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[im-sorry-baby-please-puppy]

That's it

I'm going to kill myself

I hate this

My cousin raped me for years, I hope she rots

My ex abused me mentally and physically, I hope he never finds love

My friend has been mentally abusive for 4 years, I hope she changes for the better, but never feels complete

If I kill myself who will miss me

Silly old girl afraid of roaches

Silly old girl foo depressed to eat

Silly old girl didn't get to be a child

Silly old girl will die

If I die, everyone will remorse

Certain people will celebrate, some people ok Discord who like to tell me to shut the fuck up and fuck off, some people who act nice to me because they wanna be the better person then turn around and talk shit

What did I ever do to you, cousin, bur devote near 10 years of my life doing nothing but looking up to you, loving you, doing what made you happy

And what did I do to you, old friend, I spent 8 years trying to be the best friend for you, always giving to you and there for you, all I did was the best for you. Then you get mad when I crack, for 2 years you vent to me about someone I care about and expect me to deal with it?

Sorry I'm not better, if you want me dead that bad, just tell me

Don't. Fucking. Go. Behind. My. Back.

Don't make up lies cousin, I never talked shit about you to anyone but my old friend because she would always talk shit too or start it

Don't tell people about my personal life and my vents, old friend, that's fucked up, my anxiety is now so bad every DM I get makes me cry. I can't sleep or eat and I'm in a cycle of depression again. If you hate me that much, stop acting like you're the better person because you are worse than me. I'm not saying I'm perfect, I owned up to my mistakes and it's been your turn for too long.

I don't care who sees this anymore

Attack me, I don't care

I hate people that lie and abuse, so I will vent.

[im-sorry-baby-please-puppy]

It almost happened to me

[im-sorry-baby-please-puppy]

Oh

Rip friends

Kinna miss em

Not as close now

She said nice words then, tells me to stfu now

I wish I could keep em

[im-sorry-baby-please-puppy]

If you hate me just say so

Don't pretend to be nice, I lost someone I cared about and you act nice

I know you hate me, say it

I'm bored of charades

[im-sorry-baby-please-puppy]

I feel so sick

It's not just my mental health effectad anymore

The situation is affecting my health

The solution is 3 simple words yet I'm physically in pain because I'm just a piece of paper for vented words to lay on

My head hurts, I'm so nauseous, I can't eat or sleep and my depression is spirling

I feel like the last stable leg on a bed with 30000 pounds on it

I dunno

Why

I dunno how much longer I can deal with this

[im-sorry-baby-please-puppy]

I'm scared

My best friend isn't like she used to be anymore

She used to be so happy all the time

She used to enjoy going out and having 300000 friends

Ever since she got in a relationship she's been alot more needy and depressed

She's not herself

Idk

It feels different, he's been mentally abusing her and it shows

I don't know

It took her 2 years to see that her relationship was toxic like everyone was saying

Everyone she pushed away or got upset at was right, he's horrible

He's still horrible to this day

She's obviously in love with the relationship, not him and has been like that a long time

Apparently my opinion is only this way because she only "tells me the bad stuff" but like, she tells me bad stuff so often

And she does actually tell me the good stuff that once in a blue moon happens. He basically only does something nice like take her out or get her things when he needs to prove to everyone he's a good boyfriend or she's questioning the relationship

She fell inlove again, I'm happy

She's not, she already thinks she's in love

I wish she'd actually already experienced love before so this wouldn't happen

I think she should leave her boyfriend. She KNOWS it's toxic, she's cheated AGAIN and she knows he'll cheat as well when he MOVES AWAY. She's stalling

She's stalling so she doesn't get hurt

She's stalling so he doesn't get hurt

She's being stupid, she's hurting herself more by being in this position.

I can't tell her to leave him, or she'll get mad at me like EVERY OTHER TIME because I "don't know everything"

But after seeing her reaction when she realised the relationship was abusive, I did know everything

I dunno

She's gonna hurt herself more by stalling. The longer she waits the heavier the guilt of cheating will grow, the heavier the burden of knowing the relationship is bad will grow

She's trapped herself

I wish they just stayed broken up the first time one of them cheated, it would've been better

But everytime they break up they abuse eachother until the other comes back

She got mad at him because he didn't want her seeing other people instantly after leaving him, so she tripped him into going back

He cried when HE broke up with her, she was ok but he wouldn't stop texting her during their "break"

He told me to shut up when I told him to stop messaging her if they were taking a break, to leave her alone

Yet he messaged her every second of the day

She self harms, she's aimless and depressed with no opinion

It hurts to exist near her in this state, they hurt eachother so much they hurt everyone else

[im-sorry-baby-please-puppy]

So she hates me

Someone I used to be close with was posting herself vaping on her Snapchat

I showed my mum out of concern for her health because I didn't know what vape was but now I know it's an addictive nicotine thing

But yeah now she hates me because I apparently "told everyone she was smoking" (fyi I asked my mum what the vape was then my mum asked her step dad to check it out)

So uh

Everytime there's a rumour about her (e.g; she skips school or she cheats) she thinks I did it when I avoid her?

Ok

I guess it's my fault

Am I the bad guy..?

[im-sorry-baby-please-puppy]

Psssssh,,,

I

Don't

Miss....

Cutting..

I wish I was successful last year

I should be dead

[im-sorry-baby-please-puppy]

Ouch

It's weird how you used to have best friends and now if you asked anyone they know, you don't exist

You were once important, important enough to take years of their life and they loved it, now they act like you leached it off them

They made mistakes and hurt you yet you kept going until you crumbled

You crumbled once now you're nothing

Maybe if they never came back

If you were left alone just one more night

You could have done it

Just jump you coward