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It's our fault

JadonsPOV: a lot has happened in the past month or so. Brad found a new group of friends and Brianna has a new boyfriend. Brandon. Saying her name hurts now. We spent every day together talking about anything and everything. The moon, the sun, do caterpillars know they're going to transform into butterflies, life. Little did she know, slowly, her golden hair was slowly becoming my sun, her lips the moon, her eyes the ocean and her tears the tide. Her skin was like snow, but her in general. She was becoming my world. As the weeks went on i heard less and less from her. She had become like a bear going into hibernation for the winter. The days have become lonely. I guess you could say it's my fault for falling for a mysterious girl with tsunami tide eyes and pale skin. BriannasPOV: I was going through my camera roll and stopped when I saw a picture of Brad,jadon,brandon,and I. We all looked so happy. I wanted it back. I craved it. It's such a bitter sweet thing, to want. Especially when you know it's something you're never going to get back. I missed brad but I couldn't take it. He'd rather her high than be with me. It hurt. The next day I met up with jadon at the park. When I got there he was sitting on the swing. I stopped before walking up to him. He looked like he had just had his heart broken. When I went up to him U could see the tears he was trying to fight back. I hugged him and suddenly I began to cry as well. Two heart broken kids with high hopes. "We should stop hoping they'll come back" I said. He looked away. "It's our fault for thinking we could fix broken hearts without getting cut"

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Happy

JadonsPOV: its 2pm on Sunday and its been over a week since I've seen my friends. I pick up my phone and I text brad and Brianna asking if they wanted to meet up at the park. I'm scrolling through the contact list and brandons name is there. I click send a message and ask her if she wants to join us. A few minutes later my phone screen lights up and the text said yes. I felt my blank face turn into a smile. I grabbed my jacket out of my closet and walked out the door. BradsPOV: I'm sitting on the swings at the park and it's 40 degrees. Where the fuck are they? Just as the thought crosses my mind I see Brianna walking toward me. She was was dressed up in black tights and a big black coat. "Hey" she says. "Hey bri" here we go again another awkward silence. She must think I'm so lame. Her mouth opened. "So..are you ever gonna kiss me because I'm beginning to think you don't like me or something" I feel as if my heart froze. I didn't know what to say. Suddenly I was no longer cold. I felt like a melting ice cube. I smiled and looked over at her. I put my hands on her cheeks and went in for the kiss. I could feel both of our smiles forming on our faces. Finally. BriannasPOV: he kissed me and I kissed back. I've been waiting for this moment for years. After the kiss I looked down for a few minutes and finally he asked "was it good?" I laughed and his hand intertwined with mine. We sat there swinging and talking for hours and it finally felt like everything was right. Suddenly brad looks up and and points at two figures. It was jadon and a girl with golden hair and eyes that matched the snowflakes. JadonsPOV: I was so happy to be talking her. I feel like we've known each other forever but it's only been a week. I was still a little curious about her. She was wearing a crop top and shorts while it was snowing outside. I didn't mean to say it, but it slipped out. "Why are you wearing that, it's freezing." I wanted to punch myself in the face. What if offended her? She hates me now. She stopped walking and turned to face me. I thought she was going to yell but then her straight face turned into a smile. She took off her shoes and I was very confused. She started running into the snow covered grass. She did a cartwheel and spun in circles. I didn't know what was going on. "Are you crazy?" I said. Again, she smiled. "Maybe" she continued to dance into circles and I watched her like a cheetah watching its prey. She laid in the snow and gestured me to come lye with her. "Aren't you cold?" I said. She turned her head so we were face to face- "yes, but the cold makes me feel something and that makes me happy" I looked over at her and I was mesmerized by her thoughts. I was mesmerized by the way she camouflages with the nature around her as if it was home. "You're crazy" I said. "I know." She laughed BrandonsPOV: I could tell he was confused. I didn't care. He asked if I was crazy and I simply said- "maybe" we laid in the frosted grass for hours talking about anything and everything. BriannasPOV: I couldn't stop smiling. I haven't been this happy in so long. I look up and see brad next to me and I can't help but smile. I look over at the grass and I see jadon and the girl and I'm thinking they're crazy but he looks happy. What a great night.

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Awkward encounter

Jadons POV: it's 6:30am and I'm awake 5 minutes early again. This time I didn't care. I was looking forward to seeing brandon. Is it weird that I know her name and the way a person could drown in her blue eyes and the way her smile lights up a room but she doesn't even know I exist? Why am I so interested in knowing a girl I haven't even met yet? I think that's why I can't forget about her. She's captivating and I needed to know her story. I wanted to know everything about her. I want her to unravel her every thought and memory and dream and sadness to me. BrandonsPOV: I wake up, go to the mirror, and take a deep breath. Everything will be just fine. I'm gonna make new friends. Ugh why can't I just be homeschooled. I get to school and head straight to my class. I sit down at the first empty desk I see. After about ten minutes the class room begins to fill up and I feel everyone staring at me.i pick up my phone and start scrolling down tumblr to distract myself. After about 5 minutes I realize there was a boy with curly hair and green eyes standing in front of me. I dropped my phone. "I'm sorry is this your seat?" I began to grab my things and move them to the seat behind me. He looked down and smiled. "This isn't my seat, I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm jadon." I stared at him for a little bit and I didn't know what to say "I'm brandon." Again, he smiled. "I know." He said

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Girls

Jadons POV: the blonde girl handed the teacher a note. She pushed her hair back and looked out into the classroom and smiled. For some odd reason I smiled too. My teacher opened his mouth and began to speak. "Alright class looks like we have a new student, this is brandon". I looked around and I could see the disbelief in everyone's eyes. I was shocked too. A girl named Brandon? After I let it sink in i began to like it. Something about her seems different and I like different. BradsPOV: I'm sitting in class counting down the minutes before I can leave this hell hole. Exactly 1hr and 20 minutes to go. I look down at my phone and the screen lit up with a message from jadon. He was going on and on about someone named Brandon. I honestly don't care. Finally the class is over and I meet up with Brianna after school. We begin walking and the first few minutes have been nothing but awkward silence. It's cold outside and my throat begins to burn. Why can't I just talk? Finally Brianna asked how my days was. I still couldn't open my mouth. I smiled and forced the words out. "It was good" my voice cracked. My face turned tomato red and the rest of the way home we didn't talk. It's now 10:00pm and all I can think about is Brianna and how much I want to be hers. I'm thinking about how I embarrassed myself and she just giggled and forgot it happened. I'm thinking about her. JadonsPOV: today was the first day in forever that another girl has even come across my mine. I keep telling myself I don't like her. How could I like someone I've never met? But she was intriguing and I want know her.

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The blonde

Brads POV: I see Brianna walking up to the school and my breath begins to get heavy. She’s so beautiful and I wish I had the guts to ask her. “Hey guys” “hey bri” I said. She smiled and and from the corner of my eye I could see the grossed out expression on jadons face. Brianna’s POV: I love when he calls me bri. And as for jadon he’s as irrelevant and lonely as the best friend in the great gatsby. Jadons POV: they’re so disgusting. Why don’t they just date already? We all know they want to. The bell rings to go to class and as Brianna and brad walk up the stairs I continue down the hall. I’ve now been sitting in class for 39 minutes and the whole time all o could think about was my ex. I wish it would just stop. As the class was coming to an end the door opens and everyone’s eyes focus on the entrance. In walks a tall blonde girl with blue eyes and golden skin and for the first time in months, I was no longer thinking of my ex.

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6:30am

Jadons POV: I’m laying in bed wide awake at 6:30am. I have 5 minutes to fall back asleep before my alarm goes off but all I can think about is my ex. Brads POV: I fucking hate Monday’s. What do we even learn in school? We won’t use any of this shit in the real world. They don’t teach you how to get over depression, heart break. So why the fuck do we go? That’s a question I’ll always think about. Brianna’s POV: I’m putting on my makeup and I can barely keep my eyes open. “Brianna it’s time to eat!” I ran downstairs, grabbed a piece of bacon, my bag and s jacket and left. I had to get to school on time to see brad. Brad and I have been best friends forever and I can only hope he feels the same way I do. I get to the school and see jadon and brad standing outside of the building smoking cigarettes.