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I saw something and immediately my mind clicked, Viktor and Reader cracked humor mood.

The kind of thing they would laugh at with their heads heavy with insomnia at 3:45 a.m lying side by side on bed.

yes. absolutely. exactly this. should i make this canon i wonder????

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Not an ask, but I wanted you to know that your fics have genuinely been so wonderful to read.

Things have kind of just been terrible, and re-reading your stuff has been a glimmer of comfort to make me feel better. I hope you’re taking care of yourself and are doing ok :)

🥹 thank you!! i hope you are taking care of yourself, too. i am sorry for starving you like this. writing has been very difficult lately. but i appreciate the re-reads. it’s always nice to hear from someone who liked your stuff so much they came back for more 🤲🏻

once again, thank you so so so much. i hope things lose their horribleness for you as soon as possible

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It's been a while since you post your fic. We miss you Soln. I hope you're okay.

unfortunately, i am experiencing this thing called writer’s block on top of a bunch of personal struggles so i am writing at snail’s pace. i tried setting deadlines for myself, but it didn’t work. i just end up spewing 50 words a day and fucking despising it. i’m not discontinuing the fic and i am sorry i’m making you wait indefinitely for some mid 3-5k word chapter. i wish i could do something about it. i’ll try to challenge myself one more time and perhaps ease myself into the writing flow through exercises to kind of speed this process up (believe me, i am sick of it too. writing is like. the only thing i do kind of decently. can you imagine what writer’s block does to my self-esteem?).

i am not exactly okay but i’m getting there??? hence the excessive grass touching and a very avid consumption of fifteen books a month, so, who knows. maybe i’ll get there. eventually.

again, i am not discontinuing anything. i’m merely saying i’m not doing good (you know, the usual perpetrators: mental illnesses, fuckass kamikaze drones, the feeling of being doomed to mediocrity, looking for a j*b, more fuckass kamikaze drones). so if you’re still waiting for the update: i am infinitely grateful and i’m sorry it keeps dragging on for eternity. yall don’t deserve that and it must suck to be so excited over a concept that’s simply wasting away in the hands of an incompetent author

with that being said. i have about half a chapter hanging out in my google docs, a trip-hop playlist, 32 cigarettes, and ten spare hours. we’ll see where it goes from there

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sketching his little face again to combat artblock and migraine

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🥩

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Does the name "playing with this bow(and arrow)" Come from "Glory box" the Portishead song?

yes of course!!! i LOVE triphop and i LOVE portishead

hell even my fic playlist is just sexy triphop and an occasional classical piece

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sorry but someone assuming you have "left a fandom" when you don't post about it a lot anymore feels like bilbo coming home to the sackville bagginses having him presumed dead and selling all his stuff. girl i was just on a little quest????

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as requested

The kid miss u 💔

unfortunately, the kids will have to cry a little longer. mommy is graduating, and she WILL get blackout drunk tonight

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The kid miss u 💔

unfortunately, the kids will have to cry a little longer. mommy is graduating, and she WILL get blackout drunk tonight

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THANK YOU @crimsonlegend FOR COMMISSIONING MEE 💖💖💖

This was such a joy to draw 😭💖 what a treat!!

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do you ever just sob for 3 hours straight because you desperately need praise to (at the very least) NOT despise your writing but in order to receive feedback you have to write consistently and you can’t write consistently because your standards are very high so your writing process is painfully slow and tedious and full of self-deprecation and this very loop has made your fics irrelevant because no one is willing to wait for a mediocre 3k word chapter that long which brings you back to the irrelevant bit so you just sit there in a limbo of erasing paragraphs and deleting yet another draft and feel shitty about yourself while your friends are actively writing literal masterpieces and having fun

is it just me or

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will you guys burn me at the stake for postponing the chapter indefinitely yet again

in my defence i’m ugly-crying on a 30 hour long bus drive and my head is killing me. the bitchass pops sitting next to me keeps MAN-SPREADING and pressing me into the window. he reeks of sweat and cheap cigarettes. the concept of personal space and deodorants is unbeknownst to him.

my nose is runny. i just ran out of water. my neck hurts. i earn for a comfy bed and some sleeping pills

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hmm i wonder who that tumblr mutual is…………..

So i was wondering if you ever met your beta readers or mutuals in person. It would be funny because if it was with me and my socially clumsy ass probably it would be like ".... okay, so when Viktor-".

Sadly no, because between most of them and me there is the ocean. You will be surprised, but we talk about more than Viktor! And I am hoping to meet one of my tundl friends in person this summer, very excited about those worlds colliding :D

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okay yeah I checked the ao3 subreddit and it's just an epidemic of people getting random unrelated bot hate comments.... first I get sugar daddies in my tumblr comments constantly asking me if I need $2,000... now I have bots hating on me on ao3... WHAT'S NEXT? machine herald telling me he has a glorious cult with flourishing income and he wants to spend his invention money spoiling me??? machine herald telling me my fanfiction is too long and inaccurate and I need to experience the real thing instead??????? I'D LIKE TO SEE HIM TRY

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“Jayce will understand.” S2: *sobs uncontrollably” 

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I love you, it's ruining my life