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okay tw: suicide talk don't open im just fuming over tumblr posts that bother me

okay been a long time since seeing the dash and the first thing i came across was a don't disappear post and when?? will people realize that using other people as reasons to stay alive is SHIT strategy. sorry not sorry im sick and tired. whenever i was on my way to trying, having people tell you "oh xyz will feel terrible" "don't give them what they want" "suicide doesn't alleviate the pain it just moves it onto the next person/your family/your loved ones" as IFFFF i wasn't already wayyyyy past that mentality. if im convinced on doing it, y'all have NO say in matters. i don't give a single damn about how you are going to feel. that sounds like a MASSIVE you problem. be sad or whatever. i gotta put me first. makes my blood boil. im not staying alive for NONE of y'all. not my mother. not my sister. not my dad or brother or friend or loved one or anyone else. wouldn't bother me one bit seeing y'all sad. hauptsache im done and it's all over. stop using such weak arguments. but also i have seen a few people who this whole "don't die it'll make others sad" pep talk has worked on, so??????? maybe some people are truly goners. bonkers in the head. in too deep to ever be able to return. too angry. viciously resentful. i cannot comprehend. like my brain is incapable of computing the fact that after suffering so much you still would prefer to keep on suffering just to not let others suffer(get sad)??? chat what kind of BS logic is that?? like genuinely when it comes to that point, i am too far gone. i strongly STRONGLY abhor this argument. use something else. there are many other reasons to keep on living. or even if there aren't (because realistically some lives are just way too depressing and horrifying), obeying a set of rules put on by a higher power is honestly what has worked for me. if it weren't for my faith, i would have unsubscribed LONGG ago and stayed that way. if you aren't religious, then oh well. stay strong and keep swimming buddy. my relationship with faith is undescribable idk how to explain it. it's like. i know humans are thoroughly flawed and that i shouldn't expect anything from them anymore, so all i am left with is God. like humans are so fundamentally... unstable?? untrustworthy?? idk how to put it into words but they will keep failing you, so i would much rather put my belief into a creator who will always be on my side. that's why i think the "your loved ones will become sad" argument is so weak for me. because they were never an anchor for me in the first place.

SCREW living out of spite. i don't care who im letting win by dying or whatever or if im the losing side because i gave up on life. i don't fouking care????? im Not living to influence how others feel.

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why am i so insignificant in the lives of those who are yet so significant to mine

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I'm like a scientist for people Im smitten with. You know how for example some scientists study the stars and all manner of natural to unnatural phenomena? That's me but with you.

I want to know all of you

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to trade freedom for power.. hmm

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to be a wanderer and yet have a home... i wonder if i could ever accomplish that in life. to be free and still have a person to return to. who'd wait for me.

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Hanif Abdurraqib interviewed by Ruth Awad: Joy Is Not Promised to You

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@fleurre !!

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Imagine Tomura and Dabi swap bodies and the whole time Dabi is like “Why is everything so hard to do? I just decayed my fucking phone.” while Tomura is like “This body is in constant pain and I can’t even cry about it.” and then once they get switched back they both have a silent respect for each other.

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Characterizing Characters:

Kaminari Denki:

I’ll be using the source material to create a simple list of traits he has already, then based on those traits, things we can infer about him based on those behaviors.

SourceMaterial!Kaminari is a very cautious kid. He actively weighs risks involved with actions, though he’s normally not taken seriously.

SourceMaterial!Kaminari is acutely aware of his powers. He will outright refuse to use them if it isn’t safe for him to use them. He’s one of the only students in the show to be conscious of this early in the series.

SourceMaterial!Kaminari is one of the only characters in the (beginning) series to pick on/not be afraid of Bakugou’s outbursts.

SourceMaterial!Kaminari is a fairly calm kid outside of high pressure situations. He’s a chill dude.

SourceMaterial!Kaminari is one of the only characters to have a true canonical crush on someone. (Where it has literally been addressed.)

SourceMaterial!Kaminari is NOT dumb. He may have some of the lowest grades in his class, but he has the lowest grades in the top class, of the most exclusive program, in the most exclusive school.

SourceMaterial!Kaminari is a very sweet child. Seem to regularly check on and worry about his friend’s physical and mental health.

SourceMaterial!Kaminari has quirk envy! He does not like how dangerous his quirk can be.

SourceMaterial!Kaminari is one of the only students we see whose quirk has a severe immediate negative effect on the user.

Now we can make some inferences based on the information we have already.

ProHero!Kaminari would be a media ICON. Press conferences, guest appearances, talk shows. He’s doing it all.

ProHero!Kaminari would not start his own agency, he would work with or under one of his classmates.

ProHero!Kaminari would probably be used as a defibrillator at some point in his career. He was sent out to more rescue missions after that.

ProHero!Kaminari would have severe, full body quirk scaring.

ProHero!Kaminari would’ve dealt with some kind of brain damage from quirk overuse.

Now some Kaminari headcanons! ⚡️

Kaminari struggled with seizures when his quirk was manifesting. It’s not so much an issue as an adult, but it’s still monitored.

Kaminari and Jirou are the first two to have a merch collab.

Kaminari took multiple years off from hero work after graduation. The pressure was getting to him.

Kaminari gives little static shocks to his friends as a joke.

Kaminari does not like when people joke about his brain issue after quirk use. But he lives with it because he knows it looks funny, even if it hurts.

Doesn’t agree with Mineta’s behavior, but thinks he’s a cool dude otherwise.

This one was a little short, but I loooove him. By next CC will be after that poll his decided.

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when i first saw you …

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something semi-casual

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY IZUKU MIDORIYA 🫶🫶

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the 3.5mm headphone jack was the wound through which light entered your phone it was a little cave for angels to live in inside your phone and big tech got rid of it cause theyre scared of God the wrong way

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Hot ticket items 2/4