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My Zoloft works as an appetite suppressant so I think I’m going to only eat with my morning meds. That’s it for the day. The more I can skip and the more liquid meals I can get away with the better. Coffee or tea for breakfast, a smoothie for lunch, coconut water or tea for dinner. Watered down tomato soup or broth if I’m desperate. I can do this. I can shrink away now that he’s gone and he’s not checking in on me. I’m alone now and I can finally do what needs to be done again. I graduate in 8 months. I want to be 260 then. I’d settle for 280 considering idk what I weigh right now but 260 I think I could wear my old homecoming dress to graduation and look beautiful.

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Years later as desolate as this app may be, I’m going to try to track my progress here where my husband won’t find it. I don’t want to make him upset. I don’t even know what I weigh, I’m not going to check. I’m just going to try to do everything I can to get down to a lower weight again. I’ll be able to tell my progress by my clothes and how I feel. I do not want to become obsessive with numbers again. I will eat whole nutritious foods only when hungry and only after trying to fill up on fluids first. Water, coconut water, ice tea, and iced coffee. Then fruit and veggies, then soup or meat. I want to start with a 36 hour fast to just start shrinking my stomach back down. I have not eaten since dinner, I don’t remember the time exactly but I know it was before 8pm. So I’m going to go with 8 pm and try to fast (with exception of water or iced tea) until 8am Sunday. This is perfect because working night shift tonight I won’t eat, I’ll take melatonin gummies tomorrow to sleep, continue to sleep at night with more gummies, and then it’ll be Sunday. I’ll break my fast with some cucumbers or a light progresso soup. It’s Mother’s Day so if I see mom or grandma I’ll just snack on fruit.

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If you eat what you’ve always eaten, you’ll weigh what you’ve always weighed.

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You can be 300lbs and have an ed, you can be 100lbs and have an ed.

Not all of us want to be 80lbs and not all of us want to be over 100, we want to be pretty, accepted, happy.

Your SW, CW and GW do not validate your ed.

You can eat 1,000cals a day and have an ed, you can eat 200 cals a day and have an ed.

No one can tell you that your not struggling.

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can i tell y’all what my saving grace has been this summer?

‼️diet coke popsicles ‼️

literally so cheap to buy a popsicle mold and i always have diet coke anyways. it helps make me feel fuller because of the cold/getting to chew and suck on something and it can take a while to eat.

the best part is obviously that it has zero calories 😍😍

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Mom: Have you eaten already?

Me: Yeah

Mom: what did you have?

Me:

Me: Yeah

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Fine I admit I’m addicted, but the hunger feels good, how do I quit this?

Boyinaband + Jayden - empty

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skip all meal and skinny is real

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i can’t wait until i lose weight and then when school starts back everyone will see how skinny i’ve gotten

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I’m so fucking pumped to meet skinny me? Like she’s there, I know she’s under there. I can’t wait to meet this new version of myself, like stepping out of an old suit.

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When you wanna brag about your progress but your ED is a secret

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🌹🌹Instead of binging on food, why not binge on anime?💕💕🌸🌸

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water, gum, and coke zero never switched up on me unlike y’all fake ass bitches