ihavebeenleftalone

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i've lost my home and now you've left

i've no one to talk to yet again

i don't want to be anywhere

i shouldn't be anywhere

i truly belonged somewhere and now

i belong nowhere

no one cares how i feel and there's no point in saying anything

i'm here to comfort myself yet again

and you're gone

it feels like before but also different

more fractured

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i don't want to be here anymore

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i want my life back

[ihavebeenleftalone]

all i've wanted for three years was a home

and i still don't have one.

i feel like you took everything from me

and you still expect more.

i'm breaking right in front of your very eyes

and it means nothing to you.

i put my life and needs on hold for someone

who would never do the same for me.

i don't think i can do this anymore

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i long to go home

but i don't have one

not anymore

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i'm tired of being with someone who can spend two hours typing out well thought out responses to people you don't know and don't actually mean anything to you, but you can't give me actual emotional support 9/10

i deserve better than this

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i regret letting you become my home

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i feel like you're not my friend

you're just my lover

[ihavebeenleftalone]

why am i always having to comfort myself ?

i deserve better than this and you won't give me it

[ihavebeenleftalone]

[ihavebeenleftalone]

you say you want to give me attention but then you don't have time

you said i deserved better than this

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i'm tired of having conversations with myself and pretending it's you

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i hate feeling like i have to try so hard just for you to love me

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this i don't want this

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i'm tired of choosing you

[ihavebeenleftalone]

i think i've just about reached my breaking point with you

i didn't sign up for this

i'm not happy and i'm tired of fighting for something that doesn't seem to be there anymore

you built up my hope like it was a house, brick by brick, and then you demolished it over and over

i don't feel safe with you, i don't feel at home

i feel like i've lost everything

[ihavebeenleftalone]

you treat me in ways that you won't treat other people because you say it's wrong to do that to them

why is it fine for you to do it to me