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You know that feeling where you think you may be dead and then suddenly you wake up and you were just asleep? And time is a fever dream? Yeah that’s been me for the last 6 months

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don't use "ftm" it's outdated and offensive. it implies that the trans person was their agab, which we never were. i was always a boy, never a girl who became a boy.

i'm 35 years old. i've been IDing as trans or something similar to trans for nearly 20 years. i was probably calling myself FTM while you were playing tag during recess, anon.

i WAS a girl. i IDed as a girl early in my life. i recognized myself as a girl, called myself a girl, lived as a girl, and was a girl. who then IDed as a man. hence, F t M.

spend more time worrying about yourself instead of strangers on the internet, anon.

sorry not sorry if this comes off as needlessly hostile, but i've been getting a lot of shit from a lot of teenage trans kids about the language i use to describe my own goddamn experience, and i'm growing real fuckin weary of it.

i have elder trans friends who call themselves transsexuals and transvestites and trannies. are you going to seriously go to a 60-year-old trans person who survived the reagan years and tell her she's not allowed to use certain language to describe herself because it might offend the delicate sensibilities of some teenager on the internet?

do yourself a favor and log off, find some real-life trans people who are over the age of 20 or 25, and spend time talking to them instead of getting all holier-than-thou at random strangers on tumblr.

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going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

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Leave it to me to have forgotten how to use this hellsite in this last 6 years. I was famous on here once. Now I can’t even remember how to change my about info

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your poor little meow meow fucking bit me

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One thing you have to remember is that online queer discourse doesn't make a damn bit of difference to systemic queerphobia irl or LGBT rights. No amount of playing respectability politics by identifying the "real freaks" will ever lead to sexual emancipation or prevent sexual violence. No amount of trying to identify and cast out "oppressors" and "infiltrators" will ever make homophobes and transphobes respect the sanctity of your sexual identity. Not letting people have words and flags and colours is absolutely nothing except a weapon for online harrassment and clout-chasing wielded by white and Western weirdos who've drunk the colonizer Kool-Aid.

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This is an actual ad I keep getting here on tumblr.com and I am concerned.

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Gay gay gay balls and homo

I prefer women thanks

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An incomplete list of shit my best friend has said

"I'm an amoeba. I do not conform to human ideals. I am simply slime."

"The trees have ears and I speak Vietnamese."

"If I ever start sucking dick for money, I'm gonna do it so that I have a loyal customer base." (he's straight)

"So shut the fuck up Captain Marshmallow Brain."

"Now everyone but me is a coward."

"Are you saying you want to play with a nipple every time you open your wallet? That's kinda lesbian not gonna lie."

"Fuck those wasps, they have delicious things hidden in their nests, I know it."

"I'll fucking stab you all."

"I'll smack that duck's ass so hard it comes out of its mouth."

"2+2=4. Infinity = death. Quick maths. Die you bastard die."

"I don't even think he's the smartest tool in the junk drawer."

"He's like a marmoset with a screwdriver."

"I'll moderate you in real life next time I see you, ya fuck."

"Ace keeps trying to non-consensually show me their spreadsheet."

"You aren't smart enough to be a smart ass."

"I mean there's the complete overlay of kinky ace people who play D&D."

"conspiracy theory noises"

"Can my gender role be weird dude who lives in the woods?"

"God is dead and I personally handled his execution. How may I help you?"

"I don't give a damn about your haunted lightbulb. Maybe it'll float over your head and you'll have an idea."

"Glad to know the single brain cell I have in my head occasionally coughs out entertainment in its dying gasps."

"Sometimes sucking a dick does not mean you're a bottom."

"God is taking a nap and left me in charge of you fucks, so who wants a fireworks launcher?"

"I really want a milkshake right now, does that mean I have a lust for cows? Nah that's stupid!"

"Why are dicks getting severed and am I allowed to do it without putting it in my mouth first?"

"You say that like I don't already show my nipples to random strangers."

"Don't sell your soul or your sanity to make your petunias better than Betty's."

"I wear a fucking garrote wire in my hair, go nuts."

"I mean fair, but I'm at least a decently advanced version of a magpie right?"

"Or what? I'm the one with a TSA horror jacket!"

"VIVA LA CHAOS!"

"Jellyfish do not commit ethical or moral violations."

Okay first of all, I am not Bitch, I am THE Bitch and it's Mr. Bitch thanks."

"Oh fuck I'm useful."

"Silence, I have so much blackmail on you."

"I'm all of those things (except femboy) and more it's called being talented."

"I don't have a 'superiority complex'. I'm just superior."

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An incomplete list of shit my best friend has said

"I'm an amoeba. I do not conform to human ideals. I am simply slime."

"The trees have ears and I speak Vietnamese."

"If I ever start sucking dick for money, I'm gonna do it so that I have a loyal customer base." (he's straight)

"So shut the fuck up Captain Marshmallow Brain."

"Now everyone but me is a coward."

"Are you saying you want to play with a nipple every time you open your wallet? That's kinda lesbian not gonna lie."

"Fuck those wasps, they have delicious things hidden in their nests, I know it."

"I'll fucking stab you all."

"I'll smack that duck's ass so hard it comes out of its mouth."

"2+2=4. Infinity = death. Quick maths. Die you bastard die."

"I don't even think he's the smartest tool in the junk drawer."

"He's like a marmoset with a screwdriver."

"I'll moderate you in real life next time I see you, ya fuck."

"Ace keeps trying to non-consensually show me their spreadsheet."

"You aren't smart enough to be a smart ass."

"I mean there's the complete overlay of kinky ace people who play D&D."

"conspiracy theory noises"

"Can my gender role be weird dude who lives in the woods?"

"God is dead and I personally handled his execution. How may I help you?"

"I don't give a damn about your haunted lightbulb. Maybe it'll float over your head and you'll have an idea."

"Glad to know the single brain cell I have in my head occasionally coughs out entertainment in its dying gasps."

"Sometimes sucking a dick does not mean you're a bottom."

"God is taking a nap and left me in charge of you fucks, so who wants a fireworks launcher?"

"I really want a milkshake right now, does that mean I have a lust for cows? Nah that's stupid!"

"Why are dicks getting severed and am I allowed to do it without putting it in my mouth first?"

"You say that like I don't already show my nipples to random strangers."

"Don't sell your soul or your sanity to make your petunias better than Betty's."

"I wear a fucking garrote wire in my hair, go nuts."

"I mean fair, but I'm at least a decently advanced version of a magpie right?"

"Or what? I'm the one with a TSA horror jacket!"

"VIVA LA CHAOS!"

"Jellyfish do not commit ethical or moral violations."

Okay first of all, I am not Bitch, I am THE Bitch and it's Mr. Bitch thanks."

"Oh fuck I'm useful."

"Silence, I have so much blackmail on you."

"I'm all of those things (except femboy) and more it's called being talented."

"I don't have a 'superiority complex'. I'm just superior."