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HAPPY birthday dylan i made this for you with intent of giving it to you for your birthday so here we are. ALSO you have to start from the bottom. BUT YEAh hapoy birthday

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june 14 - One more thing

Here’s one more thing i wanted to add to this for you.. and its not a poem or anything, i just wanted to let you know everything Dylan because im always here for you. Well for one thing i want you to know i’m glad you’re here with me you know that? and i wouldn’t want this with anyone else, really i wouldn’t. I also wanted to say thank you for showing me what a healthy relationship is. Everything you do for me is amazing and i just feel nothing but love when im around you, thats how i always feel when im with you, and i hust cant believe how i was able to find you honestly. I’m really not used to the way you treat me at all, im used to being treated like complete dog shit, (haha) and so for someone like you to come around and just change my perspective of everything is just insane to me, because i honestly never thought it would happen, i thought i’d spiral and i’d be unhappy forever, but now that you’re here i never wanna go back to being like that, and i feel myself growing with you, and you just make me a totally different person around you. I’ve never felt so happy with someone, even when we were just friends i still felt that way about you, because there’s something really special about you, and your personality, it’s just perfect to me, and done ever for a second think you’re doing anything wrong because you’re so great to me, and you’re the best person i could ever ask for( in like the wholllee world). You have such a beautiful mind really and i’m glad i can be with you and get to experience it too.

Half of the things i’ve written on here i’ve always wanted to tell you but i can’t because my pebble brain can never make it i to words, but i meant everything i said, and truly, you are so special to me, and no one had ever or could ever make me feel like you make me feel. I know i’m not totally okay, and i still feel bad, and depressed like i normally do, but being with you makes life so much better (like i’ve said sooo many times) and you just manage to bring out the absolute best in me. I’m always happy when im with you, you know? You always know what to say to make me feel better and you always seem to care and i can tell you do, and i just trust you with everything, and it’s crazy because i never thought i’d feel this way with anyone, and i dont know i just dont let people in and you know that and im just everything wrong in so many ways, but with you it feels like everything is okay, and you make me feel that with everything you do for me, and i really am bad with words and im trying to explain it and not repeat things and im trying to make sense but its kinda hard, but i just wanted to say that i really do appreciate all of the things you do for me, and i dont know if you notice but it juat means so much to me and im so happy to be stuck with you and be able to talk about doing so much with you later, and i can’t wait to see where the future takes us, and i hope one day dylan, you can get everything you’ve ever wanted because you deserve it so much. You’re auch a perfect person to me and i love you so much more than i could ever put into words and i wish i could show you more and get these stupid thoughts out of my head about you so you could understand it better, but its okay you know i love you, And im so lucky to have you. and thank you fir dealing with my craziness, and for always wanted to be around me. it makes me feel so special, and i wouldn’t ask for anyone else. i can’t wait to see where life takes us, because i know it’s gonna be good.

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June 9th

Hello.. I think i might write something, ive been wanting to i just always forget anyways.

I love you always

i love you when im mad at you, i love you when im with you.

I love spending time with you. I love looking at you. i love talking to you. i Just love you, and i never knew it but you’re everything i needed. You’re the perfect person for me- We’re perfect for each other, and the world feels right when im with you, even when it isn’t, it is. You make me forget about all the bad things and you give me a reason to look forward to the next day, as you push my date back further and further. Life is everything with you, It really is. You’re always my sunshine no matter how rainy my brain is, you always manage to come through and make everything all right, and i’m glad i let you in, and i’m glad i let you get close, and i’m glad you let me in too. You tell me things we talk things out you listen to me i listen to you, it’s all i’ve ever wanted in a person, which i never thought i’d find until i met you, and i’m forever grateful for you.

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Thinking about you again (may 27th)

I’m thinking about you again, and these past few months (2months) have felt like an eternity with you and I love it here sm, i don’t even wanna leave

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see told you i was gonna make it

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may 10th (burnout) (MAYBE)

Come stay with me, where we can lay under the stars at night.. And maybe see a shooting star, where i’d wish for you and i to be together forever.

Come stay with me and we can listen to all of our favorite songs, in our playlist (only us).

All of the love songs i’ve always hated, have now become about you, and i hold them close to me. I don’t think they’re so bad anymore. You’re not so bad. I wouldn’t mind if you come stay with me.

Come stay with me and i’d take care of you. I’d make you the happiest you’ve ever been; Do anything to put a smile on your face (i love your face)  give you a reason to keep going, i’d sing to you, and ask you how your days were, and i’d listen to you talk for hours. (i love your voice). i’d be your home; I’d make sure you never felt alone (song), Because i love you. I wish i could go on with this poem but i’m out right now. Out of thoughts but just know, my love for you is infinite, So come stay with me.

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may 9th (another poem because i can’t stop writing love poems about you)

im gonna call this uhh 

I just want to make you mine. 

You know that, in fact; you’re already mine, but you’re not here. I can’t hold you like i want to. 925 miles away actually. I can’t kiss you like i want to. But 925 miles I'm willing to go just to be with you forever. so i can give you all of my love. I’d go anywhere for you, Just to hold you close to me. Just to make you feel wanted. Loved. Appreciated.

Just to make you mine.

I’d chase after you no matter where you are. I’d even chase after you in my dreams. Anything to win you over,

Just to make you mine.

I’d give you the world if i could. I already gave you my world, every day, every night. 24/7.  i make sure you’re the first one to know anything; everything. You’re the first one to get my sweet Good Mornings, and the only one to get my scintillating Goodnights, as my nights are reserved for you. Only you.

 I’d do Anything to make you smile, Anything you wanted I'd give it to you. 

You name it, it’s yours, forever. I’m yours forever. I wouldn’t dare go anywhere, because I want you to know I’m here for you. I’ll never leave your side. I love you always, and just know, I'd do anything for you, 

Just to make you mine.

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may 05 shitty poem

Shit poem!

Love is something that’s risky.. You never know if it’d work out or not.. But  I’m already here now, and you’re here too.. So maybe we should just freefall into each others arms, and see where love takes us, because with you, I'm not afraid. I’m not afraid to love, give you all of me, because you can have it. I'm yours. I’ll always be yours. 

Everyday with you feels new, and never could i ever get tired of you, as you’re engraved in my brain, every minute, of every day, All i ever think about is you, and slowly I’m letting you have every piece of me. My heart, mind, soul; It’s all for you. I wouldn’t dare let another soul have it. They’re not you. They’re not like you, They'll never be. You’re irreplaceable, and no one could ever compare to you. You’ll always be perfect in my eyes.

Everyday has been a bit more bearable since I've met you.  You’ve never failed to make my days, my nights, my life. 

I want to know everything about you; things you like, things you don’t like, what random thoughts you have (no matter how random), what you hate, things you love, .. EVERYTHING, and I’ll study you like a book, and I'll read it over and over and over, And I’d never get tired of reading you; You’re so lovely. I fall for you every single day. It’s something about that charming personality of yours that i just can’t seem to get over, that has me forever drawn to you. You make my life; and you’re the only one i want; The only one i want to fall for, and i hope in the end you’d pick me up.

 My love for you, it’s more like an ethereal forest- A secret forest where only you and i can go, and i can spend all of my time with you. Just you. And i’ll turn to you and look into your pretty eyes. (Eye contact). and i’ll serenade you with my words of love, (Music to your ears.) and i’d give you every ounce of my time, my attention, my love, my soul. i’d let you devour me, and I’d drown in my never ending thoughts of you (which i wouldn’t mind, because it’s you.) and i’d never get tired of being there with you. i could never get tired of being with you. Our forest, It’s unreal when you look at it, absolutely beautiful, and it grows every day, only getting stronger, flourishing with all sorts of things you’d never thought you’d see, with the most fascinating sunsets, and we’d watch them together, in each others arms; Forever. 

You’ve made me feel things i never thought i could feel- and every night i look forward to the time we can finally make the nights ours. You give me something to look forward to, and i enjoy our time together more than anything else in the world. I wish i could make you mine, right now, right here. One day i will. And one day when our life ends, I’ll find you in the next life too, for our souls to rekindle, and fall for each other all over again. 

Life with you is an everlasting dream that i’d never want to wake up from and god i hope it never ends, And i hope that in the end, you love me just as much as i love you, and  I hope you think of me as much as i think of you as well...And im not just some hopeless romantic. 

Because i’ve completely fallen for you.

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mAY05]

hello dylain,/// dude.. not even gonna lie i cringe at some of the poems and things i write for you cause ugh it's so nerdy and weird fr it has me second guessing on weather i should give this to you or not. I mean Of courseee i would but ugh it's so weird, i mean it's true but i just think feelings are weird

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I realllly like this song so i wanted to share it w/ you cuz yeah

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i think these are cool

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good!

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dirtbag

i also really like this song, i didnt at first but it grewwww on me

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im not sure if this song is too mainstream but i really like it. makes me think of you

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be mine (test...)

be mine and I'll show you everything.

be mine and I'll expand your mind, to things you've never seen.

be mine and I'll put you first.

be mine and I'll forever make you smile.

be mine and I'll share every piece of me with you.

be mine and I'll let you know my feelings, as i hope you do with me.

be mine and I'll give you all of my time and attention.

be mine and I'll let you have all of me.

be mine and I'll spend my nights with you.

be mine and I'll only think of you.

be mine and I'll listen to you forever.

be mine and I'll love you forever.

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poem day 05/4

Thinking of you

My mind is occupied constantly- constantly with someone,

rather than something. Someone whom i've learned to love and care for, and it continues to florish, everything is okay when i'm with you. Not a thought goes through my mind, besides you, constantly on my brain. Every little thing reminds me of you, (someone.).

Not a day goes by where i don't crave you, all i want is you, and you forever. I couldn't wrap my mind around the thought of anyone else, for i only have eyes for you. I try everyday to win you over, as if i'm still trying to make you love me, but you're already mine. I'm never worried about losing you, all because i know you're with me, and i trust you with my heart, my mind, my soul..

My twin flame, it almost feels like you are (i hope you are, someone.) I don't regret letting you in, letting you see the real me, as I do at times. I feel at home around you (someone.), letting my guard down. letting you in the door. You make summer feel as if it could last forever (someone.), always full of life, always supporting always there, listening, My sun you are- always clearing my clouded thoughts, making life much more bearable. Never could i ask for anyone else.

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May 02 2022

Hey dylan................... i just came here again to remind you that you know i love you AND ITS SO MUCH but i don't even know how to put it into words and i feel lime such a broken record saying these things but i just i don't know i just want you to know because i don't wanna hold it in? i guess. I just feel as if you deserve to know all of my stupid little feelings for you, Althought recently, i have felt kinda strayed from you okay.. I've been feeling like we have our moments i guess but it's only for a little bit and I don't mind, i could never be mad at you.. And you know another thing i wanna say is that sometimes you literally have me geeking on the phone and Sometimes i don't say anything cause i cant stop smiling and you think it’s cause im uncomfy cause of how i sound but really im just literally over there melting because i just really like you i don't know, or whenever i see your face my god it just makes my whole day, i mean even though i BARELY do which is valid okay i don't mind but when i do it's just like wow??? Like you really like someone like me?? It's kinda dumb but i just feel lucky cause you're literally everything perfect, and I just want to spend all my time with you and give you all my attention (which is basically what i do anyways) but you know.. I cant wait until it's just me and you and i can finally give you all my love and everything else.......Because.. uh i don't know lol.. but i mean it okay i want you around all the time and i really hope that you know maybe you dont go anywhere because i like having you here with me. I'll always be here though and you know that.. I always care about everything you have to say too, i just thought i'd say that because i know sometimes when we talk i kinda just get weird and quiet whenever you talk about stuff and i hope you don't think i don't care cause i really do, just not good at showing it i guess but i should probably try harder to let you know, Because it means a lot that you feel comfortable telling me the things you do and i love how we can just talk all day and never get tired of each other, and i don't wanna get tired of you. I just always wanna be around you and all i ever want to do anymore is talk to you, and spend time with you as much as i can, Because you just, i don't know it's overwhelming trying to make all of this make sense, and i know a good portion of this doesnt make sense, but i just want you to know that i love you okay and i don't think i'll ever stop. OKAY BYE NOW