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That nonsexual intimacy of just being in each other's spaces, of gravitating towards each other, always subconsciously reaching out to each other. Finding comfort and satisfaction in being close to each other, breathing each other in, existing together.

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That nonsexual intimacy of just being in each other's spaces, of gravitating towards each other, always subconsciously reaching out to each other. Finding comfort and satisfaction in being close to each other, breathing each other in, existing together.

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Those I Loved #3

"I just wanna be the girl you like"

This is a game.

This a game and I know it's a game.

I know its a game because it's a game I started.

Sometimes I wonder if you know the effect you have on me. When our eyes connect, knowing smiles adorning our faces.

I wonder when we leave a conversation, do you replay it over in your head the same way I do, analyzing every little word.

Maybe it's my pride keeping me from admitting the obvious but I refuse.

"It's hard to keep my cool when other bitches tryna get with my dude, when other chicken tryna get in my coop, cause you're a one in a million there aint a man like you"

I think a part of me will always hold a spot for you in my heart.

Do I wanna know if the feelings go both ways?

Do I want to risk the safest thing I know.

I try to move on and forget but the feelings pull me back like a tether everytime.

Too much for friends too little for lovers

"Maybe I'm too busy being yours to fall for someone new."

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Those I Loved #2

"We both still young, so what's the rush?" When I reflect upon our relationship, its filled with whirlwind emotions.

Music, Art, Insightfulness, Love connected us.

Games, Lies, Scars, Lust broke us.

You felt like the thrill of a rollercoaster, what it's like to be surrounded by fair lights, and a soft kiss being placed on my forehead while simultaneously feeling like the anxiety before a shot, when an outfit you planned in your head doesn't come out right, more questions than answers.

All mine, All mine, All mine, All mine, All mine, All MINE.

The sounds of Brent Faiyaz and Sonder surrounding us.

You were my everything.

I thought I was yours.

"If I knew that I was wasting my time"

I never knew that love could physically hurt until I met you. Unanswered questions, fears of health, and loss of tranquility.

I knew I was capable of loving but I never thought to the capacity I did with you, maybe that's why 2.5 years later I'm filled with shouldv'e could've wouldv'es.

YOU scarred me, time heals but never forgets.

I've become a better woman because of the pain, and that I appreciate. I could make the next pay for the crimes of my last, but that's not fair.

Healing was hell, but I'm glad I healed for me,

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Those I've Loved #1

Sometimes I think about the first girl I loved. Not the one I thought I loved, or the one where I loved her body even when I couldn't love mine, but the first girl I truly loved.

Heart beating fast, time stopping, breath hitching love.

And it was all casual. It was all for fun.

Some days I reminisce about the ease of our -ship, and wonder "Did I love her, or love the feeling of being equally chosen?" But then I think about the late nights laying together, tears shed, and secrets confessed;

She was the first girl I truly loved.

And walking away was the hardest thing to do.

Maybe I will find a love greater than the one I received, knowing from this point on I will never settle.

But the dull ache that beats at every inside joke I remember or Drag queen I see doesn't erase the memories of the first girl I ever loved.

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Nyara Sabally with the Olympic rings grill is 🔥🔥🔥

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Nichelle Nichols by Robin Damore

Rest in peace beautiful Nichelle.   

Born: December 28, 1932, Robbins, IL

Died: July 30, 2022

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Megan’s Instagram Update (May 16, 2022)

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Twenty-Nothing #2

I've always asked myself, "How would I be able to navigate this ever changing world the same way my parents did, and succeed?" The answer to that question initially was too follow their blueprint. Go to school, Graduate, get a job, start a family, get married, etc. The thing I never accounted for was the significant word in my question, everchanging. Their blueprint would never work for me, I barely can account for myself at twenty, never mind a baby at twenty two. This world we now live in has new ideas and new ways that affect my generation way differently. With that new found discovery, I've been questioning what my idea of success is. Is it the big house? The nice job? Smart kids? or is it me making it to class on time and managing to squeeze a nap in during the day? Having tp learn a world that we were supposed to be taught is a scary thing.

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Twenty-Nothing #1

No one tells you that young adulthood is the hardest transition to go through. Leaving childhood while straddling the line of full adulthood makes it even more terrifying. I have always been older in spirit, ever since I was a young, but now being twenty, instead of feeling twenty, holds new challenges. Career, Love, Sex, Money, Politics, and much more swirl my still growing brain. Learning who I am and who I am becoming is scary, but I am excited for the ride.

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Missing👇

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𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐬 ☆ﾟ.*･｡ﾟ.*･｡ﾟ

life would be nothing without a playlist to go with it. here are some spotify playlists i��ve made based on moods/people/themes i think a lot of people would appreciate ♡

・it girl

・if i had control over the gossip girl reboot soundtrack

・effy stonem

・rory gilmore

・hyperpop

・16 in the 80s

・sailor moon

・parisian

・summer

・fifties & sixties

・maddy perez

・keep movin forward

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This is who Thanos THOUGHT he was. She is the Original. This level of power, with no infinity gauntlet? Thanos could never.