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Currently obsessing over y2k era guess shoulder bags

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Hey!( with the intention of this)

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I hope that someday

When I am gone,

Someone ,

Somewhere,

Picks my soul up of these pages

And thinks,

"I would have loved her."

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I lied and said I was busy.

I was busy;

but not in a way most people understand.

I was busy taking deeper breaths.

I was busy silencing irrational thoughts.

I was busy calming a racing heart.

I was busy telling myself I am okay.

Sometimes, this is my busy -

and I will not apologize for it.

-Brittin Oakman-

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‘I dream. Sometimes I think that’s the only right thing to do.’

Quotes: Maggie Stiefvater, Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Haruki Murakami, V.E. Schwab, Fernando Pessoa, Clarice Lispector, N.M. Sanchez |  Artwork by Holly Warburton

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If i ever had someone like me in my life I'd have never treated them this shitty

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Is it possible to miss someone you never knew someone you never met?

You are not aware of their appearance but you are vividly aware of their existence and also the emptiness of not being aware of them physically but this lingering feeling...this void collapses into a feeling of emptiness and this is the moment when the wave of missing of you hits it comes and goes and even stays for a while but what is this absurd feeling of missing someone who was never there what is this distant connection? Like i know you but i still don't. I am not possibly lonely or searching it feels like the void of your absence had been here forever even when i am content, is this connection spiritual or is it just sad and impossible to miss someone you never met Am i the only one? Or,

you feel it too?

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I want you more than any blue sky

Weathering with you♡

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Jamie Mills (Cheltenham, UK) Moon, 2014    GIF

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Watch "Pixies - Where Is My Mind" on YouTube

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Only if my hands could reach out the sky

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Did anyone ever get that sudden uncomfortable feeling of association with being alive....like I'd be trying soo hard to feel real at times where I feel so detached with my surroundings but I could never

And then all of a sudden when I am randomly laying on my bed peeking through the window appreciating how beautiful the sky looks today the realization of me being alive hits me hard

It's like my soul has just completely united with my mind and body and I am fully here at this place and life is real everything I did till today is real and I can't escape it, no one can and nor can I

do anything about it