gender identity

Your followers can message you about body image & dysphoria

Your followers can message you about eating disorders

Your followers can message you about self harm & suicidal thoughts

Your followers can message you about family issues

Your followers can message you about relationship issues

YOUR FOLLOWERS CAN MESSAGE YOU IF THEY NEED HELP AND SOMEONE TO HEAR THEM.

We are all ears!!

(This applies to my followers too xx)

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Day 2

I've got this. I messed up but that wont stop me.

Day 2: 500 cals

4am:

1 plain piece of wheat toast (70 cals)

Jell-o snack packs (20 cals)

2:40pm

Soup (140 cals)

4pm:

Iced vanilla latte w/ almond milk (160 cals)

10pm:

Some chili from a coworker. Idk the calories but the lose it app says chili should be around 280ish per serving so (280 cals)

Crackers (120 cals)

Current calories burned: 307

Current total: 483 cals

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I talked to my coworker about my ED today.

It was weird, it just like.. came out. I didnt mean to say anything about it.

He was really sweet about it though. I could tell he cared about what I was saying, but he wasnt pushing me to stop or questioning me. He was just listening. and he said "you need to do what you think is best for you. Dont just conform because you feel you need to, just do what's best for y o u. You dont look like you need to lose weight to me, but I understand"

And I was about ready to cry

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I literally just googled how many calories were in my toothpaste

This has gotten so bad.

Btw for anyone wondering its 1 cal

Update: no calories in cigarettes either 👍

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person: you good?

me: yeah. *stands up*

knees: crack.

eyes: blackout.

stomach: screams.

me: i’m good.

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Fresh Start

Day 1: 500cals

I WILL stick to it this time

I will NOT binge every night like the cow I am

I WILL hit my goal weight

I WILL be skinny

I'll update this post with everything I eat throughout the day.

SW: 284lbs

Breakfast:

Tea, 0cal sweetener & a little vanilla almond milk (10cals)

Celery w/ dressing (125cals)

1 waffle w/ nothing on it (90cals)

Breakfast total: 225 cals

Lunch:

Sandwich (280cals)

Lunch total: 280 cals

Dinner:

I wasnt going to have anything for dinner but I fucked up, again, as I always fucking do and I went like 1,000 cals over my limit a g a i n. I'm going to fucking scream, why cant I just stick to anything for once in my fucking life. It's literally day ONE. ONE DAY. my fat ass cant control myself for even a D A Y. I'm disgusted and i wanna die

Net: (as of rn) 505 cals

1,695 cals

D I S G U S T I N G

I'm so pissed at myself.

I plan on working as much of it off as possible so I'll update it later

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Who even needs drugs to go to space I just have to stand up