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i would feel so much cuter if i was like 30-50 pounds lighter 😝

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I HATE MY GENES. LITERALLY I CAN NEVER LOOK LIKE THIS BECAUSE OF MY STUPID FUCKING BONE STRUCTURE AND IT MAKES ME SO UPSET

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yo why tf do i hate myself so much¿

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FUCK I HATE THINKING ABOUT THE PAST

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im gonna cry i cant sleep, i havent studied for my exam in the morning (i dont know shit in the class) and even if i wanted to i literally dont have the motivation to study.

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I miss you :(

we hung out everyday so i still don’t understand why you ignored me out of nowhere.

its been a year but im still wondering what i did wrong.

did i even do anything wrong???

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IWANNADIE

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TW Don’t kill yourself today

Don’t kill yourself today

Because your Netflix trial still has a week left

Don’t kill yourself today

Because no one else will finish off the chicken in the fridge

Don’t kill yourself today

Because I know for a fact that Starbucks is releasing a new Frappuccino sometime next month

Yes, your mother will miss you

Yes your bully will make a sappy Facebook post about how what a a wonderful person you were

And yes

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem

You know that

You’ve known that

Everyone and anyone has been shoving that down your throat since they first learned what the word suicide meant

So don’t kill yourself

Until you finish your shampoo and conditioner at the same time

Don’t kill yourself

Until Doctor Who is finally cancelled

Don’t kill yourself

Until you tell someone your best pasta recipe 

Don’t kill yourself 

Because I will keep coming up with reasons for you not to

And I need you

To hear all of them

Don’t kill yourself

I love you

You’re important

It’s a bad day

Not a bad life

There is more to this

The world will keep spinning on its axis without you

But

Think of all the sunrises you’d miss

I know this sounds pointless

But when you’re sitting in front of everything deadly you own

Revising your goodbyes

There will be too much darkness 

To see anything else

But this is not about seeing anything else

This is about turning off the lights

This is about finding the bed instead of the noose

This is about giving yourself one more day

Even if it takes ten thousand of those

One more morning’s

Until

“I can’t wait for tomorrow”

This is about staying alive

Because there’s gonna be a new Marvel movie

No one should miss that

This is about staying alive

Because the future is coming 

And it’s ready for you

I don’ t need you to see it

I just need you to believe you can make it 

Until then

- Hannah Dains

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Ways That Helped Me Lose Weight

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Food—–

I eat a max of 1500 calories a day. That’s only to lose weight, once I reach my gw (120 lbs), I will start eating a little bit more to maintain that weight. 

Most of the time I eat fruits like strawberries, oranges and bananas.

I make smoothies and include almond milk and greek yogurt and spinach. ~300 cals, drinking all of it (a whole cup) makes me full. 

Whole grain bread and almond butter (~280 cals) is a good snack when I haven’t eaten enough.

And any protein I can find. Mostly chicken. I also make sure to eat on a smaller plate, measuring stuff correctly and drinking water before a meal to prevent overeating.

I use lifesum app to track stuff (free and premium)

Work outs—-

working out obviously helps you lose weight. I do the chloe ab workout everyday and a bunch of random workouts I feel like for 20 minutes-1 hour in total. 

Adding any kind of cardio helps a lot too, I haven’t been able to do so (walking/jogging) outside because Canada is cold.

Make sure to engage your core and keep your body moving!

Fasting—–

I haven’t started yet but I heard good things come from fasting. I’m starting with 16:8, 16 hours of fasting and 8 hours of eating. Do your research before starting!

Try your hardest to not binge! Keep your mind clear and busy yourself and keep the pantry closed when you’re fasting. Keep hydrated!!!

Other——

I did NOT take any supplements or medicine to lose weight. I don’t like putting stuff I know I don’t need in my body. 

I started 2 weeks ago at 143 lbs and now am currently 139 lbs. Gotta keep going!! 

remember to be safe! and keep in mind that things that worked for me, might not work for you. xoxo.

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˚✧₊⁎ 𝔫𝔢𝔴 𝔶𝔢𝔞𝔯, 𝔫𝔢𝔴 𝔯𝔲𝔩𝔢𝔰 ⁎⁺˳✧༚

⁎⁺˳✧༚ never eat more than 500cals a day

⁎⁺˳✧༚ take at least 10,000 steps a day

⁎⁺˳✧༚ always drink water before, during, and after meals

⁎⁺˳✧༚ work out at least twice a week

⁎⁺˳✧༚ no junk food

⁎⁺˳✧༚ no fast food

⁎⁺˳✧༚ eat fruits and veggies more than anything else

⁎⁺˳✧༚ no soda

⁎⁺˳✧༚ drink tea every morning

⁎⁺˳✧༚ weigh in every two weeks

⁎⁺˳✧༚ take walks as often as possible

⁎⁺˳✧༚ dont tell anyone about your weight loss

⁎⁺˳✧༚ hide in baggy clothes until summer

⁎⁺˳✧༚ take B12 everyday

⁎⁺˳✧༚ most importantly, lose that god damn weight

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Workout

So I created some workouts of my own.

Toning Routine

Abs 100 situps + 100 crunches

Arms 100 arm circles

Butt + Legs 100 side leg raises ea side

Fasting Workout

2 hour jog + walk twice a day

Repeat my toning workout twice a day. I will be doing this on days that I fast.

Workout when wanting to overeat

1 hour walk, 1 hour jog + walk, 1 hour jog and my toning workout. Which this one will probably be done a lot because ever since I have been restricting I have been wanting to binge alot. I try not to do it . It doesn't always work.

If you want to try any of these you can but you do not have to these are just the workouts that I like to do. I know it's not very healthy but at this point I don't care so I do them anyway.

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Face reveal and transformation pic! I was so ugly!! From March 2019 at 240lbs to October 2019 at 188lbs!

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weekly workouts and how to accurately calculate cals !!

these are very easy and basic workouts, obviously you can mold it to your own level of activity but if you’re just getting started in being active this is great 🤗

dm me for credit if these are your posts

stay safe loves 👼🏽

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I need to remind myself that it’s fine that I’m not skinny yet, that my expectations are too high. It’s not like I got this fat in one day, so I can’t lose it all in one day. It’s okay if it takes time to achieve my goal.

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How I Know I’m Not Okay

Being red-faced and bleary-eyed from throwing up doesn’t feel like a big deal

Not eating for a day doesn’t feel like a big deal

Standing up and having to hold onto something to not fall down doesn’t feel like a big deal

Loving the sound of my stomach growling doesn’t feel like a big deal

Buying food just to throw it away doesn’t feel like a big deal

Thinking 1,000 calories is too much doesn’t feel like a big deal

Analyzing my appearance and picking out everything I hate whenever I see my reflection doesn’t feel like a big deal

Being afraid to eat entire food categories doesn’t feel like a big deal

Hating myself for eating doesn’t feel like a big deal

Feel free to add more

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workouts

ABS

russian twists: these help for a small waist and with lovehandles. i started to do this a week ago and my waist shrunk two inches!

plank: this is also good for your center abdomen. it will tighten your core and is also good for your whole body

crunches: there are different variations to this. all of them work amazing with fast results.

THIGHS AND BUTT

squats: pretty obvious choice. squats help in growing ur booty and toning your legs.

lunges: lunges are effective for your whole leg and streches your muscles as well

leg lifts: these work amazing for when you aren’t in the mood to work out. they help that thigh gap.

ARMS

push-ups: you can modified these. these are good for extra mass.

arm circles: keep them tight and the burn will be stronger. this is super duper simple and easy to do on a lazy day

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bicep/tricep lifts: these work AMAZING. but the soreness the next day is a bit much mm

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