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having a “favorite person” is so glorified and sounds lovely until you uncover the horrendous attachment issues and instability

i wish people could understand how painful of a curse it is

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Là encore, il y a plusieurs façons de se suicider dont l’une est le don total et l’oubli de sa propre personne.

- Le mythe du sisyphe, Camus

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The Beatles

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My favourite hobby is gaslighting myself into thinking I'll be fine

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—mothers

ijeoma umebinyuo // hyatt moore // class of 2013 by mitski // i, tonya (2017) // ? // gustav klimt // ? // lady bird (2017) // i remain in darkness by annie ernaux

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the real reason fyodor wanted to go to prison with dazai is because he wanted a japanese tutor

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Do y’all think siblings in medieval times would look at the little beasts in illuminated manuscripts and point at each other like ‘ha! ‘Tis thou!’

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“When one is made passive by defeatism, without doubt difficulties easily take effect, but exerting one’s self and invigorated, one is hard to defeat even for great calamities.”

— Śāntideva, Bodhicaryāvatāra, Crosby & Skilton tr. (7:53)

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dragon tea kettle. if you even care.

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bsd ships x textposts pt.2

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as soon as the internet decided depression and anxiety were the everyman mental illnesses and therefore not to be taken seriously we were all fucked tbh bc the fact that i have to feel embarrassed to admit i have debilitating anxiety because people will think im just an uwu dont call me out coward is ridiculous. its insane that i have to clarify that my depressive episodes are like life threatening and not whatever dipshit dumbed down idea of depression people seem to have like oh yeah i just wanna watch netflix and eat ice cream and not text people back. like bro i think im the devil

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Guess who's back to watching sitcoms as an attempt to feel better?

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its like i always say. at least theres bisexuality

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I haven't cried as much as I could this month bc it is all so very confusing and I've been sort of holding back ? Like trying to stay numb if I can? idk everyone around me seems to me so motivated and happy for the next year and I just feel like it's all downhill from here

january is one of those months where you experience every feeling on the human spectrum and you just have to go about your day like that isn't happening

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