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imhappyascanbe · 1 month ago
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Marriage
I think i made a very big mistake getting married to my ... wife. It makes me ill to call her my wife.
Sex has now gone down to once a month. She doesn't ask it, makes no inkling for it. Doesn't even ask.
A few days a ago, we were briefly home together in the morning. No children around. She was getting into the shower and I asked if she a bit of time...she "no, i have to get to work. Maybe later".
When the answer is later, you can bet it's no guarantee that it's going to be later that night, tomorrow or next week. I now understand later to be "no".
I am tired of asking. It makes me sick to my stomach that i have to literally beg for sex from my big fat wife.
I can't stand looking at her naked anymore. It's the only thing that kills my libido.
I need to get out of this marriage...but my children are still too young. My chance is coming in about 9 years?? I'll be too old to find a new more mature vibrant women.
Till next break down, take care.
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imhappyascanbe · 1 month ago
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marriage
it's a fucking scam
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imhappyascanbe · 1 year ago
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Commitment
It's not even funny anymore.
It seems she doesn't give a fuck about her image or health anymore. She doesn't even get her fat ass up to go for a walk. I don't know how much I can go on in the this relationship.
She has the potential to lose weight but I can't even look at her naked anymore...or in her underwear.
Thank goodness when it's time for sex, the lights are always out. Which reminds me of an episode of Dr. Phil she watched 20 years ago. The episode was about a guy who couldn't make love to his wife with the lights on - it HAD to be dark. Who would of thought that guy would be me.
Seems as though it's time to throw commitment out the door. It's a damn shame I lost my looks - I wouldn't mind finding a woman who's sexy in the dark and in the light...and they don't have to be super slim models....i'm not into that. I just want someone who can take care of their body...who appreciates maintaining their good looks...one that sees value in exercise and well being.
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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"I'm going to lose weight - I'm serious this time"
Welp....she made her empty commitment AGAIN.
It was Friday night...she's on the couch...and she says... (and I'm parapharasing here) "I'm going to get serious and lose weight. I need to make a change. She looks over and says, and we should celebrate by getting a hotel room for the night."
And all I could do was nod my head. Somehow, i didn't show my sarcasm. I didn't believe her then and I don't believe her now.
She also has the nerve to tell ME that she knows me better than I know myself. I don't so lady...I've got to get batteries in the scale, she needs to see how many more tons she's put on.
All she wants to do and "eat right"...but she never mentions excersice. Whatever. I should of asked her what her goal weight should be or what's the time line she's giving herself.
The truth is, it'll take 2 years for her to shed her weight to be healthy. But she just wants sit in front of the tv.
She complains that her knee is hurts...she has headaches (has one today)...like whatever.
Over a week ago we had sex....I blew my load on her belly and she complained that it was small. And she actually seemed upset that I had literally took matters into my own hands. Bitch, if you're always sleeping on the damn couch what else am I going to do. But of course, I would be the jerk when I leave the house hungry and with my balls full and ended up in the arms of another woman.
/sigh
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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losing interest in her physically
Hello again.
it's been about two and half weeks that we've last has sex together. Since then, I've lost much of the urge to have sex. I'm glad because I really wanted to stop chasing her for sex - for literally begging her for sex.
Like I have written in the past, it's the same excuse when she is approached. "I'm too tired, I'm not in the mood, it's late". I've stopped caring. it's for the best, if she doesn't need it, why should I bother her with it.
I also blame her weight for this non-existent sex drive of hers. Also every morning, there's some sort of empty wrapper or snack bag in the coffee table.
Her thighs are fat, her ass is humongous, her face is ballooning...i can honestly say I'm no longer attracted to her...we did it.
All I have now are my fantasies...broken lonely fantasies.
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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The Art of Losing Weight
Let me just say the seggs happened last Friday...it was okay - it gets boring when she just lays there and doesn't have to motivation to get in a different position.
Anyways, a few things have happened within this past week.
I had an uncle pass away (it'll be one week tomorrow). My wife, thought that when everyone sees her, they will be concerned with her weight rather than the death of a family member.
"They're all going to look at me and think 'what happened to her?'" she said. My reply (in my mind) was the following, "it's a funeral, nobody is giving a shit about your fat ass." Also me in my mind, "this is the same bullshit excuse when weddings come up and we don't go - because you're embarrassed of your weight." Fuck man, this is really getting under my skin.
I don't fucking understand why she doesn't do anything about her weight. She eats dinner, sits in the couch, then, when she's all alone and the kids and myself are upstairs sleeping - she rummages through the cupboards. She finds chocolate, caramel popcorn - anything she can put in her mouth.
Tonight she asked if I got popcorn when I was out and about. NO! I DID NOT!!! STOP SNACKING ON JUNK!!!!!
If losing weight was an art, she'd be a right handed two year old drawing with her left hand. Terrible.
I wish she'd wake the fuck up. What in the fuck will it take to get her motivated to start watching her health? She's approaching mid-40s and there's women decades older than her that look absolutely fantastic.
Of course, she has no time, she's tired and well...i don't know what other excuse she has up her sleeve.
Both her knees ache - will it take ANOTHER health scare to get her on track - I don't think so.
good night fat ass...thighs....knees...calves.....arms.......back....except her nose..it's very slender.
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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i can understand why some folks cheat
i know there is never a good reason to cheat - betraying your partner's trust is an awful thing to do. but I have to admit, I can understand why some people cheat.
i know i've mentioned this before, but my wife has no sex drive. her health is probably borderline. she has no cormorbidities except for the fact the she lost her gallbladder. this women can't keep her mouth shut when it comes to food. she knows she's heavy - she complains about her knees aching, frequent headaches, sits on the couch after dinner...falls asleep on the couch, and I still find myself trying to stay awake when I wait for her in bed. but it ends being me giving up and going to sleep. and i feel like a fool. i want it to stop.
when it comes to her self image, she's not happy with herself and she does nothing about it. she complains clothes look terrible on her (which they do) and she just buys bigger baggier clothes.
I find her body disgusting...from her fat calves, fat knees, ultra wide ass...i can go on and on. when I sit and think about her looks, its a complete turn off. you tell her she's fat...she says she's fat but again, she does nothing to change it.
I thought folks would like to look their best for their spouses. at least try to lose some weight and clean up. not in our relationship. I get up out of bed early in the morning and do my workouts at home. I am getting older and know that I have to keep my body in good shape because it's the only I have.
it just pisses me off that i make the effort to fit in size 32 jeans and she wears underwear larger than me...and she doesn't fucking care. when it comes to her own health, I have no idea how she can sit on the couch every night - snack on whatever she can find in the cupboard and keep adding pounds on that little frame of hers.
it's moments like these that I wish I had the balls to go out and fuck around. lucky for her, i'm not that attractive, i have poor social skills so I really wouldn't know how to get a side piece.
all she has to do is lose 80 pounds (she's already past 230 lbs as of OCT 2022. I don't want a skinny wife...i like curves, but this woman that sits at home - if there weren't children involved...I'd leave her.
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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merry christmas and happy new year.
Well, since I last posted, we finally had some sex. I think it was twice...yeah, it was twice - Christmas Day. What a gift to receive. But hey, Christmas comes once a year.
Tonight, once again, the pig is sleeping on the couch - after we had an understanding that were going to end the end with some intimacy.
I got up to say good night to the kids as I left her in the couch where her Netflix show was on Pause and she was scrolling through Amazon.
MINUTES... only MINUTES later I send a text down...no answer. I go down and see her sleeping on the fucking couch. Like jesus christ man...she is so dysfunctional.
Maybe it's just easier if I find away to kill my sex drive, murder my lebedo(?).
She's so fucking fat, that she complains about he knee...well fuck lady - your frame could probably handle 180 lbs....but 233lbs??? PLEASE, for the sake of your health - LOSE SOME WEIGHT!
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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still here...
It's monday night. Nothing much has changed over the past few days.
I finally have a few minutes to get my thoughts down in print. Seems that this long drought doesn't really bother her. She's back on the couch and watching her shows. I've gone up to her hoping to feel some playful gestures but nothing. She has claimed that if there's no sex, she can live without it.
I am now to afraid to do doing anything because I don't want to experience the feeling of rejection, of not have having my actions or gestures get a response. Because then I feel ignored...and then that makes ME the stupid one. I should have just listened to myself the first time and leave her alone.
I know she won't come up to me in the middle of the night and get the excitement going. But here we are again...I want it, but I don't want it.
I don't want it because I want her to experience a long drought...I want her to feel unwanted...I want her to know that when she's looking for sex...it won't be there for her, which is the opposite for me.
When I'm looking for sex...and she's not in the mood..it ain't happening. I hate that there's a double standard when it comes to sex in our relationship.
And so, here we go again...I wait for bedtime...so the sun can come up, i leave the bed and eventually she leaves the house to go to work.
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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it's Friday night....
It's Friday night, I've come back to my computer from sitting in the family room where my wife lies on the couch with her eyes closed on the couch. I got up and left as soon as I saw the eyes shut.
This woman, mid-40s has no libido. There is no drive for sex.
Once I was told (by her) that she need to be stimulated for sex...unfortunately, there's only so much I can stimulate. When the door remains shut, you just give up. At this point, I know she's full of shit, I've given up trying because I know it'll only bring me frustration and anger.
And so, I find myself just wanted to get into bed and wait for the morning come. I hate this. I really do. If I knew my marriage would turn out like this, I would of thought twice. What's the point? You stay married to your spouse - they put on weight, call you lazy yet their the ones on the couch every single night sleeping only get up at midnight and finally get into bed.
This women of mine is the mother of our two children, and I dare not go anywhere for the children's sake.
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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the 'chase' continues
So early this morning, 3:30am early we were both awake in bed. She gave me a tap so I began touching her. While she didn't really push me away, she didn't reciprocate the touching. She also said, "don't start what you can't finish".
The end of the early morning event ended with, "just wait till later" which would be later tonight.
LATER TONIGHT: She came arrived home with the children. When she walked into the kitchen, placed her water bottle down and muttered "I have a headache".
I didn't say anything, I couldn't say anything. When you get the 'not feeling well/headache line'...you suddenly lose interest, don't care and wait for bedtime where you can fast forward till morning and start a new day.
time for bed soon.
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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the following morning
'hi' she says...."oh are you upset?"
I don't even want to say anything anymore... she continues on "I came up but I was tired, and you were sleeping".
The reason I was sleeping was because I knew..every night ends up being the same. Eat dinner, clean up...she ends up on the couch, puts on a show or movie...falls asleep - if she doesn't get up to grab a chips or snacks out of the cupboard (putting on even more weight) ...and stays in the couch sleeping until midnight.
I've lost my faith in this part of our relationship.
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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nothing going on tonight
Tonight, she uttered the words, "i have a bit of a headache".
This unfortunately, only means one thing - no sex...once again.
it's come to the point where where I feel she should just tell me when she feels well. Headaches, stomach pain, feeling like a cold is coming...eating too much...I am just so frustrated with the excuses.
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imhappyascanbe · 2 years ago
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here we are
Well....here we are, my first post. My outlet. I need to get the words out because I feel there's no one I can really share these secret thoughts with.
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