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starting this diet 🩵

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Yk it’s getting bad when you’re too scared to count your calories coz yk you finna be disappointed

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I will be skinny by Christmas:

❄️ I can eat Christmas Dinner without worrying about calories

❄️ I can look so small in Christmas jumpers

❄️ The jumpers barely touch and scratch my skin

❄️ The warmth in my stomach from hot chocolate

❄️ Looking masculine and blending in with my cousins

❄️ Being the skinniest at the dinner table

❄️ Having weight loss not on my new years resolution

❄️ Everyone being confused on what size clothes to buy me

Just being skinny

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:3c

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Almost passed out halfway through but now my net cals is down to <100 💪💪💪

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Sometimes, I wish she could be just a plain bad person. Someone with no redeeming qualities who needs to be hated, and there are no conditions that could make her seem likable. But then she suddenly starts acting like a good mother. Wants to spend time with me, wants to talk with me. Acts like she cares. It hurts. Because that means I cannot hate her. And it makes me feel like a bad person for ever thinking of her so badly.

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#Repost @bpdbryan with @use.repost ・・・ needs a repost 👏 👏 👏

#bpdawareness #suicideprevention #bpdthings #mentalhealthawareness (at Lismore, New South Wales) https://www.instagram.com/p/ColuAjuBFob/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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😍

Little reminder to myself

You feel dizzy? Good. Isn't that what you wanted, what you craved? You know damn well that you deserve this. You like the pain and the helplessness, you know damn well that you don't have to do anything about it, even if it harms you, because this is self harm and you know it and you like it..... you don't have to eat to feel better..... you deserve it

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St*rve when you are alone

Eat when you are with people

✨ No one will suspect a thing ✨

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i am so excited for the cold weather to come around so i can wear my thights with long socks and legwarmers <33

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need to start eating like this fr

i don’t have enough motivation😭

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Ah! Caught you! What do you think you're doing there sweetheart, huh? I know you were thinking about cheating on your diet again. "Just one bite" bullshit! You know you'll binge the whole kitchen! Have some self respect! Don't you want to make mommy proud? You know it's really hard for her to love you if you're a fat disgusting pig. Don't you want to become a fragile little doll for her?

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Yall know any discord ana/ed related groups? I wanna join😭😭

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loving your vibe ;)

Awww thank youuuuu🫂💞Yours slays too, they're actually similar🙌🤎

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i would kill to be able to fit my hands around my thighs

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☆ ☆