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Til death do we part, hm?

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Friendly reminder of the jerjean height difference. Really makes those chin grabbing scenes👌🏻

Jean: 6ft 2 in

Jeremy: 5ft 10 in

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Having read the golden raven, I wanna talk about the financial iron grip that Jeremy's mum has on his life. His finances are so thoroughly scrutinised that he doesn't dare get a cab back from a hook up. He is immediately contacted after paying for Jabberwocky to justify the expense, and because all his purchases also require receipts, he can't even do the age old cash back trick to get some untraceable money (where you buy 20 dollars of groceries and get 10 dollars of cashback so it looks like 30 bucks of groceries but you got 10 bucks to spend or save privately). Instead he has to basically launder money through his therapist. Which btw kid you could use weekly sessions and your therapist has only agreed to this because your mom has - listen I can't even get into all that. That's a seperate post. Anyway my point is that Jeremy is being financially abused by his mom (and that's before we get into the fact she's hidden his passport etc), and that noone will ever believe it because he is from a rich family, he has a credit card and does expensive things like go to a salon for his hair etc. He is being spied and controlled via his finances and there is so much to say about Jeremy and Jeans parallels at being property who cannot leave or live their lives as they choose. But tbh Jeremy being forced to law school and Jean having no choice but to keep playing exy is also a seperate post

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no mourners, no funerals

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oh jeremy knox that picks a dog that clearly likes jean and that jean clearly connected with insted of just picking a dog for himself, oh jeremy knox...

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sickening that jeremy thinks about changing his last name. sickening that they gave jabberwocky the moreau surname. there will be three j. moreaus. jean can build a caring family under the moreau name in elodie’s memory.

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Laila Dermott will deal with the Jeremy Knox haters. Consult Laila Dermott before speaking on Jeremy Knox!!!

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first you have to remember that the first disco ball was painstakingly put together by hand from nothing but an idea and lots of intricately cut glass and bandaids and then you have to think about the experience of being under a disco ball for the very first time, bathed in reflections of an era that has not yet come to past, and finally you end up wondering what else there is around you that has yet to be unearthed by something with so much as a silly name

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Adding to the Jeremy Knox / Neil Josten parallels by saying they both began their respective years thinking their lives will be over by the end of it.

Neil’s end was literal—he expected to die at the hands of his father/ father’s men, while Jeremy’s is metaphorical—him losing what little freedom he has left to be forever controlled and financially abused by his parents, likely pursuing a career in law and forced into a heterosexual marriage

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as soon as we get jean “i didn’t deserve what the do to me” moreau, we also get the story behind jeremy “i deserve to be treated the way they treat me” knox and something about this is so very compelling. jeremy being one of the first people to tell jean he deserved better while simultaneously thinking he himself did not, and jean learning to be angry for himself just about when that he understands why jeremy can’t. and like jean defends jeremy from people he’d rather avoid than actually defend himself against (bryson, conners, etc) and i’m seeing this as a parallel to when jeremy told him in tsc that he always has the right to defend himself. jerejean both following a pattern of “i’ll believe you deserve defending until you learn to believe it too”

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Thinking about Jeremy Knox for too long makes me sad. Don’t get me wrong, Jean makes me sad as well, but there seems to be a heavy emphasis on Jean’s trauma compared to Jeremy’s as if he didn’t tell us he was taken advantage of by someone 5 years older than him when he was 18 years old AND got found out/outed that same time.

The way he told this to Jean, I don’t think he realizes he was taken advantage of by this 23 year old. He said it so “Yeah this happened, and it’s my fault that Noah died because of it. I was the problem” (and the whole feeling guilty for that is a whole other post). Like bro, you were dealing with so much at 17/18 years old between the car accident, getting addicted to drugs, dealing with a depressed brother, AND being gay in… (does math) 2003? That 23 year old saw how vulnerable you are and preyed on you. You can tell because he basically lured Jeremy with drugs. Like bro…

Jeremy Knox, do you realize that you were taken advantage of? Do you? I gotta know.

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For the last time dude, my leitmotif sounds exactly like it always has. There is no symbolism for creeping corruption in there

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best part of TGR is “fuck what I deserve, what about what I want?” because it was Jean confessing his feelings to HIMSELF with the subject of said confession RIGHT THERE ufff

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one of my fave parallels in tgr

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made the mistake of listening to Townie by mitski while thinking about Mr. Jeremy Alan Knox nobody touch me